#( I HAVE MISSED YOUU

[thedeadthree]

-`. 𝐎𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐀𝐆.

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 @carrionsflower and @leviiackrman to post a few tunes from my on repeat playlist!! ty ty!!!!!!!

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆: @galvus, @griffin-wood, @queennymeria, @jendoe, @grapecaseschoices, @keilumennura, @unholymilf, @florbelles, @lavampira, @leondaltons, @fragilestorm, @alltoowelltv, @marazhaiaezyrraesh, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @carlosoliveiraa, @celticwoman, @shellibisshe, @marivenah, @perpetuagf, @arduath, @envergothash, @quickhacked, @katsigian, @theviridianbunny, @gortash, @bloodofvalyria, @gwynbleidd, @faerune, @shadowglens, @mrdekarios, @risingsh0t, @cloudofbutterflies92, @kyber-infinitygems, @nokstella and you!!!!!

— 𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒: shuffle your “On Repeat” playlist and list the first 10 songs.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 — taylor swift.

𝐈’𝐌 𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 — alt blk era.

Яд (𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐒𝐎𝐍) — erika lundmoen.

𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 — nina utashiro.

𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆 — billie eilish.

𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐘 — tate mcrae.

𝐂𝐎𝐁𝐑𝐀 (𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐊 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐗) — megan thee stallion, spirit box.

𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐎 𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐊 — odetari.

𝐇𝐄𝐘 — ic3peak.

𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐀 — joseph trapanese, percival schuttenbach.

#only if you want to!! <3 #leg.tagged #leg.txt #TY TY AIRIKA AND JESS YOU DEARIES YOUU 🥀🤧✨ this was so fun to do!!!!!!! <3 #cythiacore is the archer and she wrote that song about her ik this taylor told me 🥀♥️🥴😌✨ #yelling that every song is from a clown playlist they have ye olde brainspace all day all the time xkxjhxhx love that !!!!!! #I AM SO SO SORRY IF I MISSED BESTIES i was on mobile for this 🥀😭 please take this as ur tag!!!!!! ♥️

[labrdorite]

You and ratio are likeeeee Greek architecture, falling asleep while he reads to you, and playful insults 💖

“playful insults” & ambrose has tried to kill that man twice /hj

also hi this man has genuinely had me scrolling through all kinds of buildings, sceneries, & statues its insane i CANT STAND HIM.

#— ✉️ #i wanna do some kind of mythology au w them i HAVE TO #its SUCH A MISSED OPPORTUNITY TO NOT. DO THAT. #anyways hi nickkkkkk hiii :D HOW ARE YOUU

[lets-laughagain]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANAAAAAA 💕💞💕💞💕💞💕 hope you're having the best day and that your year ahead gives you everything good!! you're such a wonderful person and i appreciate you always!

thank you so much kay!!!! everything back at you 🩷🩷🩷🩷 YOU are wonderful and always lovely 🥺🥺

#holyshit #i miss youu #i miss being around here and having those fun times when something big is happening and everyone is online

[smileymoth]

How it feels to know that youre forevr going to miss your dad because when he wasn't in a mood he was the nicest coolest chillest most loving person ever, but yet in every dream you have of him he's going to be even more unpleasant than he was irl because he fucked you up ever so slightly (read: a lot)

#moth post #i miss my dadddddd #i miss him but i dont miss fearing him. i wish i didnt have to be afraid of him bc i know he didnt mean any harm #he just didnt know how to regulate his emotions #parental death tw #BUT IT STILL SUCCKSSSSSS HQUSHQBEJWHDIWBWKRBFJEH FUCKA YOUU WHY DIDNT YOU ACT NORMAL

[kluuter-time]

THE GENTLEMAN IS BACK I MISSED YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

#professor layton #nintendo #I MISSED YOUU #I HAVE WAITED FOR YOUR RETURN #I'M SORRY TOMODACHI LIFE BUT I HAVE TO CELEBRATE THIS

[appleciders]

i miss art classes so bad ngl

#relief i miss you monotype i miss you mixed media i miss youu #i really miss the structure of having to set aside hours of my week to Make Art it was so so good #and like learning new techniques!! getting to play around and go ‘this might look like shit but i wonder what will Happen!!’ #having an accessible Space set aside for it…getting to come in during studio time earbuds In and spend 5 hours straight… #and my teachers were chill (which i know is def not universal lol) so it was so positive and fun #i want to learn more stuff i want to try i want to create and vibe and hang !! #tala says there’s some free classes near her we’ll have to go check it out #my toxic trait IS every two weeks i get very into the idea of learning to do a new art form that has a very high starter barrier #like a month ago it was screenprinting two weeks ago it was stained glass today it’s digital drawing tomorrow who knows #but i have food at HOME (embroidery and printmaking materials untouched for months) so i perservere

[enslaughts]

regarding. . .          jacob black + obsessive compulsive disorder.

as you’d expect,  control is a big aspect of any werewolf’s personality. it’s borderline essential to most werewolf characteristics if one wants to interact cohesively with the rest of the world.     however,  jacob handles his own sudden,  un - anticipated lycanthropy with far less grace than most others he knows.     overnight,  jacob’s entire life is turned upon its head without his consent,   accompanied by the trauma of his first shift and what it means to be a werewolf at all,  the cushion to all of it is a man he’d been so suspicious of,  pulling friends and acquaintances bit by bit away from their previous lives until they’re no longer familiar.     it’s a lot,  on top of the everyday stresses that come with his life already,  as well as his more recent investment in helping bella cope with her own demons along the way.     his life is suddenly dangerous and unfamiliar in every place he needs it to feel safe and secure.     his actions themselves and even his own feelings are suddenly so untethered from the person he spent all his life becoming,  they barely feel like his anymore.

there are two main components to most anxiety disorders.  the given anxiety itself ;  specifically,  the initial process of something causing distressing,  persistent anxiety, and then often the resulting dysfunctional behaviors that reduce the anxiety. ocd itself can have noteworthy  ‘ types ’ :  cleaning and contamination,  symmetry and ordering,  forbidden or harmful thoughts and impulses,  and hoarding.     because jacob’s symptoms lie most in the ordering and thoughts / impulses category,  i will only be going over these two in this headcanon.

ordering  :  a big part of jacob’s anxiety is over control, moreover the lack of it.     the feeling that he does not belong to himself.     his thoughts and feelings are shared with an entire pack of other people when he’s a wolf.     his future partner is borderline, if not entirely guaranteed, to be someone he won’t get to choose,  but instead his brain will choose for him,  which in of itself isn’t nearly as terrifying as the prospect that he won’t even be able to choose for himself how he gets to feel about it,  that even his right to forming his own thoughts will be robbed of him.     shifting into a creature that’s just as powerful as it is deadly is something that can happen to him at the drop of a hat,  at any moment,  as long as his emotions behave even remotely in their own accord,  which, is how emotions tend to work.     

this is one of jacob’s obsessions,  and what helps to reduce this is to meticulously keep track of and control what he needs to believe is his.     naturally,  this means most of this meticulousness is reserved for his own things ;  his room,  his belongings,  his clothes,  his hair.     everything has to be a certain way now,  because in everything he does,  there's now a desperate need to keep hold of it,  a compensation to the thought that he's going to lose it all.     everything in his room and garage has it’s place,  deliberate and intentional to the point that if someone touches or grabs at one of his things,  even if it’s to simply look and set back down,  his anxiety spikes and he will one hundred percent hover,  escalating - ly irritable until he can personally return it to it’s rightful spot. another habit to reduce this feeling is being deliberate and habitual with his own body.     routines like morning jogs,  or the time in which he showers or wakes up,  are opportunities to own his own physical actions.     if outside any of specific routine of his,  counting his own steps is an accessible method to achieve the same sense of security within his own actions.     brushing or braiding his hair is also helpful and another reason why he doesn’t want it cut,  as well as the permeating desire to remain as himself as he was before he was a werewolf.

thoughts  and impulses  :  this one’s honestly the doozy of the two.     actions are worrisome and the impulse part of the two,  but the idea that his own thoughts aren’t his is foundationally distressing to his sense of autonomy.     with being part animal comes the instincts of one—   the instincts of a predator at that ;  to hunt,  to prioritize and optimize survival,  to respond to fear with violent self defense or complete concession,  to obtain security through physical feats.     most of these behaviors are a direct contrast to his personality before his first shift.     the person he thought he was and wanted to be was generous,  thoughtful,  nurturing,  warm, to fix things and to thrive,  to do things just because,  no personal survival or reward necessary,  no need to compete in the ongoing power struggle of nature.     that’s not to say wolves don’t participate in any of these qualities—   in fact,  jacob knows real wolves’ behaviors aren’t that black and white or brutal.     [ funnily enough,  this fear - fueled black and white thinking can be more alike to the animal instincts he’s desperately trying to avoid ]     it’s the anxiety of the shift itself being something he doesn’t get a say in,  that it’s completely at the whim of fickle,  moment to moment,  fluid and irrational emotions.     that anxiety only ever snowballs any stress he might already feel that could prompt a shift.     anger that would otherwise be fleeting becomes fear that his mind can’t stop obsessing over until he can soothe it somehow,  assure him that he is in control,  and that he won’t hurt anyone unless he himself decides to.

unfortunately,  one of the quickest and easiest ways to stop a shift is pain.     intense pain interrupts the self defense mechanism of shifting to prioritize the healing process instead.     if ever jacob feels like he’s genuinely on the verge of an unintentional shift,  the quick snap of an arm over his knee or clamp of the jaws into his hand is usually enough to short - circuit the process,  moreso if the shift has already come  and gone before he could stop it.     pain becomes soothing,  an act he feels the benefit of choosing,  as well as controlling a shift and ensuring that if someone is to suffer for his lack of control,  it will be him alone,  and it will be his decision. another far less damaging coping method is to just. . . ask someone for help.  this is rather simple,  but it requires far more patience and awareness than breaking his own bones,  as well as admitting out loud to others something he’s deemed a moral failing of his,  a personal defect.  even just asking someone to remind him who he was is can be grounding,  which is something he would have learned the moment bella responded to the voicing of his fear of losing himself with reassurance that he just wouldn’t,  that she’d be there to remind him,  whenever he needed,  that she simply wouldn’t let it happen.     that confidence in ones own ability is something he envies as well as hopes to believe in,  even if it’s childish,  even if it’s vicariously through whoever gives it, if he trusts them enough for it to mean something to him.     group activities that engage his sense of self before monsters existed offer a dual calm,  one instilled by doing the activity itself,  another by having someone else to verify and confirm his own behavior to him just by being there to respond to the familiar,  human jacob that always existed before he ever had a reason to question it.

a tragic irony is that when jacob is a wolf,  most of these anxieties evaporate immediately and get replaced with a simpler experience of reality.     instincts sharpen the world,  narrow it to focus,  refine actions and reactions to the present moment in which fear is much harder to conceive,  as fear by nature is based on theoretical what - ifs.     eventually,  a healthier way to experience his own lycanthropy would be to accept all aspects of himself,  both human and wolf,  but with the entire invasion of the supernatural into his life so fresh,  he’s desperate to cling to his own personhood,  which is very much steeped in the version of him that didn’t even know werewolves existed,  much less that he was one and what it means.

there’s no room to learn what kind of werewolf jacob black wants to be when he doesn’t feel like that’s something he ever got to choose,  or ever will.     and so,  it remains something to fear,  which means it remains something he cannot control.

#study. . .⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙳𝙲𝙰𝙽𝙾𝙽⠀:⠀jacob black #have a two year old headcanon i guess! #cause i'm moving him over here god bless #i need to re - post his divergencies because i am very much anti s - meyer thank youu but #it's mostly the werewolf lore tbh #it's just regular ass lycanthropy like most werewolf media portrays and has NO link to the quileute tribe #jacob is very much quileute but his werewolfism is entirely separate and something that can happen to anybody were they #a.) bitten or b.) either of their parents were werewolves hereditarily or contractually #jacob inherited it from his mother who was born a werewolf from her own parents #i need to flesh it out more but her father was who she got it from who was Also born that way instead of being bitten #this is why jacob's transformation is a surprise to him as it's a recessive gene at that point and none of his siblings got it #a surprise to both him and his family since he's the youngest and his dad truly thought at that point the family gene died with his wife #ANYWAY....... may or may not remove him again cause i truly hate miss meyer lmao but #i've got too many mutuals w twilight muses i wanna play barbie w you.... #ask to tag // #self harm //

[frogcoded]

Why are men like this

#made the mistake of being nice to this Erasmus student my friends befriended the other day and now he won’t leave me alone #like yesterday night I went out with my friends and he was there too and first thing he did when he arrived was approach me and say #‘ where were youu you were missed’ like 1 bro cringe we saw each other ONCE and 2 you know damn well I wasn’t in your lessons bc we attend #two different degrees thank god #I also don’t like how he’s forcing me to be rude because in order to avoid him I spent the whole night talking to my friend in Italian #so he couldn’t join the conversation and bother me like dude I don’t want to be rude but you are really forcing my hand here #also whenever we were walking he was clearly trying to get closer to me like dude stop!!! fucking take a hint!!! #tried to mention the fact that I have a boyfriend but idk if he heard me bc he kept acting like this #also like. i shouldn’t need to tell you I have a bf or even to have one for you to stop acting ducking weird #if he tries any shit next time I see him I will just straight up tell him he’s making me uncomfortable idk #my friends also told me he’s acting like this with another girl in the group so f to us I guess

[m0e-ru]

(reading my own ao3) wow this bitch is so correct and on point i wish there was more . cmon guys look at this shit https://archiveofourown.org/series/2536405

#kommento #// blatantly promoing my writing . i miss my 2021 early 2022 era i wrote so good #// not to shit on myself but i kind of lost my charm on that latest one from december #// but like woww ughhhh i wish there was more <- the writer #// FIVE MINUTES LATE I LOVE YOUU yorue the fucking epitome of the ever i loveyou kissing you #// AND ANTIHISTAMES !! AND EXTRA TIP and youre lost i love all of you i lveo you all mwa mwma mwamwamwa #// kind of fell off and lost the writing style i liked on dont let it rain BUT STILL i wrote something so IM STILL WINNING !! #// when i finish my kitchen fic it's over for all of you (shes almost at 2k and shes still going) #// when i finally finish something so au specific so self indulgent IT'S ALL OVER !!!!! #// i forgot my love for serialization and seeing things come together and whole i just wonder if i'll still have the ambition after that lon #// (in the corner) wow i wish theres more content of adachi and th attendnatn being friends #// besides the /wildly gestures at whatever the hell goes on in the iznmi tags/ whatever the FUCK this is #// i have ao3 svior btw theres so much shit censored when i open up the tag after 27 years and i do Not want to know what's in there #// sometimes i wish i could start all over and feel That Rush again where everythings so good and fun and whimsy #// learning new things one after the other like it's SO EXCITING !!!! just without the horrors this time #// and that i have YOU GUYS !!! (youre standing across me from the convenience store counter while i flop at using the barcode scanner) #// i wouldnt even KNOW adachis place in fandom i'll just be like LOOK AT HINM !!! hes so fucking terrible these two should be besties #// OKAY enogh remensicneing i need to GO !! BACK TO ACTUAL WORK !!! i love you all i hope youre all healthy

[tapewormoffthestring]

drama club is fun. we're assigned a story and then a character from the story and we just get to pretend to be those characters in the story and it's fun

#like when the kid who played rooster would approach me in the halls and say ''annie im gonna get youu'' #when i'd steal the hannigan paddle backstage and pretend to hit my friend who played hannigan with it #jokingly referring to my classmate who played warbucks as my dad #''i don't flirt'' ''well i don't normally fall asleep on [classmate]'s chest but here we are'' #making headcanons for the show based off of stuff we do #like how miss hannigan is doing the never fully dressed dance in another room the whole time #she needs to let them finish #or that whenever shes at her desk shes drawing and the reason she hates little girls is that they keep distracting her #a fun one is that annie's parents actually left her at the orphanage because they didn't want to raise a main character #based off of how all the orphans have black leggings and short sleeve tshirts and i have red leggings and a red and black long sleeve shirt #and my dress has sleeves while the other orphan dresses have tank straps #and im the only one with a red bucket all the other buckets are black #and of course i'm the only one with red hair #the idea that bundles in the second show was actually bundles' cousin filling in because he was late #we just get to be really silly with this show and it's so much fun i'm so sad it's over but so happy it happened

[casboobs]

appreciation post for @devilsapprentice bc i wouldn't be here without you. thank you for encouraging me and being so kind always! i can always count on you for tasteful takes, cas positive posts which count like lil self love pills, stunning art and gif sets, genius edits, heartwrenching posts, cool movies and the best playlists ever. horror fans follow him btw!

#i will be forever grateful for the fact that you put me on pj harvey!!! #thank youu #ily nick <3 #also sorry we haven't been talking i have been exhausted this year has been awful worse than others i want us to interact more i miss you

[thedeadthree]

songs + urls tag

tagged by the sweetest @confidentandgood to list songs that start with the letters of my url! thank you so much cam! 🤍

tagging: @griffin-wood, @risingsh0t, @blackreaches, @saintsilver, @marivenah, @leviiackrman, @arklay, @amistrio, @chuckhansen, @blissfulalchemist, @florbelles, @queennymeria, @loriane-elmuerto, @rosebarsoap, @shellibisshe, @jackiesarch, @statichvm, @pearlcscent, @trvelyans, @yennas, @nokstella, @nellplays, @lacunafiction, @danielsullivan, @cobb-vanthss, @aceghosts, @celticwoman, @flyntz, @swordcoasts, @hoesephseed, @pheedraws, @redroci and you!

I : i am not a woman, i’m a god - halsey

N: no good reason - omar apollo

O: open wound - ki:theory

D: DISTRACTIONS III: spoiled rotten - kilo kish

R: RAT WARS - HEALTH

I: i want to talk about you - ryo fukui

L: life on mars? - david bowie

N: NC-17 - HEALTH

E: eclipse - pink floyd

R: rihannon - fleetwood mac

E: excess - perturbator, HEALTH

V: vs reality - AYA GLOOMY

A: antagonistic - chris cardena, sebastian robertson, pacific avenue

R: running up that hill - kate bush

I: it’s raining vengeance - michael giacchino

N: no time to die - billie eilish

E: effortlessly - madison beer

#only if you want to of course! 🌿💚 #and if you’ve done this already as always please feel free to ignore 🤍 and if i missed you please take this as ur tag! #t: about leg #t: text #leg.txt #leg.tagged #no time to die and lhysa? lhysa/solas? sobbing screaming MESS.. it has me YELLING by how fitting it is? #antagonistic makes me miss cyberpunk ✨🤧 ill finish vikas playthrough eventually! #you can find a lot of this on vikas/lamias/martas and lía on their playlists jxhxhxh #running up that hill/life on mars/ open wound and rihannon my most beloveds #so many songs here that? i adore sm? #THIS WAS SO LOVELY TO DO CAM I LITERALLY ADORE U SM U SWEETEST SOUL EVER YOUU 🤍🤧 #i should have shuffled my spotify instead on looking for them individually sjsjxhxh ✨🥴 #since I have like…… 2000+ songs ✨🥴🤍🤍 BUT THIS WAS CUTE and all of the songs i adore sm so! #the official paige furlan song ✨😌 it’s her middle name after all! rihannon! 🤍🤍

[totheidiot]

oh my god, i miss bangladesh so much

#that feeling of homesickness like??? #i miss my friends like for sure but i have also turned to missing my country like i miss the fuchka stands #where i got to eat them with the street dust and it was great !! #i miss the hell of a traffic and thaf loud sound thaf made me want to die but i miss it so much !! #i miss walking through cantonment and look at the ponds and the birds #i miss pabna and looking at that mental ward #i miss hearing bangla every single day #i miss that good old feeling you know like you're in a third world country and everything looks a bit dirty but it's home you know?? #i miss the fucked up politics #bangladesh... i loved youu #how do i translate this feeling in writing #should i fuck everything and write a bengai!jon au where it's the main theme?? like idk someone needs to give me a prompt for that #🍂 arian's shit #arian contemplates his universe

[cricketcatcher]

me staring at the Devon Rex at my shelter (she hugged me)

#she’s already adopted….I will miss YOUU…. #it was like she was trying to merge with me #have u guys ever pet a Devon Rex #OHOHOHO #so soft….. #worst takes you've seen

[butchdykekondraki]

Tw suggestive //

You've heard of Friday Night Funkin

Now get ready for Friday Night Fucking.

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

– Quackity 🎲

holy shit you are so fucking corny/aff

#[jay] #suggestive #DUCKIEEE MI AMOR #MY LOVE #HELLO #HI #HIII I MSSED OYU #HII I MISED YOUU SO MUCH. HELLO #I LOVE YOU #I LOVE YOUUU #SO MUCH #I MISSED YOU. I LOVE YUOU #<- SORRY IM. VERY EMOTIONAL FOR SOME REASON. #im having a moment. of like . sheer joy and love. #sorry you sent me this and i was like 'oh wow. i fucking Love her' #ougofhgj #i love you. a lot

[trcnsitioncl]

i can tell you're checking me out. (steve. heh!) / @loyaltyworn

IT'S A HOT DAY, and they've been getting work done on this little house Steve bought — and it's slow going, really, because stuff like this happens, but they have all the time in the world. Anyway, Bucky's facing away from him, and he's taking a break, and just —— the muscles in his back are moving just so, and —

" Guilty, " he says, holding out his hands in his own defense. " What? It's a good view. " And then, because he's him and they're both gross and sweaty, he gets that look in his eye and teases, " I mean, you probably smell like a workhorse, so I'm glad I'm over here, but the view's nice. "

#[ muse : not a perfect soldier but a good man :: steve rogers ] #loyaltyworn #( I HAVE MISSED YOUU #AND THEMMM )