#'Eternal Session'

[mirror-to-the-past]

Okay, now I've finished-finished KH2, and like... I don't have *terribly* much to add (post-mortem edit: lie), since I was pretty much on the brink of the final battle when I last posted about the game, but DAMN. That was actually really sweet/heartwarming.

First off, holy SHIT that final battle was movie-like as all hell. The choreographed action and reaction commands... woah. I was such a dumbass during multiple Xemnas phases, though, it was a wonder I beat him first try. Buckle up for my dumbass endeavors, it's a trip.

That part where you're flying to his little throne thing and he's tossing buildings at you was fun, because I kept launching myself against his fucking barrier and getting repelled/damaged and Xemnas was all "why do you despise the void," over and over again. I was so confused, but just... kept trying like a bullheaded idiot until my health was nose-diving and Riku started healing Sora. Cue me screaming into the void like "WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?" Started playing Marco-Polo when Riku would say "Sora!" every time his health dropped, and eventually found him on a building at the bottom of the map I was supposed to fling at Xemnas apparently? 😂

Two other cringe-fails on my end... when Xemnas was tasering Sora and you briefly shift into Riku to complete mission 'Save His Guy,' I was beating the decoy Xemnas to death like "DON'T WORRY SORA, I'VE GOT YOU," only to realize right before Sora bit the dust that you were supposed to walk up to the other Xemnas actively doing the electrocution and just... y'know... tap the reaction command. I'm sensing a common theme here...

And to top it off, on that scene that would Otherwise Be Really Cool where Sora and Riku are meant to deflect the lasers from Xemnas, I must've missed my chance for the reaction command, and it was really fucking hilarious to watch actually, because you have the action movie sweeping spiral shot, where Riku's Understood The Instructions, leaping around and deflecting everything like a ninja, whereas Sora was utterly stunlocked, and just sort of... standing there... getting hit over and over again... it looked so pathetic, haha.

Anyway, actual plot aside from me being bad at the game, and by plot I mean Sora and Riku just being the heart and soul of the cracked out finale, apparently:

(Although shout-out to Roxas for making me feel all weepy just by saying "Look sharp," I'm eternally sad. Someone free him.)

I just... I don't even know where to start, guys. Riku being angsty, "How am I gonna face everyone?" only for Sora to go "Like this!" And make the goofiest little face to cheer Riku up, and it WORKED. That was just... I cooed, y'all.

These faces (I tracked down the GIF because I was just appalled the animators in a 2006 game had them make goo-goo eyes at each other, Sora looking away like that is what gets me):

Xemnas trying to pit them against each other in his boss fight, but you know it just wouldn't matter, because of *course* Sora trusts Riku, he can't imagine thinking otherwise, and of *course* Riku was jealous of Sora in some aspects (which was addressed later, wooo), but it didn't matter, because he just wanted to be able to be with Sora over any misgivings he might've had about his self image.

(Side Note: What in the Sam-Hill did Xemnas mean when he said there were falsehoods in their hearts? Excuse me? Will that be expanded upon? What are they denying??)

And like... they literally ended up trapped in KH Hell-equivalent, and they were just... fine?? with it?? Just completely zen on the beach (I can't help but find it interesting that the realm of darkness is a beach like Destiny Islands, and wonder if there's some light/dark parallels about the trio involving that), staring out at the water side by side, fully knowing they could just wither away there, but it was cool, because they were together. "I've got something you could never imitate too," (Which was being Riku's friend, godDAMN Sora you're gonna make me cry 😭) says Sora, just chilled out as all hell.

For further laughs, in the post credits scene where and Riku and Sora were sitting on the Paopu tree, and Sora was like 'where'd the door to light come from?' and I was all excited like a kid paying attention in class or something "Kairi Princess of Heart ex-machina, she and her letter must have been tied to-" and then Riku poked at Sora's heart and was like "From here 😌 It's closer than you think," and then I'm over here, being a vaguely disappointed nerd, like "Oh, no lore. Just... Riku saying Sora is filled with light. They're just... still having a moment. That's fine." (And they were just looking and smiling at each other while the camera was focused on their faces, which is completely interrupted by Kairi running up, pfft- bless her for the tonal whiplash)

Edit: I also loved that credits clip of Sora walking through the secret hideout cave and running his hands along the drawings, you could see his eyes combing over the memories, it was so touching. I loved when he found the drawing him and Kairi made, because I thought of that KH1 cutscene of them as small children carving it out, and you could *see* it in his eyes that Sora had a "Look where I am now," kind of moment. I will never stop screaming about the facial animations for these games.

Anyway that ended up being longer than I expected. The boys are back together and they're mushy. Kairi still has abandonment issues and they'll probably just get worse from here. Someone, somewhere curls up into a fetal position every time a KH villain gives another darkness/light monologue with the dumbest sounding lines known to man. Maleficent's entire subplot this game was just her house-hunting. Michael Mouse acts like a war veteran, and it would be hilarious if post-Ansem the Wise (I missed hearing your voice, Christopher Lee RIP) explosion he starts having survivor's guilt too. Roxas makes me want to cry, and Naminé does too. The mystery of Kairi's Keyblade has not been answered. Nobody has told Sora about Castle Oblivion even though Naminé was Right There. Next time... on Kingdom Hearts...

I wish I could caption this in the KH subtitle font but I'm too lazy to figure out how zip files work at this hour so here's comic sans

#extremely long post mb friends #I'm a bit sleep deprived #kingdom hearts #what's the ship name for the idiots #if i had a nickel for everytime I got way too invested in a wonderfully silly anime based media where the light haired emotionally reserved #best friend of the main protagonist proceeded to compare the protag to light #id have 2 nickels #*insert rest of the meme* #anyway yeah ship name... idk it could just be their limit break name #'Eternal Session' #'Eternal Session' of what bro- us enjoying spending our lives side by side as defenders of the universe? thats pretty ga-

[sanitizarium]

FINALLY FINISHED SOMETHING [CROWD CHEERING SFX]

#kingdom hearts #kh2 #soriku #(<- can be viewed as that was the intention) #sora #riku #sora kh #riku kh #kingdom hearts 2 #fanart #art #art.png #this is a screenshot redraw btw!!! of a frame from their eternal session limit

[cometrose]

"Silk Flowers grow in pairs on small red bushes"

Other archon having twins

Zhobgli is suspicious

(Plus the god of eternity saying his story is not yet over)

“~twin where have you been~”

it’s still pretty interesting that Zhongli doesn’t have a ‘twin’

it is very clear one of the main themes of genshin is family especially between that of siblings (twins)

the traveler is the twin and all of the archons -the main characters of their respective regions have “twins”.

Venti has the nameless bard, Ei and Makoto, Nahida and Rukkhadevata, Furina and Focalors. These are characters that look identical but live very different lives.

A core part of each archon is their relationship with their respective twin. Ei struggled to move on after Makoto died, Rukkha was everything Nahida dreamed of being, Focalors made Furina play a part for 500 years. I am unsure of the dynamic of Venti and his bard but it’s pretty easy to assume he gave his life great meaning and considering he looks just like him he never could move or wanted to forget what he looked like.

So the fact Zhongli doesn’t have anybody with that kind of connection is really odd lol. I've complained so many times like “Zhongli!! where is your silly clone!” and he refuses to answer my calls. Rex Lapis is represented by silk flowers but they grow in pairs but where is Rex Lapis’ pair? Where is the moon to his beautiful sun???

Some people argue a more metaphorical twin for Zhongli is Rex Lapis/the Exuvia. The point of the Liyue archon quest was Zhongli stepping down from a role he has had for thousands of years and considering the way he talks about Rex Lapis/geo archon (he always refers to him in third person) I believe Zhongli sees him as a separate person entirely. So losing Rex Lapis was like losing his twin. Casting his exuvia aka body double on a crowd of people and burying Rex Lapis was Zhongli’s conclusion with his “twin”. He ended his reign and made peace with his life.

But at the same time I feel that interpretation is so ehhhh. Like all of the twins we’ve seen were their own person with their own thoughts and feelings. Like yeah furina and focalors were once the same person but that was no longer the case when focalors brought out the scissors and said act woman.

Let’s get venti and zhongli out of the way cause they are a little weird from the rest of the seven but we’ve never met “Rex Lapis” and then he doesn’t have a human form like the rest of them. We have talked or at least heard the voices of the “other twin” . We met rukkha, we heard makoto and neuvi let us see focalors.

A big part of the archons is their relationship with their other half but Zhongli’s stories most always focus on someone else-a different god a different entity there is just so little of what we know about him comes from his own mouth.

Besides when you look at the visual symbolism then all the archons are represented by the moon and shadows. They live in the shadows of the "twin" if almost haunted by them. They cannot live up to their glory or they are forced to be someone they are not. These 'twins' are the reason for our archon's (hell even the traveler's) existence and journey, it is why they continue forward until they eventually find new meaning in life.

However Morax is always represented by the sun and light, and you could argue that Zhongli is the moon to Rex Lapis’ sun but if you look as his symbols -his golden eyes, the golden light he uses to save xiao and his interactions with the people of Liyue he still holds that warmth.

Next the big revelation for Zhongli was his relationship with Liyue itself, not himself. We could argue that the existence of "Rex Lapis, The Geo Archon" was intertwined with that relationship but Zhongli's narrative is stepping down and taking his hands off Liyue not any personal struggle. If Liyue had failed his test he would've remained the geo archon for the foreseeable future.

That means, Liyue itself is more of his twin, it is something that plays a huge role in his identity and leaving it behind and moving forward is the core of his arc. It is Liyue that made Zhongli play the part of the geo archon, it is Liyue that made him turn on friend or foe if they were are threat, Liyue and its people are the motivation for everything Rex Lapis did. Morax’s love for his people defined every action that he did as the geo archon.

Long story short ehh if push comes to shove I can accept Zhongli's dragon clone as his twin but I would also argue against it because it doesn’t hold thematic weight that the other twins do!

In the end, we can still safely assume that zhongli’s twin has gone awol but then who are they!!! Each archon has a pair that is meant to parallel the relationship between our travelers Aether and Lumine but where is such a twin???

I've talked so much about Zhongli about everything but Ei mentions in her voice lines that she believes his story isn't anywhere finished. She even talks about him in Zhongli's teaser way back in 2020, "in his long life he has met countless people and shall meet countless more still. As they say: waters change course but mountains move not". Its kind of neat the god of eternity says your story isn't over

I may be a delusional zhongli stan but I don't think it is farfetched to say he is veryyy suspicious. We don't know his true form, we don't know the truth of his contracts, we don't know if he's hiding a twin, and the goddess of eternity herself believes his journey will continue forward.

Could he be missing a twin because he's not from Teyvat? What if he lost his counterpart a long time ago? What if we have simply not met Zhongli's twin and the two of them are separated from each other much like the traveler? I always believed Zhongli kind of crashed into Teyvat like a meteor or shooting star and that's why he's kind of weird but it could be possible that Zhongli's counterpart is just not here either long dead or with a different destiny.

Fun fact to add to Zhongli’s weirdness; Did you know Zhongli and Neuvillette are the only playable characters whose constellations are different from their character quest? Zhongli's constellation is Lapis Dei but his story quest is Historia Antiqua, much like Neuvillette's constellation is Leviathan Judicator but his story quest is called Diluvies. Which is weird cause Venti has the same constellation as Zhongli (Carmen Dei) but Venti's quests line up. Like is it a dragon thing but why?

Then most of the original archons croaked during the cataclysm and Venti went into a coma. How did Zhongli get out of the damn thing unscathed? Why didn't he lose his twin or die and shit?

I know in my soul Zhongli is hiding the secrets of the world in that pretty little head of his. He's just a bum and refuses to share it with the crowd.

#zhongli #archons #genshin impact #noooo #this is too long again #this was definetly a yap session #but like really though where is his twin! #where is zhongli 2 #like ive seen so many people at least on twitter say zhongli's twin is his exuvia and like *shrug* SURE I GUESS #but its still so different from the others UNLESS you count the exuvia as Liyue itself which is rather metaphorical then the physical twin #speaking of which what the fuck is the god of contracts #freedom eternity wisdom justice war and love are all common abstract concepts and normal things for gods to be #what the hell is contracts like if it were truth or power or even promise that would make sense #but contracts are not nearly as abstract as the rest of them fuckers #maybe if it were relationships instead of contracts but that sounds rather romantic doesn't it? #me writing this: uhh where do i put a page break this time #long story short he's weird!!! #zhongli is super weird!!! #why is all his fucking shit cubes! #also if we consider zhongli and exuvia a twin what fucking parallel is that to traveler UNLESS you look at it as the final stage #and you know during the lantern rite event paimon writes a little blurb about the regions and is like we've been through the land of winds #and for liyue it is the final destination of a star SEE HOW i can connect this back to star!zhongli but also the traveler is a star #maybe the end of the traveler's journey is letting go of their twin like zhongli let go of liyue

[youtappedout]

#AJ Mendez #AJ Lee #The Sessions with Renee Paquette #Interview #YouTube #gifed #(had to reupload cos i saw some black lines around the gifs >:| ) #“she sends her regards” :') #woman hasn't aged a day.. eternal goddess in my eyes <3

[quinttyz]

UNFORTUNATE ENOUGH TO BE LIVING IN THESE TIMES//FORTUNATE ENOUGH TO BE LIVING THROUGH IT WITH YOU

#quinttyz draws #deadfire update: IN SEARCH OF UKAIZO…. #been drawing this during my physical therapy sessions hehehe #my back getting flattened while I continue drAWING #pillars of eternity #pillars of eternity fanart #pillars of eternity 2 deadfire #aloth corfiser #aloth corfiser fanart #aloth x watcher #aloth pillars of eternity #the watcher pillars of eternity #oc: tempest withers

[mydaroga]

Me and John, we'd known each other for a long time. Along with George and Ringo, we were best mates. And we looked into each other's eyes, the eye contact thing we used to do, which is fairly mind-boggling. You dissolve into each other. But that's what we did, round about that time, that's what we did a lot. And it was amazing. You're looking into each other's eyes and you would want to look away, but you wouldn't, and you could see yourself in the other person. It was a very freaky experience and I was totally blown away.

There's something disturbing about it. You ask yourself, 'How do you come back from it? How do you then lead a normal life after that?' And the answer is, you don't. After that you've got to get trepanned or you've got to meditate for the rest of your life. You've got to make a decision which way you're going to go.

I would walk out into the garden - 'Oh no, I've got to go back in.' It was very tiring, walking made me very tired, wasted me, always wasted me. But 'I've got to do it, for my well-being.' In the meantime John had been sitting around very enigmatically and I had a big vision of him as a king, the absolute Emperor of Eternity. It was a good trip. It was great but I wanted to go to bed after a while.

I'd just had enough after about four or five hours. John was quite amazed that it had struck me in that way. John said, 'Go to bed? You won't sleep!' 'I know that, I've still got to go to bed.' I thought, now that's enough fun and partying, now ... It's like with drink. That's enough. That was a lot of fun, now I gotta go and sleep this off. But of course you don't just sleep off an acid trip so I went to bed and hallucinated a lot in bed. I remember Mal coming up and checking that I was all right. 'Yeah, I think so.' I mean, I could feel every inch of the house, and John seemed like some sort of emperor in control of it all. It was quite strange. Of course he was just sitting there, very inscrutably.

Paul McCartney, Many Years From Now

#including this despite its fame #because in the past I've been unable to find the full quote easily #i think it's interesting because people make a big deal of the Emperor of Eternity thing for good reason #but i think sometimes what gets lost is how disturbing it also is #i was in a class once where we had to gaze into the eyes of a partner for like ten minutes at the start of every session #it was awful and i wasn't even on drugs #ANYWAY #the ambivalent way Paul talks about acid is interesting to me #paul mccartney #many years from now #john lennon #kris reads myfn #kris talks a lot

[herearedragons]

the Posca markers I ordered a while ago have arrived

you can use Posca markers on fabric

I have a bunch of plain hoodies

projects acquired:

dragon age hoodie

pillars of eternity hoodie

dnd/dungeon master hoodie

#herearedragons speaks #will I actually do all three of these? idk but I’m definitely going to do at least one #I have a red one that matches the dragon age vibe So Well #a dm-themed one to wear during dnd sessions will also be fun though #and I have somewhat of a VisionTM for the pillars of eternity one #I think I’ll start by figuring out the design for at least one hoodie digitally and then make like. stencils maybe?? #so the shapes are as CrispTM as possible #I think the work flow should be digital design -> print it out -> use it to make a plastic/cardboard stencil #-> apply stencil and posca markers to hoodie -> use markers for some extra non-stencil details like patterns and stuff maybe #herearedragons crafting

[insinirate]

Do Knives and Vash still get it on in this new puppy au or

hell yea baybee

#it would go how youd imagine an eternal puppy play session would go #kv #anonymous

[sounwise]

[���] On the plane returning to London, after walking out on the Maharishi, John began drinking heavily and told Cynthia of all the other women he had slept with during their marriage: the groupies and the whores but in particular the ones she knew personally, her friends and the wives of friends. When he got back to Kenwood, he went on an orgy of drink and drugs, mostly LSD, trying to bury the thoughts and feelings that the meditation had allowed to rise to the surface. [*] The meditation had essentially precipitated a nervous breakdown, which was not helped by John’s tremendous drug intake. On 18 May 1968, he summoned a meeting of the Beatles at Apple and announced to them that he was Jesus Christ, a revelation that they accepted with equanimity. This was before the plague of acid casualties, but it was obvious that John was literally going off his head and the others were very worried about him. Yoko meanwhile had been keeping up her relentless flow of postcards and letters. The night after he told the other Beatles that he was the Saviour, he finally called Yoko and told her to come over. They took acid together and spent the evening recording the electronic collage later released as Two Virgins before making love for the first time. [...] No sooner had they got together than John and Yoko were strung out on heroin. Yoko first encountered heroin when the Beatles were away in India. John had already been introduced to it by Robert Fraser, who, though unsuccessful in persuading Paul of the delights of junkie life, had much better luck with John. India had left John in a delicate and shaky state; heroin would take the pain away. Fortunately John had the strength to kick it eventually but like many junkies, he had trouble admitting to himself that he was hooked—sniffing is no different from injecting as far as addiction goes—and he blamed his addiction on other people. John told Jann Wenner: ‘I never injected it or anything. We sniffed a little when we were in real pain. We got such a hard time from everyone, and I’ve had so much thrown at me and at Yoko, especially at Yoko … We took H because of what the Beatles and others were doing to us. But we got out of it.’ John and Yoko began spending a lot of time with Robert Fraser.

[—from Paul McCartney: Many Years From Now, Barry Miles]

*Cynthia’s description of the events in this period is somewhat different, but generally in the same vein:

In April, after returning from Rishikesh:

Back at Kenwood John continued to be distant towards me. Now that we were away from the others and the charms of India, I felt increasingly afraid and depressed. John and I were back in the same bed, but the warmth and passion we had shared for so long were absent. John seemed barely to notice me. He was little better with Julian and was more likely to snap at him than give him a hug. There was just one moment of real warmth between us and that was, ironically, when John confessed to me that he had been unfaithful. We were in the kitchen when he said, out of the blue, ‘There have been other women, you know, Cyn.’ I was taken aback, but touched by his honesty. ‘That’s OK,’ I told him. He came over to where I was standing beside the sink and put his arms round me. ‘You’re the only one I’ve ever loved, Cyn,’ he said, and kissed me. ‘I still love you and I always will.’ A couple of weeks later John suggested that I join Magic Alex, Jennie, Donovan and Gypsy on a two-week holiday in Greece. I told him I didn’t want to go without him. Apart from those rare occasions when I had taken Mum and Julian away because he was working, we had never spent holidays apart. ‘I’ve got a lot on at the moment and I can’t go, but you should. It might cheer you up,’ he said. I was uncertain, but he persisted and in the end I decided to go. John was busy writing songs for the Beatles new album, The Beatles, better known after its release as the White Album. […] Cheered by the hope that John might miss me, and the prospect of a change, I left for Greece. Julian had gone to stay with Dot’s family and John was lying on our bed when I left. He was in the almost trance-like state I’d seen many times before and barely turned his head to say goodbye.

Two weeks later, after Cynthia returned home to find John and Yoko in the living room at Kenwood:

It was evening before John and I had a chance to talk. I had to steel myself for the confrontation we would usually avoid to ask him what was happening with Yoko. ‘Oh, her?’ he said, as if surprised that I’d asked. ‘Nothing, it’s not important.’ ‘We have to talk, John,’ I told him. ‘Please don’t pretend that nothing’s happening.’ Eventually we did talk, perhaps more honestly and in more depth than we had since our student days. We talked of our failings and faults, our love for each other, our hopes and dreams. John talked again about his other women, and insisted that Yoko was no more important than they had been. ‘It’s you I love, Cyn,’ he said. ‘I love you now more than I ever have before.’ That night we went to bed and made love, and my bruised heart felt lighter. The John I had spent the evening with and in whose arms I lay was so completely different from the man who had stared at me impassively as he sat with Yoko in the sunroom that it was hard to accept that they were the same person. Had he been on drugs? I knew he was dabbling again since his disenchantment with the Maharishi. Only drugs could explain how he had behaved. In fact, John had never completely renounced drugs. While we were in India my mother had found a stash of LSD he’d hidden at home and had flushed it down the loo. When he discovered what she’d done he was furious, but he couldn’t confront her without admitting that he used it so he had to keep quiet. For the next few days all seemed well. John was in a good mood, Julian was happy to have us around and I was daring to hope that we had got through the worst. John and I had several more honest talks. He talked about his need to explore new avenues and I told him that I knew I couldn’t always share them with him. I was very much the girl I had always been, happy to be at home, a wife and mother. I had grown more independent over the years, but I was essentially the same. John had changed a great deal and was searching in new directions for answers in his life. Talking brought us closer. We agreed that we wanted to go forward together, despite our differences. After all, we had always been different and it had worked for us for ten years. Why should it not for the next ten? I felt determined once more to make my marriage work. But this brief happy respite soon ended. John was due to go to the States with Paul on a business trip in connection with Apple. I suggested that I go with him. It seemed to me that if we were going to remain close we should spend more time together. And a trip to New York would be fun. John’s answer was a flat no. He refused to look at me or discuss it. I felt my stomach tighten: he was distancing himself from me again. Over the next few days he was irritable and withdrawn, and I felt a rising sense of panic because I couldn’t reach him. I didn’t want to be left alone in the house, waiting and wondering, while he was away, so I asked him if he would mind me taking my mother and Julian to Italy for two weeks. ‘Yeah, sure,’ he replied.

(During which trip John informed her he was leaving her for Yoko.)

[—from John, Cynthia Lennon]

#dwelling eternally on the supremely accurate salon article title 'in 1969 the fifth beatle was heroin' #in 1968 too alas #john lennon #yoko ono #robert fraser #the beatles #the white album sessions #1968 #paul mccartney: many years from now #many years from now #barry miles #john (book) #cynthia lennon #john and drugs #john and robert fraser

[galesburg]

kexp radio session (seattle, wa) / march 29th, 2011

#the mountain goats #tmg #birth of serpents #all eternals deck #saw someone in the tag talking abt the kexp sessions & it made me want to share one of my faves :)

[euphternal]

i’d wish you stayed . . .

#𖤐 ִֶָ ctrlaes’ sessions 𓂃 🪐 #eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

[distinctlackofnightingales]

aziracrow-ifying everything i touch help

My first thought when I saw this image like five minutes ago was pain and my second thought was Aziraphale finally escaping Heaven once and for all and the husbands getting their eternity doing painfully human things like making grocery lists in the kitchen and arguing over where to go for dinner and just finally being in a space peaceful and safe enough to exist without having to sit on the edge of the chair for the moment they might have to run because they don't have to run away anymore there's nothing to run from they're safe and they can finally just enjoy the rest of their existences.

Anyways I have an Ao3 tab open now.

#good omens #good omens s2 #gomens #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #i want them to get their eternity :( #god dammit they deserve so much more time #good omens fanfiction #gomens fanfic #madi ramble session #fanfiction

[jt1674]

#third ear band #eternity in d #peel session

[xoshepard]

anyway we;re finally having our first Full session of urban shadows tomorrow and im just laughing reviewing my character sheet bc iirc i have the fewest debts of the group and i just had to be real with myself because i made my character the world’s biggest standoffish bitch, of COURSE no one is gonna have any ties to him sdkjfshdjk he literally has a built in surrogate son and he hates him so much 😔 how can he have bonds with the other pcs when he doesn’t even have a real bond with his hilarious sonboy npc

but the good thing is that the group is just so fuckin chill that i think this will be a story of my boy learning to love and not a story of him falling deeper and deeper into darkness and becoming evil.... as cool as that sounds

#tirah talks #excited!! #of course watching actual play stuff has also gotten me super excited #great timing for me to get into critrole #hopefully our next session won't be one full eternity from now again sdjkfhsd

[some-creep]

Mother Dearest.

I was plagued by visions at work because I’m vaguely obsessed with the ending(s) where you hold Marika’s disembodied head. Also, I like Malenia and I think there can be a lot of interesting drama with them. Marika’s head doesn’t come off though so we get this instead.

Unfortunately, I did not like how these rendered from SFM so I just went with an oil panting look because it covered up all the weird nasty textures.

#elden ring #malenia blade of miquella #marika the eternal #elden ring malenia #elden ring marika #i'll be honest that second picture? #it's more for me because I thought it looked neat #it's not directly related to the first one other than just #being in the same session #what you mean 4am isnt the perfect time to post pictures you made #crazy who would have guessed #o well #creep container

[twinknote]

it is times like these when i become painfully aware that i am So autistic and mentally ill

#i fully don’t believe i should be allowed to interact with the general public #like i fully had a mental breakdown after not being able to figure out a tech issue and proceeded to hang up the call #and take bpd diagnostic quizzes online #bc in the span of 12 hours my brain has bounced from impulsive sex demon to i’m a horrible person to this is totally fine #to oh no i’ve been witnessed being an imperfect human being so that must make me the worst thing in existence #and deserving of nothing but death and eternal suffering #like brb emailing my therapist to see if we can have 2 sessions this week bc i have a Lot to discuss