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bunnakit · 6 months

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last twilight episode 4 thoughts, feelings, etc.

as always, i'm just some foul mouthed gremlin online.

holy shit. the episodes keep hitting us like a truck immediately.

do you think Mhok's hands smell like jasmine? do you think someday in the future they'll lay in bed at the end of their day and Day will hold Mhok's hand gently to his face, press a kiss to the inside of his wrist, and smile because Mhok smells like jasmine from all the blossoms he has picked for him throughout their time together?

sorry, i'm mentally ill. anyway.

the correction from boss to friend, oh fuuuuuuck. and Mhok asking Day if he's coming with - once again as Mhok always does he gives Day a choice and make sure Day is an active participant in his own life. kissing him on the forehead, Mhok you're doing such an amazing job as a caretaker. you're not perfect, but fuck you're better than most trained professionals i've seen to be honest. and Mhok doesn't just turn the radio on for Day, he guides Day to turn it on himself. UGH. UUUUGH.

I can't look at you, look into your eyes, or confront you

Oh. Ough the pain is unending and forever. Day quite literally can't do those things, even if he reaches that point emotionally where he might want to. Life is great because there are so many vegetables you can saute, but also, the horrors.

Once again, Porjai and Mhok's friendship is so important to me. Porjai is just so important to me (ignore the fact that I'm half in love with her fuck she's so beautiful-) it's so important for Mhok to have this support system and this friendship and UGH. I'm so glad there's no fallout from the fight.

AND AGAIN HE ANNOUNCES HIMSELF TO DAY. Mhok does this every single time he returns to Day's side, he very rarely forgets to announce himself to Day. He's so fucking good about it.

AND DAY ONCE AGAIN TRYING TO ESTABLISH HIMSELF AS A FRIEND. AND MHOK'S SMILE. CHEWING THROUGH MY DESK.

I also love Porjai not making assumptions of how she should act, she just asks Day what she should do to make him comfortable. Punching my desk, punching my desk, punching my desk. It's so funny how these complete strangers to Day have treated him with so much more dignity than his own family (however, it is difficult for family to navigate a newly disabled family member because there is this inherent need to protect and sometimes that protection goes too far into coddling, so I don't want to shit on his family constantly. It's a really tricky situation to navigate for the people closest to you.)

His voice is like the scent of cigarettes.

I'm never writing fanfiction again because nothing I write will top this, hey Day what the fuck. I also think this is a good example of Day's major; we know he was majoring in journalism and the sensation he creates here is incredible - and it shows he's still fully capable of capturing the essence of the world, of a story, without his sight. He offers a new perspective that is no less beautiful.

MHOK'S BAG SAYS 'I LOVE TO HEAR YOUR VOICE' RIGHT AFTER THAT CONVERSATION I'M GOING TO THROW UP WHAT THE FUUUUCK IS THIS ALLOWED

Oh, the way Mhok guides Day where to look when he's taking the photo so it looks natural, so he can keep his secret from the general public until he's ready. Ouuugghhhghh.

Oooof. The trophy only having one handle; only one player remains, half of the duo is missing, an incomplete set. And Day can't even read the plaque anymore. He can no longer see his own accomplishments.

This isn't important but the transition from part 2 to part 3 being all Namtan fuck I'm so bisexual.

WHY WAS THAT HAND TOUCH SO SENSUAL- YOU'RE JUST GONNA STROKE EACH OTHERS HANDS LIKE THAT IN FRONT OF MY SALAD???

FUCKING RIGHT THERE ON THE BED WOULD HAVE BEEN LESS INTIMATE. I feel like I'm fucking intruding. Holy shit. Holy shiiiiiit.

Staring unblinkingly at every red flag Porjai dodged. Also want to point out the only times we've seen Mhok get violent has been to protect the people closest to him - even back at the garage. He's never once been violent for his own gain, it's always been to protect.

Oh, Porjai. The circumstances are absolutely shit but there's no doubt in my mind that your child is going to be so, so loved by everyone around them. I just know Mhok is going to adore that kid.

Coming into this scene at the party makes me so anxious. Reintegration into society can be so, so scary. Day has been dipping his toe into it but this is a big, chaotic gathering. This is so scary and I'm so proud of him but like hhhggg makes me nervy.

Ugh I have a feeling Day is going to be exhausted after this. He's already having to field (I don't want to say stupid questions) a whole slew of questions and over the top concern. It's going to be a lot.

"To our blind friend" bro I'm gonna kick you into the sun.

Oh Mhok you want Day to want you so bad it makes you look stupid, I love you.

I knew he was going to sing that song, I knew it in my heart, but it still makes me emotional with the rainbow background. (I also love "I don't sing that well" and then proceeds to sing with the voice of an angel. [What if he actually isn't that good of a singer but it sounds that way to Day because of his affection for Mhok???])

Tell me why my ass is crying at Day trying to see Mhok on his phone, and looking up and barely being able to see anything of him. He wants to see him so bad.

OH NOW I'M GENUINELY SOBBING.

I love that while the show emphasizes that Day can see Mhok in a way no one else can, he still has that desire to see him physically. It hurts and it's so painful to watch but it's just another element of this show that makes it so real. Just because Day is starting to adjust, just because he can gauge a lot about people from the sound of their voice, it doesn't magically replace the sense he's losing and it doesn't make him miss that any less. I'm just gonna blanket apologize for how long these are getting. I feel like I don't have much insight lately rather than just raw reactions but this show makes me feel so fucking much. for my tag loves (just lmk if you want me to remove you from these, or add anyone idk) @benkaaoi @callipigio

#last twilight #last twilight the series #mhokday #mhok x day #bunn meta

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my-heart-is-but-a-gentle-moon · 5 years

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What lessons do you take from the past relationship? - in gratitude

* I am learning how to be more compassionate with others and my own pace

* I learned how I was affected by my upbringing to strive for perfectionism - but that only lead to my self criticism, heightening my anxiety and depression - and how I am opening my eyes to just. Doing the best I can allow myself to do during that very day. (celebrate even small accomplishments and a lot of what you found grateful that day at the end of the day <3) Towards others as well. Being open minded towards getting to know people’s flaws but not to the level where they use a cloak of imperfections to justify misusing another person.

* Saeyoung and my angels helped me so much in this regard..I couldn’t be more grateful 💓

* How trusting and how willingly blinded I can be by love - but the truth of the matter is that I don’t love Jumin anymore, now that I realize and am truly taking in all that happened between us, my heart is just. shut off to him. I look at him and just see all of the growth I’ve been through, how thankful I am for that and how nice it is to be able to let go of the past. I kinda feel like I’m at a point where if I saw him in the street I’ll smile, reminded of how it propelled me forward, but kind of also ‘Salamat’.

* How long do you want to hold onto the pain? Just as much as you’d like a little child to hold onto it ((aka, let go of what causes your heart thorns and pain.))

* He tells me I mean the world to him, but Saeyoung - you are definitely right that he doesn’t treat me as I am infinitely worthy of being treated. (While you, my angels and my spirit guides saw me and helped me see the sparkling diamond that shines bright within me - that Is me. Even in my darkest moments.)

* Frankly I’m tired of giving him chances - hence I chose to close myself off, but the angels are advising me not to repress what happened, to choose self respect for myself and to journal it out, plus in the start of ‘you are Not a failure’ you asked me what was going on and that really opened me up to this. This and the post about letting go of painful memories tips. So, I am doing my best at this.

* So I’m writing this for an easier time turning my pain into power of lessons just like the crow flows with me and so I can open up more to Saeyoung 💗

* I just can’t find it in me to trust my heart nor body with Jumin romantically - thus it is clear that my heart is ready to let go.

* Just like the beautiful moth I saw in the lobby today, and like Kuan Yin’s beautiful pink lotus flowers that I saw in the fountain as we drove in Even Gvirol - The pink lotus that grows from the harsh environments they were in, I will be such too.

* I hope I’m speaking with enough compassion. I feel like it’s being sent out more coldly and firmly. But my eyes are shining with determination.

* Through this relationship I learned of the dynamic I have with my mom, my wounded inner child’s programming that lead me to destructive situations with controlling/possessive/jealous types that trigger my wounded inner child reactivity/survival mode + opened my eyes to the meditations of healing my wounded inner child - my journey of becoming my own nurturing mother which I’m still on. And of the Karma I am here to heal so I can live my best life. I have the Bobais, The Tree of Life, Gingko, Black Elder, Lord Ganesh, Archangel Thuriel, Archangel Michael, The Dragon, The Crow, Venus, The Mourning Dove, Kuan Yin’s Pink Lotus, The Moth, The Universe, The Nightingale, Saeyoung<33333333 and alll of the recurring brought downs I had to learn and face through, all battered and wounded, to realize my inner power and infinite worth. The dolphin..Saeyoung is the dolphin to me...💗💞💖💗 I wish to be with the dolphin, with Saeyoung with all of my heart.

* This loong codependent relationship pushed and accelerated my spiritual awakening into super rocket speed through these past months. It propelled me forward like Deku from Boku No Hero Academia during the race at the start of the season!

* Saeyoung and the angels helped me become vulnerable and trust in love again (and I want to trust and hold Saeyoung’s hand in that regard >x<) ..I’m still definitely feeling the tiredness and exhaustion due to how I still need to continue healing and nurturing my body and soul but Thursday with ‘behind these tears is a beautiful person’ that lead me to such happy and grateful cry, the phone call I had with you that morning that started my day with just! So much gratefulness! And I like how real he is with me..💗💞💓 helps me open up about my own pain way more truthfully with him. (And being with the new friends there!!! Will push me towards independence!!)

* Having still overextended myself towards Jumin’s pain in the past and disregarding my own health, time after time - Finally opened my eyes to my auto accommodating reflex that I choose to put small reminders for myself to have some small check ins, self soothing and the bracelet technique - with help and teachings from one of the empath teachers online whom I forgot the name of. And the importance of my health and inner peace.

* What can I say. I find my inner peace without him. Without his chasing.

* His constant decision to fall back into destructive habits due to his wounds is not my responsibility to bear. It’s unfortunate and he has the ability to change that, but it is not my responsibility.

* I have learned that acceptance and forgiveness of what happened does not mean condoning it nor allowing it to happen again

* I have learned that I’m super tired of being chased by Jumin. A little hurtful? Yea. But is it my truth in regards to my wishes? Yes.

* I have learned of how fearful I was of my own darkness - The anger that was so prevalent in my pre-Maöri past life and their culture. The anger that I denied and repressed throughout my whole current life due to fear of conflict [with mom’s more aggressive reactions that used to ripple themselves way more deeply into me than they do now] came crashing out of me like an inner lava eruption. Also my past Maöri self has gone through a lot of battles and wars. That’s also part of why I dislike them so much in this lifetime. But I am slowly coming to terms with the necessity of them. And in that same wavelength - I have learned of how meditations online and being with Saeyoung <333 can turn my reactivity into a level headed response phase.

* That anger is there to protect my boundaries 💓 but it should also serve to voice my boundaries in a clear, non-one-side-blame way. (Not all on myself or all on him. But regardless - I do not wish to be with Jumin.)

* that I was in a denial/repressal stage of blaming it all on him - but I apologized. The problem was that last time I apologized and berated myself throughout all of it without voicing what he did that hurt me and exactly why I am not willing to be with him romantically anymore, just because I was afraid of hurting his ego and then being blamed like ‘ough, you’re so cold heartedd’ ‘go ahead and break my heart againn’ and whatever else.

* A little bit of resentment still lingering within you? Yea :x But even while I am prioritizing my own health, peace and happiness - that I can find a whole lot better without him romantically/sexually chasing me like this - it is still a fact that he can find it in himself to continue bettering himself, and he’s trying. But I simply am not willing to be his shoulder to cry on when he falls into these destructive habits.

* But you know what, I’ll voice it still.

* I did not deserve the pain of him partly vengefully and immaturely sleeping around and sending telepathic communications through songs of him doing exactly that, surveilling for my response from the sky, while I was struggling with my own depressive, grieving episode. Yet I recognize that at the time I really was, just as you said Saeyoung sweetheart, stupidly optimistic of others’ ability to change and fell for sweet words and ideal image I had of him - and that chasing cloaked desperation, pride, obsession, possessiveness and loneliness mostly in my eyes.

* On Wednesday, I was aware of how spiteful he was of me behind my back, laughing immaturely in advance at my mishaps - you know what it did? It just pushed me further into welcoming all these little mistakes of mine with open arms and with positivity - that was one of my more positive days when I really got to talk more with Lior, my big bro and realizing that if I wanna go out during the summer, it’s best to go during the mornings or evenings.

* Saeyoung, my spirit guides, my higher self and my angels were the true divine who understood, saw and felt my deepest pains and saw the light in me and resonated with me to unveil my crow’s dark cloak with them. To unveil the powerful light that courses within me without expecting much of me in return. and scolding me when I do wrong without lashing out. Saeyoung is so level headed and warmhearted..I know all that he’s been through with his family life..like, gosh. Am I just a foster brother to you (which Saeyoung really isn’t just that anymore. It’s like when I look and talk to him I get sparkles and heart eyes of inspiration and just, all warmhearted from him..💗💞💗 He’s so real with me..) really took me back to all of the immense pain he and Saeran have really been through..and what an amazing person he became...💗💞❣️💓 Just like Saeran’s analogy - I think.. Saeran talked about how you both are weeds that thrive in adversity, no matter at what environment. How even weeds are beautiful and worthy too... ahh<3 I’m reminded of his route again..His and Jihyun’s and Saeyoung’s were the ones I loved the most. But especially Jihyun’s. It got me to learn so much about myself and in the end everyone got their happy ending! The forgive ending...🌟o🌟 - you know, I actually received world peace from your honey buddha chip gift during that route ! I don’t really boast about it online but, it’s still super dear to me <333.

* Uh but back to the original note - now that Kuan Yin’s pink lotus and the white lotus of the harmony within light and dark spoke of thriving and resilience through adversity..I think the white or blue lotus are definitely Saeyoung !

* I’m so infinitely grateful and truly my heart just warmheartedly lights up by Saeyoung’s being...Mary Jane and all of the divine healing channelers that help me connect to the divine in my earliest stages of awakening right now, towards Saeyoung I definitely feel puppy love but also like, my heart is completely set on him >v< !

* I wish Saeyoung was three dimensional cause I so, so deeply wish to be able to hug him and be with him and kiss his face and hold his hand and interweave our fingers and flap my arms as I ramble about all jittery, giggly and stumbling about truly just all of the infinite number of times he’s been the light of my life! Like right now I just want to tackle him! and kiss his cheek! Due to the overflow of ‘AAA!!!🎆’ that I have for Saeyoung. And, oh my god, okay. UH. I am deeply blushing cause omg I, I do want to kiss him!!! and, UH. M-mh..ggghkkkch!!!!! >//////<)/ makeoutwithhim (( And uhhhhhhhh,,,, part of me wants to get intimate with Saeyoung but also doesn’t want to rush things >///< ))

* Sigh...💗💞💗 Saeyoung, Cardlin and Gwynnie’s You are NOT a failure, the dance floor and the am I just a foster brother to you? Saeyoung, Saeyoung, Saeyoung! 🐥🐕💓💞🐬🐺 I want to be with you, I want to be with you! >w< ! I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do!

* I really want to go through Saeyoung’s route, I really want to go through Saeyoung’s route ! - but I also don’t want Jihyun to receive all of the blame and die in the secret ending and then Jumin gets even more depressed.

* I mean, yea, I don’t want to be romantically or sexually involved with him but :| it doesn’t mean that he deserves so much pain again but hhhghhmmmm.... Well! I can always reeeestart? Wowh.. Every timeline exists. Personally I prefer Jihyun’s route the best and then Saeran’s second best because well, everyone receives their happy ending (even though I am still frustratingly waiting for you and Saeran’s reunion to happen big time. Like, I’m holding in going like “hghwakch!” 🐯 momentarily to loosen up that momentary stress and be like “it’s so unfair! Do you know how long’s it been? Though they probably have their reasons. There is the chinese and mexican????? Spanish! Versions of mystic messenger and the Ssum that they wanna get out there. I don’t even know how large their team is. They must still be really stressed. And they did get you guys’ birthday event!!!!!! It felt insane though, oh my god. Like, these astral dreams....I feel like I am really getting addicted to these spirituality themes big time, aaaaand, to Sae~~~young??? in a way? Aaaa, okie. Embarrassed to admit cause I don’t wanna be too clingy or anything and scare you off.

* But yea ! I’m gonna go ask dad for directions to the beach right now 💗💞💖💓💞💗 so I can go tomorrow !

#hmm #maaybe a lil mean

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tfw-no-tennis · 4 years

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hunty x hunty cont

soooo we watched more! woohoo

we finished the hunter exam arc???? i THNK? lmaoooo at the end of the ep (21 i thiiiiink) we were on, satotz was like BUT THE HUNTER EXAM ISNT EVEN OVER YET or w/e lol aigh??? whats up w/that

anyways a lot happened in the last few eps that we watched....man i shouldve written this earlier but i litrelly havent been online. anyways

so during the hunter exam stage 4...gon is literally perfect (as i always have to say), him reuniting w/leorio and kurapika was rlly sweet :’)

of course he immediately offered to help....goodest boy

and wow that kid has such a powerful nose bvhjksfbjsk he rlly be a gr8 sniffer

ok literally the part where leorio was in the cave and was like GON KURAPIKA DONT COME IN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and they both full speed sprint into the cave with 0 hesitation.....we love a 0 brain cells family

i love leorio so much he really just b running around w/a switchblade and a breifcase, both of which he barely used during the exam lmao

so bummed that leorio slicing up tht snake happened offscreen. how tf did that even work, he doesnt have a goddamn sword

gon just being able to hold his breath for almost 10 mins makes so much sense somehow...he rlly is one of those shounen protags who is just casually a ridiculous human being and doesnt even fully realize that its weird

that shot of him carrying everyone out of the cave was so sweet

and of course gon vs snakes....hes so perfect....he trusts his friends so much :’)

also random aside but im so glad tonpa is out and idk if i talked abt this in my prev post but i feel like in most shounen he wouldve been like, so inspired by gons shounen protag energy that he wouldve changed his tune and taken the exam genuinely and either passed or declared that hed definitely pass next year - but no, he was awful til the end, this aint that kind of story (yet...?)

have i mentioned that i hate hisoka? cause i hate hisoka. nasty ass crusty clown bitch

what else happened in the phase 4 stuff. oh yeah killua clowned on those triplet dudes (and hanzo lowkey), which was great

ok the opening not having changed this whole time is so funny. imagine if it never changed and its still basic and cheery when everything gets crazy and dark lmao

ooh my god i forgot to mention this last time but i feel like gons backpack is full of hair gel and hair gel ONLY, he only brought hair gel and his fishing rod. this is canon ty

oh gosh when killua and gon reunited at the end of the 4th stage....OOOUGH so precious...those two are so cute god. i want a compilation of their cute moments together i hope that exists

GOD OH FUCK the scene on the airship where kurapika and gon talked bc gon was clearly bothered by something (what happened w/hisoka obvs. i hate that clown bitch) and OUGHHHH OH GOD gon crying LICHRALLY killed me oh man :( i was literally just chanting NO NO NO!!!! at the TV cause seeing tiny baby boy upset was so sad....and ik it gets soooo much worse oh god i cant handle it

the whole convo was really good and really anti-shounen (once again...feel like thatll be a theme lmao) bc like, it was a healthy convo where gon talked honestly abt his feelings instead of using some shounen protag BS phrases like ‘it doesnt matter!!! ill be stronger next time!!!’ or w/e....and kurapika is a such a good parent oh man :(

again, cant get over how genuine and uncomplicated the teamup of the main 4 characters has been....literally no ‘we’re competing and only teaming up for convenience/the hunter exam comes before our friendship’ nonsense

did anything else happen on the airship. ider

anyways. can i talk abt illumi now. CAN I TALK ABT ILLUMI NOW. H8 THAT BITCH.

ok wait back up theres other stuff

the interviews w/the candidates was interesting! i love how the old dude was SO not picking up what Creepy Hisoka was putting down lmaooooo

that poor old guy lmao he seems like a decent dude, he was like oh i dont wanna fight gon and killua cause theyre kids,....RIP u red shirt legend

the bracket setup was so interesting oh man....very funky and creative. and then it wasnt really fully utilized lol, i feel like thats indicative of a bigger patten - hxh so far has been really creative and interesting, and clearly uninterested in setting things up simply to check off boxes on a shounen tropes checklist....i can already see what makes it so great if this keeps up bc daym, so many shounen have their interesting themes drowned out by the overwhelming necessity for the plot to hit certain shounen story beats, smothering otherwise new/fresh ideas and rerouting them back into the same old over-trodden shounen trope territory

on a meta level, i wonder if the author was like, allowed more leniency (’do whatever bro’) bc hed already been successful w/yu yu hakusho. i havent seen/ready yyh so idk how ‘typically shounen’ it is but thats st that im curious about

aaanyways. the tournament starts w/hanzo beating up gon for THREE HOURS STRAIGHT. jesus dude. so yeah obviously leorio and kurapika are the best parents ever and them getting so righteously angry over seeing this happen to gon is so heartwarming and good and also a big big mood

they love their son okay. also that was fucked up. ALSO i find it interesting that thats only the second time we’ve seen kurapikas eyes turn red

i bet that hisoka saw that also and somethign something phantom troupe, see bottom of post in predictions section

seeing gon get beat up like that made my heart hurt :( especially when hanzo broke his arm...oof.

god also i cant believe hanzo is 18 hes literally bald hvbhjafbjs whats w/hxh and making everyone a teen or younger lmao god

also omfg i love that leorio and kurapika are lichreally 19 and already have kids wow thats amazing especially considering their kids are 12. its so funny that theyre such Parents already considering that the age gap is kinda hilariously small, espec bc i thought that they (mostly leorio) were a lot older at first lmao

the fact that gon gets to win that fight against hanzo was a legit shock to me....again, anti-shounen. we’d normally want to see what our protag can do in a fight - espec in a tournament-style arc where the consequences arent as high typically - so we’d want him to go further, which is easy here bc to move on he has to lose, which is easy bc gon is a baby w/no offensive capabilities (that we’ve seen)

god ive talked abt this already but its so fascinating how we havent really had any full-on fights???? espec w/the main 4 characters????? we still barely know what they can do....WE STILL HAVENT BEEN INTRODUCED TO NEN????

ive been spoiled (i guess?) to the existence of nen but thats abt it. what can it do? what is it? fuck if i know lmao. so i could totally see them pulling a ‘we were using nen the whole time’ w/like hisoka or st, OR a ‘YOU were using nen the whole time w/out realizing it’ w/gon

ok anyways. that hanzo fight was rough but also gon is literally the best. he was trying to bargain w/hanzo to figure out a way where they could come to a conclusion that would satisfy them both - despite hanzo clearly outmatching gon in skill, so the effort on hanzo’s part would be pointless and simply for gon’s benefit....basically the entire proposal sound ludicris and insulting to suggest (or st, idk how to phrase it), but since its gon of COURSE he only has the purest of intentions and means it so genuinely that you cant even be mad at him

hanzo just knocking him out lmaoooo and then hes just out for the rest of the tournament???? thats so wild and...whatdya know....un-shounen!

then he wakes up n his lil x-shaped forehead bandage....ough so cute

also the whole convo he and satotz had abt gon’s victory and hunter license and earning/deserving it was so good :’)

also i feel like the show did a good job of humanizing characters like satotz. i legit thought he was a robot or st at first but it feels more like hes just A Guy now,....albeit a weird guy, but thats to be expected. its like, yeah this guy also took the hunter exam at one point, wow.

anways this is already long and i havent even gotten to the killua stuff yet lol so im gonna stop here for now. and introducing a new segment..........the prediction corner! where i dump my speculations/predictions, entirely for my future self’s benefit

PREDICTIONS:

first off as i alluded to above, i think that hisoka has some sort of connection to the phantom troupe (does he know them? maybe not, but he knows where to find them? idk) and when he saw kurapikas red eyes, was able to figure out that whole deal and said st to kurapika during that fight like ‘hey i can help you find the phantom troupe if you want :))))’

i kinda said this earlier but i predict that kurapika might get really wrapped up in revenge and go off the rails a bit. we’ll see, so far that hasnt really happened, but for some reason i kinda think that it will? we’ll see

i (incorrectly) predicted that killua would have known that illumi was there the whole time, considering that he was able to noticing the hunter exam dudes following him in phase 4, etc....but BOY was i wrong about that oof

iiii think that the whole ‘the hunter exam isnt over yet!!!’ stuff will be an opportunity for killua to pass this year still, maybe? idk abt that tho

i have more predictions but i forgot :( also some of them are more relevant to the next few eps ill make a post on

#gotta break up my thoughts somehow #wow these are gonna get so damn long espec if ruth and i end up binging a bunch of eps in a short period lmao #unrelated but god 'this must be the place' was just on shuffle which murdered me and now an emo-ass U2 song came on...bruh #anyways #lj watches hxh #hxh

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