#✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ I'm sorry to the people I told that I'd get to the threads of. Something... I didn't expect came up and now my mental state has pretty much hit an all time low. I'm sorry to everyone who expected things and I'm sorry to everyone else in general.

I'll still try my best to get at least some stuff out. }

#{ I really don't feel good. } #{ I really don't. } #{ And a lot of times I really wonder why I'm still here. } #{ But I'm okay! I promise! } #{ So no need to worry or approach or whatever. } #{ I just wanted and needed to let the people expecting things know what's going on. } #{ I promise I'll get to stuff! I won't drop anything either. } #{ Thank you for dealing with me and putting up with me. } #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[freedxm-fighters]

{ Bro, I’m gonna fucking fight this stupid fucking post editor bullshit. It keeps fucking up my posts and I can’t trim anything or if I do, it doesn’t trim the right shit. Tumblr needs to stop adding all this extra shit and keep things simple. }

#{ I am seriously gonna fight this bitch. } #{ And the whole fucking staff too. } #{ Come catch these hands because they're rated E for everyone bitch. } #{ Now I gotta redo everything AGAIN. } #{ But I bet it's just gonna do the same shit again. } #{ UGH. } #.☪ ~ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #.☪ ~ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ I am quite literally about to go over the edge and nothing can help. }

#{ My sister has been bleeding excessively for a month ir two without stopping. } #{ She's so extremely pale and her body is so cold. } #{ Her lips turned blue last night and the pink or her eyes is almost completely white. } #{ I've been awake since 2 AM last night freaking out over this as she went to the ER. } #{ My sister and my dad were there for two hours and the hospital refused to even call her name to see her. } #{ All because she doesn't have insurance. } #{ She could be fucking dying and they won't take her. } #{ I have been hysterical since 2 AM because of this and we don't know what to do anymore. } #{ The hospital was our last option and they refuse to do anything. } #{ I don't know how much longer I can do this. } #{ I don't know if I can pretend to be okay anymore just to spare people's feelings or not ruin their day. } #{ I'll be spending most of my time taking care of my little sister. } #{ Maybe I'll be here when I have time? Maybe I won't? I don't know anymore. } #{ It's not like it really matters anyway since I'm barely here. } #tw; negative #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ Ah yes, the "I'm suddenly remembering my ex-fiancé and miss him because us splitting up was my fault for being anxious about moving in together" feeling slapping me in the face at like... 10:39 PM is exactly what I need on top of all the natural sadness I feel about my daily life. Thank you, brain.

That aside, I hope that y'all had a good Thanksgiving or whatever it is that you celebrate where you're from or even just had a good day if you don't celebrate anything. }

#{ Life why do you hate me so much? } #{ Why do you feel the need to do things like this to me? } #{ All I wanna do is be able to write some drafts and asks. } #{ Is that too much for me to ask for? } #{ I've been sitting on drafts that I keep promising to answer for months. } #{ But my brain won't let me write anything. } #{ Trying my honest to god best out here and it just isn't cutting it. } #{ Also kinda sad that my friend said she'd visit me while she was in my city but never did. } #{ Especially since she's an online friend and I never get those kinds of chances due to the fact I'm broke. } #{ Hurray for poverty. :D *sarcasm* } #{ Anyway... as always I will try to do stuff but at this point it's better just to not expect anything from me. } #{ If you don't like these kinds of posts just... block me or whatever. I honestly don't care at this point. } #tw; negative #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ I know I haven't been here in forever, but that's mainly due to the fact I have almost no muse for Mika anymore unless with @/s-talking, along with the fact I've grown extremely tired of people stealing the way I do things, such as how I represent the difference between me speaking in character and out of character and how I write my tags for Mika specifically. I keep seeing people I'm either mutuals with or people who follow me writing in the exact same fashion that I do or using the exact same wording that I do for their tags. Hell, I've even had someone straight up steal Mika's specific in character tag and slap it on their character, hence why I ended up redoing all of Mika's tags.

With all that being said though, I will try to be here and on all my other blogs more from now on because I have so much to do. I will no longer be roleplaying with certain people anymore nor answering asks from them and will only be focusing on very specific people. I will not elaborate on who these people are either. Thank you. }

#{ I'm done with people. } #{ I am in a permanent state of exhaustion nowadays and don't have time for people. } #{ Nor do I have the patience that I once did in the past. } #{ You get one chance from me and that's it. } #{ You fuck up and that's on you. Not my fault. I don't care anymore. } #{ That's all. } #✠ [ ' ᴀᴛᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴ! ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴏɴᴇ; ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴀʟʟ! ' ] - ✡ ᴘsᴀ ✡ #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ I need to get out of bed already, but my motivation is just... nonexistent at this point... }

#{ Time to force myself up by rolling off the bed and onto the floor. } #{ Granted it'll hurt since the bones in my torso are frail but at least I'll be up. } #{ At least back when Shelby and Morgan were alive I had a reason to get up. } #{ Had to let them outside and get them both food and water. } #{ Now that they're dead though? I don't really have much of a reason anymore. } #{ I gotta respond to starters and threads. } #{ I gotta do my dalies in a game too. } #{ Not to mention I gotta keep checking outside for packages since people steal shit here. } #{ My energy is slowly sapped more and more throughout the years but I will continue. } #{ Don't mind me guys. My sister left with out mom for a while so that's why I'm like this. } #{ I don't do being alone very well and it gets to me fairly fast. } #{ It just honestly makes me feel like I'm trapped in a small room with nothing but static noise. } #{ Anyway... off the bed I go. } #tw; negative #tw; vent #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ Just finished a fucking 911 call and talking to the police about a drunk driver that hit my dad's car along with six or so other cars. Threats about sh**ting us were made and now I'm just utterly scared of what he might to do my family. Jesus fucking christ. }

#{ I feel like throwing up. } #{ I'm shaking and I don't know what to do. } #{ I'm just really scared right now. } #{ Why can't anything just go nice for one day? } #{ One fucking day. } #{ I definitely am not sleeping now. } #tw; negative #tw; threats #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ God I fucking hate when my dad is in a bad mood because he literally becomes the worst people in the world towards literally everyone because of his bipolar disorder. }

#{ Normally he's always happy and goofy. } #{ But god fucking forbid when he's angry or something. } #{ It's like living with fucking Zeus when he's throwing lightning bolts at Hades. } #{ A loud and intimidating disaster. } #{ I always get the worst anxiety because loud noises that I don't expect scare the shit out of me. } #{ He always yelling and slamming shit around. } #{ I also blame our mom for making him this way because he was never like this in the past. } #{ She fucked him up real bad. } #{ Throwback to when I was a child caught in the middle of them fighting and my mom throwing shit at my dad- } #{ screaming like a psychopath and almost hitting me with heavy glass objects. } #{ Dad's parents had to save me from that mess but I don't blame him. } #{ Everyone that woman comes into contact with breaks eventually. } #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[yuichiroswife]

{ Just started the new year and it's already starting off with me splitting up with my soon-to-be fucking fiancé.

This girl sure knows how to start off the new year, huh? }

#{ I just can't deal with anything anymore man. } #{ I really can't. } #{ There always something that goes wrong and it's usually always me. } #{ Why can't I just be a normal fucking person?! } #{ Why does my anxiety have to be so bad it ruins everything I love? } #{ No matter what I try... nothing ever works. } #{ God... I hate everything. } #{ Sorry for posting something like this on today of all days. } #{ Don't mind me. I'll be fine. } #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡