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[xsilver-wings]

Hope your surgery went well! Character questions as a get-well-soon gift haha - because I'd love to know, how much gameplay vs just pure imagination inspired Xia's story (ie, I've never even made Lex in game, but a different dragonborn now owes key character growth to the time I cleared a forsworn camp only to realise they had one chicken that was left all alone with no one to look after it LMAO)

And also in that vein, are there any specific quests that caused Xia's growth from more to less trusting or is it just. In general. Because Skyrim kinda does that to people haha

My surgery went well! I'm bruised, sore, and mostly tired still now, but recovery is up and up! And I love these!! Xia was initially inspired by my second playthrough (her name was Alixiea because I wanted to make my name sound... fantasy-esque (learning later that Alix was a name used for a few Bretons was cool, but Alixiea stuck soo) She would later earn the nickname Xia because of how the second half of her name sounded (and I dropped the e because well I felt like it sue meeee Xia looks better than Xiea lol. Now when I actually made her a roleplay character versus just one in my head and on screen, I figured I couldn’t really name her after me. That felt too Mary Sue-esque. I mean, I’ve done it before, but like it’s been years and years and years. I just wanted to avoid that grief, so I stuck with just Xia. Also, later when I redeveloped her character, I made her first name Aloisa because she originally had a twin sister of that name :O It’s a callback to her lol.). ANYWAY. I have played around with Xia's storyline for a while. Her first iteration here on tumblr was she was taken in by the dark brotherhood as a child and raised as an assassin so I played her very dark early on. When I rewrote her, I wanted her to have some innocence to her at some point and wanted Skyrim to turn her versus her turning dark much earlier. Because you're right, Skyrim does that to people! So she started very gameplay-based and then turned into imagination based as I delved into where she was from et cetera.

I think there wasn't any particular quest that turned Xia. I think it started very early on when the Imperials were gonna chop her head off. Then, as time goes on, as she was practically forced to kill people (bandits, et cetera) through quests she just became harder and harder the more she killed people. So it would start very early on. Then comes the dark brotherhood questline. She's already desensitized to killing at this point, so being asked to kill Greold, Xia thought nothing of it. Finding the Dark Brotherhood was like finding a family for her again, especially because as she kills more people, the less she actually feels like a hero. The betrayal of Astrid really does hit her hard because I imagine that she was starting to trust people again. I think she really fully hardens herself after that. Goes through the motions of playing a hero, but delves deep into being a cold-blooded assassin.

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[xlittledragon]

Xia calls Naenia her Little Dragon. It makes sense. Xia is the Dragonborn. She has the soul and blood of a dragon. While Naenia is not a Dragonborn in any sense, she still has her mother’s blood flowing through her. She is, to Xia, her little dragon. Others pick up the nickname, but it is only people who are close to both Xia and Naenia. 

Also, yes, Naenia’s main nickname is Nia. Do people sometimes giggle at “Xia and Nia”? Yes, yes they do. Even Xia gets a little smirk on her face when both of their names are said. Still, it was tradition to have names that end in either ia or just a in her family. Her father and sister were named Barynia and her mother was named Aurelia. Her birth name was Aloisa (with Xia being her middle name). Xia wanted to keep the tradition. So she did. The nickname wasn’t made until Naenia was about six months old. It has stuck since and Xia finds it amusing. Nia sometimes rolls her eyes at the fact that it’s very matching. She doesn’t hate it though. 

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[xsilver-wings]

So I have random questions because I was Having Thots and spewing out drabble stuff that's making wild assumptions - what was De Joyaux family life like? Was Barynia a more attentive or more absent father? Was Xia more, or less aware of his political difficulties? Did his paranoia ever affect his relationship with his family outside of the politics? Was Xia's education rigorous and formal, or more relaxed for only the second-born? How indulgent / strict were her parents? What did she think of her parents' marriage as she saw it (did it seem loving, did she pick up on difficulties)? Were they much of a Family Unit, spending time with all of them together? How did she get on with her sister?

Answering this publically because HEADCANONS 2. I'm having a weird anxiety thing so I just took a Klonopin, so if this gets weird... that would be why lol. But omg, I love this question! Gonna be long, so put it under a "read more" :)

Was Barynia a more attentive or more absent father? He was a combo of both. He was a lot more attentive when Xia was younger, but as his paranoia grew, he became a lot less involved. This was because he was so focused on politics and keeping his position that he didn't have much time for his family.

Was Xia more, or less aware of his political difficulties? She was not aware of his political difficulties until after Wayrest fell. She got inklings while captured in Wayrest and a little more while in Daggerfall, but she wouldn't fully learn until she was out of High Rock. So it was all in hindsight. The more she learned, the more she realized how much she missed when she was younger.

She realizes now that power had been her father's downfall. That he had been so paranoid about keeping his power that it took over his life and ultimately destroyed it. She sees this trait inside of herself and it is why she fears having too much power... because she really, really wants it and not always for the right reasons.

Was Xia's education rigorous and formal, or more relaxed for only the second-born? Being the second born, Xia was not educated in the same way that Barynia II was. She was not educated in politics. She was not educated on how to run a kingdom. She was, however, educated rigorously on accomplishments: dancing, embroidery, singing, et cetera. She was raised to be the "perfect bride" that could be used for a politically arranged marriage.

Despite this, though, Aurelia did teach her some basics on the side. Things that she felt Xia might need to know. She gave her books to read that Xia wouldn't understand the contents of until she was older and reread them.

Along with education, too, it should be noted that Barynia II was also trained heavily in magic because she was very skilled. Aurelia attempted to train Xia in magic, but she had no aptitude for it. Eventually, said training kind of went by the wayside.

How indulgent/strict were her parents? Honestly, they weren't really one way or the other. I think there were certain areas and certain situations that called for more strictness (more public appearances et cetera) and others that called for a more relaxed parenting style (if they were in private). Again, I think as Barynia got more and more paranoid, he might have been more strict with how his children acted. So if Xia was "childish" (y'know, as a child), he might yell at her to grow up and act like the royalty that she is. I think this would come from a place of fear that if his family was not perfect, it would reflect on him. But this was closer to the end of their reign over Wayrest. I also imagine during this time, Barynia would have been more strict about whether or not Xia could even leave the castle. She would have been basically hidden away for her "safety." I think Barynia would have become stricter in the sense that he felt he was truly protecting her from his kingdom and the world. He wouldn't have fully treated Barynia II the same way, only due to the fact that she was older. He probably would have been stricter in her studies, though.

What did she think of her parent's marriage as she saw it (did it seem loving, did she pick up on difficulties)? Aurelia loved her husband very much and it very much showed on her face when they were together or when she spoke of him. Before he was too deep in his paranoia, Barynia could be seen with a similar look on his face when he was speaking with her. Aurelia also had a way of handling Barynia without him realizing that she was "manipulating" him one way or the other (for subtle things on how to act or if she thought a certain decision was better than another). I think Xia was acutely aware of how her parents acted and felt toward each other. I think she also learned a thing or two from just watching Aurelia in this situation. If she were to reflect on it now, she might remember fond memories of her parent's love for each other first before any of their shortcomings.

Were they much of a Family Unit, spending time with all of them together? Yes, they were quite a typical family unit in spending time with each other. They ate breakfast together. Lunches were usually just Aurelia and the girls or Aurelia and Xia if Barynia II was studying. Dinners were together and then they also spent their evenings together winding down. They might have read books aloud with each other (alternating who got to pick the book), listened to music (Xia often showed off what new things she was learning this way), or just otherwise did their own separate things but together in the same room. They would also often take vacations together where they would spend their time with just the four of them. This would dwindle more and more as Barynia became more paranoid. He would be locked up in his office or whatnot and miss events. He would say that they couldn't take a vacation together because he was busy. Aurelia would continue to spend the time the same way with the girls, for a sense of normalcy, but I think Barynia II would have stopped eventually herself. That she might feel the need to study more or prepare herself to take her father's place sooner rather than later.

Before he got so paranoid, I imagine the kingdom saw them as a very happy family. Those that were in politics didn't particularly care for Barynia, but they loved Aurelia and the girls. They would have 100% seen a loving and doting father until they no longer saw him at all.

How did she get on with her sister? Barynia II was nine years older than Xia. Xia looked up to her sister immensely. To her, Barynia was perfect and she wanted to be just like her. She was beautiful, smart, and insanely talented with magic. Barynia was very kind to Xia and oftentimes mothered her, possibly due to the age gap. Sometimes Bary was too bossy, which might get on Xia's nerves as they got older, but Xia still idolized her. They were definitely very close in terms of how they treated each other and how much they loved each other. They fought like most siblings, but not huge fights that needed broken up by someone else or result in punishments other than "apologize and hug it out." And they always apologized to each other and hugged after every fight. Because of this closeness, if Xia ever finds out Barynia is alive, she is going to be absolutely livid because 1) she thought she was dead and 2) where the fuck was she when she was held up in a tower in Daggerfall for years?? So definitely lots of angst there!

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[xlittledragon]

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[xsilver-wings]

Y’all. I can’t get this idea out of my head ;^; I just. Xia having a daughter. It would definitely have to be after she’s come to Skyrim and after she’s discovered that she’s the Dragonborn. Probably even after she’s been the Listener for some time. She has had some relations with some men, mostly to pass the time or because she has some sort of kinship with them so I can see her accidentally getting pregnant (this is outside of ships that happen in rp, so like, this kid could also be because of a ship idk).  And the Divines were just like, “Hmn. Let’s Copy & Paste? Yeah?” and bam! Little Naenia (oh yeah, I named her ;^; I thought about naming her after Xia’s mother, but if she’s still hiding her identity, it’s probably not a good idea. Aurelia is probably her middle name tho Naenia Aurelia? Kinda cute). Part of me is like “I should make Nia roleplayable... I should make her a blog...” but idek imma figure out some shit about her first, I think. Regardless, I love her. Xia loves her. Everything is good. ;^;

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[xsilver-wings]

.3. dont mind me, just thinking about “what if” Barynia (her dad not her sister) was to find out about Xia being alive and going to visit her, but he looks so drastically different (long almost completely gray hair, a beard to rival Robin Williams’s in Jumanji, super skinny and wrinkly) that Xia doesn’t realize it’s him and she takes him in as a weary traveler and just asdfggh the angst of finding out it’s him! Hella might actually have to hold Xia back from killing him. I love it.

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[xsilver-wings]

Which Specific Archetype Are You?

the Lionheart

the Loyal one, the Stubborn one, the one who fights for others. the guarder, the watcher, the brave, foolish, valiant person who is not the same person by the end of the story.

tagged — @arcadeblues​ tagging — all y’all, because this is also accurate lol

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[xsilver-wings]

What Type of I Love You Are You?

❝i love you; i’ve always loved you; i will always love you❞

it’s commitment, it’s devotion, it goes often without saying, but is felt nonetheless. it’s accepting that you would travel to hell and back for them if they asked and knowing that they would do the same for you. it’s an old ache, long after they’ve burrowed deep into your chest and settled there like a weight — grounding, an anchor point. even when you’re apart, you can still feel the shape of them, it’s like phantom pain. neither of you can help but succumb to the other’s gravity, yet neither of you fear the collision. it means that you trust them, that they make you feel safe, that they feel like home.

tagged by — @nailedbat​​ tagging — all y’all because this was so accurate holy shit

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[xsilver-wings]

#☾✦ xia silver-wing ✦☽ #☾✦ ❝the earth has music for those who listen❞ ➤ music ✦☽ #☾✦ ❝to thine own self be true❞ ➤ headcanons ✦☽ #(I was listening to a playlist and this song came on) #(and akwqlalqjq fuck does this fit xia) #(Xia dancing with the ghosts of her past. the ghosts of her childhood) #(;^;) #SoundCloud

[xsilver-wings]

Okay. But listening to Jenny of Oldstones now got me thinking. So, the fall of Wayrest was kinda a big deal. What happened to the city and to the royal family was a tragedy. And then the Wayrest Princess, thought to be the last remaining royal, is taken by Daggerfall and then, years later, dies. There sure as hell would have been bards making songs about them. And now I’m just thinking about Xia sitting in a tavern when some Breton bard just starts playing one. ;^; shit I want this so bad omg. I’m on mobile rn, but maybe in a bit when I’m back on my laptop, I’ll write something out about it (like a fic or a starter or both idk lol).

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