#<- didnt mention a single thang from early arcs in here like i intended to but its whyi was thinking of it

[lakesbian]

thinking meanderingly about early worm undersider sitchuations to procrastinate actually collecting the lisa meangirl moments i told myself i would collect before continuing to reread worm. it's so sad how taylor (for obvious insecure reasons) is like Ah....Confident collected teenagers who hang out and are cool...upon witnessing the undersiders but they're all very much experiencing their own forms of slowly building lonely misery. rachel having been homeless & victimized by the legal system for years on end, brian trying 2 prop up his Special Professional Masculine Boy Man Who Can Handle Everything lifestyle by regularly putting himself in life-threatening danger, lisa going on a year and a half of forced service and lying to her teammates face that everything is normal every day, and alec having just escaped from a ridiculously abusive cult, still unable to start processing, healing, or forming any close social connections. lisa particularly is so . Augh. here. because she knows all of this, she can't not know it, and she is still so desperate 2 save taylor that she tries to sell her the complete lie of the undersiders lives just being happy fun times where they make easy money and then go out for burgers together. so so shortsighted in a way that reads to me as an immature & desperate reminder that she is Very Fifteen. she is fifteen and having a bad time :(. & the shift in group dynamics post-leviathan isn't just a result of leviathan forcibly stripping away the city's/narrative's ostensible pretenses wrt capedom--the pretenses lisa wants taylor to believe--it's a result of taylor really starting to probe into what's actually going on w/ the undersiders + connect w/ them in a way that will ultimately b life-altering for them. (except for alec, who remains a Silly Background Guy for so much longer because taylor is not paying attention to him, and is juuust as lonely as always right up until he finds aisha to latch onto)

#wormtime 2 #<- didnt mention a single thang from early arcs in here like i intended to but its whyi was thinking of it #worm spoilers