#< sorry ik discussion of this stuff could potentially be distressing but idk how to tw tag it :(

[kkujo]

last night i had a mix of tinnitus and sleep deprivation induced auditory hallucinations which was basically just like. literal microphone feedback. and i think it was triggered by me testing my microphone yesterday bc the feedback was awful but yeah i was lying awake and all i could hear was extremely loud microphone feedback in my brain i'm so glad it's over 😭

#worst hallucination i've ever had #like usually if i'm bad enough to get hallucinations it's just like murmuring/whispering but i can tell it's not real #worst ones i've had before is like screaming and that's only if i'm rlly sleep deprived. sometimes knocking on my door too but #it's never too bad yk. but the mic feedback hallucination was unbearable 😭 #but also i've had olfactory hallucinations where i smell cigarette smoke #ik it's definitely a hallucination bc no one in my family smokes and it only lasts a minute #ykw typing this out i'm starting to think maybe this isn't normal. #i don't think i'm schizophrenic or anything? this isn't that common and it's usually triggered by sleep deprivation or stress #but i did start having delusions the other day where i fully believed everyone was plotting against me and trying to upset me #and i have had extreme paranoia/paranoid episodes in the past but it's been a lotttttt better this year so idc if that's related #but idk if these things are normal to an extent or if i have some kind of psychotic disorder but whatever it's not affecting me that bad so #like. it's not having a big impact it's just scary when it happens. i have like anxiety n shit so idk if i'm just prone to being paranoid #anyway if anyone knows abt these things pls tell me if i'm normal or not 😁 #i'm 99% sure it's not schizophrenia or anything i just want someone's opinion bc idk how normal hallucinations are ☹ #but it's typically if i'm like. stressed out to the point of panic attacks or if i'm rlly sleep deprived. so it might be normal ish #ask to tag #< sorry ik discussion of this stuff could potentially be distressing but idk how to tw tag it :(