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Where the line is drawn (Colt x MC)

A/N: I want to say that this wouldn't have been possible without @vienroose, she helped me a lot to translate this story and corrected me about the writing, thank u so much, I love you <333 sorry if you see any orthographic error, this is my first story and we did the best we could!

I also recommend you to listen the song Flex Your Way Out by Sofi de la Torre while you're reading this!

Pairing: Colt x MC (Ellie)

Rating: PG

Summary: The conversation that mc and colt had in chapter 12 (from colt's perspective)

Tags: @vienroose @zig-nazario @storiesofsass @rwanchoices @mrswalkernazario @the-red-jhon @client-327

Colt was looking out the window, trying to calm what he was feeling at that moment. He would never admit it to everyone, but he was afraid too. He was scared, scared that everything could go wrong, scared for failing, because he knew that if he failed, not only his life would be in danger, his father's life, the crew's life, and even her life, would be in danger.

But he had no choice, he couldn't turn back, "what is done, is done" he said to himself as he adjusted his tie, he was ready for anything.

Until he heard her voice in the next room. At first he thought it was only his imagination, that the desire to see her was playing tricks on him, but he heard it again, and not only her voice, Logan's voice too. He went to the door, trying to hear what was happening.

"I'm not going to let Colt do this, I'm not going to let you do this" she said, fear and anger in her tone.

She was there, in the next room. After days without seeing her, he just felt like he wanted to go out and hug her, feel her, he wanted to hear her sweet voice saying "everything will be fine", "I'm here for you, with you", but he knew that he was just lying to himself, she was not there to support him, she was there to stop him.

He knew that she was there to stop him, he knew that she would do everything to convince him to give up, and if it was up for him, in that moment he would have taken her hand, put her on his motorcycle, and driven, far, far away from anyone and everything, wherever they wanted, only him and her.

But he couldn't. He had to finish what he started and that was not the time to have second thoughts, he couldn't fail the others in that way, he couldn't fail his father, who had trusted him for the first time. But above all that, he couldn't fail because of his selfish feeling of loving her.

"You're going to end up all dead, Logan," he heared her say.

Colt felt his heart stop for a second, and it was there when he realized that failing because of her was not his greatest fear. His biggest fear was losing her because of what he had done.

The whole plan had been thought so that everyone could be free, and it could also means that he and Ellie could be free, but if because of that she got hurt, if because of the plan he devised she got hurt, in one way or another...

If because of him and his plan she died, god, he wouldn't know how to live without her.

If something happened, he could never forgive himself, and everything he'd fought for wouldn't have made sense, no reason. He had to take her away, he had to make her leave because every second she was there, it was a second which she was risking her life. ¿How?, ¿How could he make that stubborn go away and not look back?

He remembered the day he told her that Logan betrayed her, he remembered the fury in Ellie's eyes, all the pain and sadness that made her go away for weeks. He knew what he had to do.

The only way to get Ellie away was to make her want to leave, and that could only happen if she was hurt, only if she hated hated him. The idea of hurting her might have hurt even more, but he had to do it, he had to do it for her.

He opened the door then, and with a voice firm like a rock, said:

"Logan understood my way of seeing things"

He smiled, he loved the way she fought for what she believed was right, but this was not the best time, not the place.

"You're enjoying this, right?" "You're enjoying this, you damn bastard" she looked around, Colt didn't take his eyes off her. "I can't believe it." she started laughing and raised her hands. "I can't believe it"

"You already know what's going on here, I guess" he said, she looked at him again with an expression full of fury and said "Seriously, Colt?, Kidnapping?" she moved closer to him "Kidnapping?" she shouted without taking her eyes off him, "I did what I had to do" he said, coldly, as he felt his own words burning inside him.

"I don't understand," she said "After everything we went through" she tried to stop the tears that were about to fall "¿How could you?" She yelled back and pushed him "¿How could you?"

He let her punch him in the chest, he knew he deserved it, he deserved that she left him forever, without second thoughts, without regrets, but neither of them was capable of doing that, definitely not him.

The hits stopped and he looked at her again, the tears kept coming out from his beautiful brown eyes, something inside him broke, as if a part of his heart was missing, he hated to see her like this, not after all what she had gone through. He had to be strong.

"¿What do you want me to say? ¿Sorry? I don't want to lie to you"

"Ah, ¿now that's the problem? You didn't mind lying about your whole plan!" she said, shouting again.

"I didn't lie to you, I hid the truth, to protect you. You're smart, Ellie. You have to see why I did it" he sounded cold, but every word that came out of his mouth was the pure truth.

"¿Why did you tricked your crew into doing something so stupid and dangerous?" the way she looked at him was killing him, with hatred and sadness at the same time. He hated himself more and more.

"I need you to leave, Ellie" he said to himself.

He took a breath and approached her, he thought of everything that could make him angry, the way Logan had used her, the way his father had never let him into his life, the way everyone could die if this ended badly.

Determinedly and with the heart made ice, he said:

"The rest of them might not love this plan, but they're willing to do what it takes" his eyes flashed as he met her gaze "Even if you aren't"

He regretted saying that as soon as the words came out of his mouth. None of that was true, he knew that Ellie was one of the strongest and capable people he had ever met, and that was the reason why he loved her, she never accepted anything less than she deserved, well, until she accept him.

"Oh my god" she opened her mouth "¿This is your plan, Colt?

"¿My plan?" he smiled thinking about the irony of that question "This was your plan, Ellie. It's you who came up with it, remember?" "They have everything they want but 'we just have to make them thing they don't', make them believe it could all be taken away" he tried to get closer to her even more, but she stepped back "There's only one thing they're are afraid of losing... freedom" "It's the only thing the entire brotherhood will step out of the shadows to protect"

She closed her eyes, thinking. Suddenly her eyes opened fast, implying that everything was falling into place.

"The man in the badgers hat, it's him, isn't it?" she said.

He thought about how smart she was, she discovered all of his plan with just a hint and he knew that he would never be able to hide anything from her for a long time, but there was nothing left to hide between them. After that conversation in the car, he was willing to share everthing with her, his thoughts, his feelings, his fears, he wanted to rule the entire city with here, but, ¿were they ready for that?

"And you didn't trust me with any of this" she said.

He didn't want to put her in danger. If she'd knew the plan, then she would have been one of them already, one who kidnapped a man and handed him to others who might kill him. And he was aware that everything was wrong inside her head, but he had everything clear. Colt only cared about being free and he was far from feeling bad for that man, he had everything he needed to make this plan, the brain, the courage, he could sleep peacefully after sentencing someone to death, but he knew her, the guilt would haunt her forever. He couldn't let that happen, even if she didn't see what that meant at the time.

"I didn't think you had the stomach. And I was right" he said "I knew Logan either" he looked at Logan "My pop said that he got weak ever since you showed up"

Logan had his eyes looking on the ground, he sighed and looked at Colt. Colt and Logan had one thing in common, they both loved Ellie, neither of them would let anything happen to her, but Colt had a reason, a reason to fight, a reason to stay strong, determinated, he had always been like that, but Ellie had also awakened a part of him that he believed didn't exist, the part that cared so much for her, that part that wanted to protect her at all cost, and as much as he hated to admit, he had also become weak, he also had one weakness, her.

But he would never show it, at least not at that moment.

"You know what they'll do to him. This isn't you" he could see the disappointment in her face "This isn't the crew I know. This isn't the Colt I know"

Something came to his mind, the time his father said that she was just a tourist, that she could leave whenever she wanted and go back to her normal life. That wasn't true for him, in any way. Ellie had always shown loyalty, she wanted to be one of them, she wanted that life and they had talked about it. ¿Could he have the guts to say all of that too?, after everything he had said that afternoon in her car, what she was worth, the reasons why he wanted her, how they could connect and use their skills so that nothing would get in their way, damn, they would be the most powerful couple in the whole city, ¿could he forget all those promises just for a moment for both their sake?

"Then you don't know us at all" she shouted "Our life? What we've been thought?" the thoughts of his past invaded him "At the end of this, your dad will take you back. He'll welcome you home" he knew, deep down, that was the right thing to do "You'll go to college, and forget everything of this happened" but he couldn't let her go, he couldn't, and he didn't want to "You're a tourist" he looked at the floor, trying not to see how his words hurted her again and again.

"That's what you think of me?" he heared her broken voice as and echo in his mind.

"They'll be here soon" he said, trying to change the subject.

"It won't work Colt!" she shouted "You're selling your soul for nothing"

He couldn't pretend anymore, his nerves were betraying him and the words threatened to come out of his mouth, fuck, he was breaking her, ¿why was she still there?, the answer was obvious, she didn't want to give up, she still believed that there was a good way to solve it, he thought she was blind because she couldn't see it. He took the last strength he had left, and with all the pain in the world he looked at her again. Ellie's eyes were red, her face full of eyeline because of the tears that didn't stop coming out, and in spite of all that he could still see hope in her eyes, looking for a good answer, but he didn't have the answer because there really was not one. Everything he had said was a lie and it didn't mean anything he really thought, but he saw how the light in Ellie's eyes disappeared, and he knew that he only needed one more blow to get her out of the danger. He bit his tongue, and said:

"Freedom can't be bought. It can only be taken"

Without saying more he turned towards the exit with all the desire to look back, but he knew that if he turned and looked back, everything inside him would collapse.

"Colt, please" he stopped in front of the door "You're going too far, you're not a bad person" she put a hand on his shoulder, she was shaking "¿Colt?" she said again.

He pulled her hand out sharply, and without looking back he said:

"You don't get to choose where the line is drawn"

He opened the door and looked at Logan and trying to hide his feelings he finally said.

"Get ride of her, will you?"

He closed the door and sighed, tears threatened to fall from his eyes, he was sure that he'd lost her, but at least this was all his own decision, he didn't lose her because someone snatched her from his side, not because someone had hurt her, not because someone had killed her.

He could still heared her crying as he walked away, a part of his heart stayed in that room, with her, and he was sure that no matter what happened after this, he could live knowing that he saved her, his most precious treasure.

Or at least he thought so.

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