#& by the time i recalled how much work it'd be id already actually used a seam ripper to make the holes so i cant back out now

[heartyearning]

handsewing button holes through 6 layers of fabric is an unfortunately huge pain in the ass and tragically i have to do 18 of them

#ive done 3 so far so 6th of the way thru 😔 its ok im being so brave about this #i dont mind THAT much bc i enjoy sewing button holes tbh its just a little Meh bc it takes so long & like #i dont want to waste so much time while other project remain so unfinished #plus theres one layer of fabric which is already a bitch to sew thru one or two layers which like. i chose this fabric knowingly #i just forgot that id have to do the button holes by hand #& its for a corset too so theres boning on both sides which means there isnt all that much manoeuvreability #but ! i finished the top edge w bias tape (which i made myself without a little tool and went way better than ive done before with tool) #& it looks decently sick so ! i am positive about this thing overall its just that i shouldnt have made 7 holes on both sides at the back #i was originally only gonna do 5/side but then i was just measuring a hole/3cm & didnt think about my original reasoning for doing 5 #& by the time i recalled how much work it'd be id already actually used a seam ripper to make the holes so i cant back out now #+ something rly rly bothersome is that my iron left a pretty big stain on the fabric (im still not sure how this stuff works #but i think my boning had some rust on it and thats what made the stain rather than the iron itself #i could be wrong tho) so i think im either gonna try to wash it out obv but if that doesnt work #i might do some embroidery which im not looking forward to #but unfortunately needs must and ive already cut a few corners & have some imperfections that i need leeway on #AND i dont want EVERY single project to be noticably halfassed at my jury so #i'll be fine btw im complaining but more so im just sorting thru my thoughts bc im quite pleased w how it looks #despite the imperfections #& ive overall just had a good day #tomorrow is reserved for studying art history bc i have that exam on wednesday & wednesday i wanna use whats left of the day #to work on my drape (possible some of that will happen tomorrow too) so i can get it mostly finished #& then i still have the option of showing my teacher on thursday if i feel the need to do so #& also i just need to get that done so i dont have to worry about it too much anymore #then we'll be taking pics on sunday probably #& then i have 2 more days to finish my portfolios and sort all of that out (and fuck i keep forgetting i have to upload everything online) #& then !! jury time !! & the day after we're gonna go to a theme park & then we just have until the 2nd week of feb #to relax and do sort of whatever we want #excited !!!

[lakesbian]

How do you think Alec would have handled getting the Valkyrie treatment? Being made into a puppet in the same way that he did to other people, his sacrificial suicide being subverted by another cape who uses people as tools but in a much more complete and permanent sense, coming back wrong and having his cape identity irrevocably a part of his body and self, and no longer being able to take off the mask, is this anything?

see i've rotated this extensively in my mind before because i think coming up with how a cape's design would turn out if they got glastig uained is a really fun exercise (do that shit to lisa for some Fun eyeball body horror!!) but i'm struggling to come up with what would happen to alec :( the most obvious answer is the crown becoming like. Attached. to his head. but id ont know if that's too far out there. there's also the concept of having his face frozen in a permanent smirking expression but i feel like that would go Too tragically counter to the point of a 'surprise hes back again' au wherein he would be expected to. yknow. realize and experience some of his feelings again at some point. so yeah i'd need someone else to help me figure that one out.

anyway the actual experience of being glastig uained. if i recall correctly in ward brian says it was basically just like waking up feeling like everything from before he died was just a few days ago not Years ago so i don't think alec would care that much that someone was using his ghost or whatever for shit while he was dead, relative 2 all the other problems in his life. wouldnt even notice with the type of shit hes got going on. the big reason why this au doesn't really work is that it's just Wildly Unproductively Depressing. it seems like ciara only starts bringing random people back by the time aisha is like. what. 20?

it works Fine and Actually Thematically Interesting Well that brian is like oh FUCK youve GROWN UP when he gets back because it's relevant 2 their sibling dynamics. but it does. it does not work if alec gets back and aisha is like 20. it's just depressing. from alec's PoV it would be "congrats you've been brought back into a world where your best and only friend is too old and character-developmented for you to actually have a close connection with even though for you it feels like she was still your age only a few days ago and also your fucking shit ass siblings are here too and btw the world ended so all of the nice luxuries you were enjoying previously are not options anymore. go feed the earth gimel sheep boy." and from aisha's perspective her best friend would be back but in a monkeys paw way where he did not get to grow up with her and he's still little and sad and fucked up and more like one of his siblings that she's caring for/trying to help vs the equal best friendship she Wants but Can't Have because he is Fifteen. so now everything sucks and is sad for everyone involved. :(.

i would say "on the 'up'side this is a hot new contender for scenarios wherein lisa could feasibly decide alec is her new sopping wet fixer-upper" but she already has an even more absurd and unstable option (that one cop) so as usual alec remains background. btw he would be offended on taylors behalf that lisa had replaced taylor with victoria (who he does not like because shes annoying) and entirely oblivious that taylor had ever thought or said anything about him being sucks and utterly lacking in interiority. AUs that have potential to be funny wrt alec's interactions with the other undersiders but are wildly fucking depressing when you get to his interactions with aisha.

if we fudge a bit and say ciara brings him back like riiight after gold morning aisha would only be a bit over a year older than him so that's more doable in terms of character development and eventual reconnection but it'd still be a mess. i'm not articulating my explanation of how aisha's character development works rn and i don't feel like saying something wrong so i'll just leave it here but trust me it'd still be a mess. maybe an interesting one but a mess

#ask #worm spoilers #scarf don't look