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I keep accidentally finding cool teapots

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106 calories today ♡

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binge watching my 600lb life 👍🏻 what a good way to spend the evening

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obsessed with reading thats for sure

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the day i go for a run will be the best day of this year i sweeeeaaarrr

#why am i this lazy mfg

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i don’t even know how to use tumblr anymore sos

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r e l a p s e :/

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well...just as i thought, i shouldn't have eaten over 500 yesterday. i gained 1 pound and this feels terrible. why does my body work like that? it stills restriction...why can't it just...lose??

#maybe really the only way for me is completely starvation #i miss going on walks... #im so tired of being sick #wish i could get well sooner #can't not even focus on my ed with this mfckn virosis

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today i allowed myself to high restrict (with the excuse i feel really ill) and i dont regret it now...but I'm scared i may, stepping on the scale, tomorrow. i would never say 600 calories make anyone gain any weight, but it looks like my body works different (?) idk

#today i didnt even weight myself #i was feeling really really off #but now im here thinking....i shouldn't have eaten more because of it... #shit why have i done that #instant regret...??]!! #if i gain any........i won't know what to do

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if i lose 10 more kg (yes, only 10 more ❤️‍🩹) I'll already enter the underweight category!!!!!! this is sooooo motivating!! it's not that hard to lose 10 kg i just need 3 months i guess

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ed literally being "eating soup with a fork" in all possible senses of this quote

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first goal weight achieved!! 🦇🦇 9.5lbs down for next one 🤍🖤

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i bet this will f√¢k my metabolism 👏👏 wish i d

#now i'm thinking i could've just...not ate... #that makes me hate myself #but also I'm thinking...how i was supposed to eat less??? i was in front of my grandparents the whole time today #the only way i could avoid food was by hiding some in my sleeves when they're distracted #and it seen like im making up excuses #but i really feel like i did my best at the same time (?) #it's very paradoxal and confusing and idk what to feel and i hate this d1s0rd€r so fckn much #but also i kinda love it....here we go again i'll stop

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successfully 2 days of fasting thank you october for starting with a victory 💞

#today i don't think ill be able to fast but ill try to eat least as possible #thats why i dont like to go out with my family that much but well... they're my family