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i used to think i was so visibly overweight but lowkey not really. just my tummy looks weird from gaining and losing a large amount of weight

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update a month later: i totally upgraded lol

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the tiktok girlies will always set me straight. theres a million other men with halfway decent dick that will let me call them daddy

what would shera seven say!!!

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i should text jeff

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another con hes CORNY!! if you like me and are corny it's okay. if you hurt my feelings and are corny INSTANT ick. he's like drake in my head now.

what would shera seven say!!!

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she would call him a dusty and call me a pick me for wasting so much time on him

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pros: pays for dates and gifts. good place to get away from all the shit going on in lincoln. kind of plays into a dynamic i enjoy but not super deep. access to a hookup without having to wade through creepy/weird men or get to know someone new. don't have to mooch off lucas's crunchyroll account.

cons: dates and gifts are cheap. have to use the side door (humiliating). doesn't make me finish 9/10 times. doesn't give a shit about me or my feelings. sex is mostly about kinks he likes. i don't think i can sit through another bout of heavy impact play after all this. i only really made it through in the past because i enjoyed service to him. aside from the service aspect (which is probably ruined now) the sex is not that fun. i tend to overeat with him. idk if it will always be like this but he makes my heart hurt rn. doesn't pay attention to me really during dates (wrestling, video games, etc). he was right that he kind of is a loser. puts a lot of wear and tear on my car.

what would shera seven say!!!

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she would tell me to get other options and start seeing other men definitely. i'm not sure if she would tell me to keep seeing ricky

what would shera seven say!!!

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don't try to make a man pick you. especially when he's made it clear he doesn't want you

what would shera seven say!!!

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what would shera seven say!!!

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and then he acts like he's giving me permission to go on dates with other people? and he says he feels 'protective' of that? fuck off. if you gave a shit in the first place you wouldn't have done this. why did you tell me all that shit about people in your life knowing that you're seeing someone. or you would've cancelled our dates if it was anyone but me. or you liked the polaroid of my face the most. or that you're here for me emotionally. or send me pictures of your niece?? fuck off. cannot BELIEVE i wasted my last session with lakyn crying about him

get it thru your fucking head this man has not and will never give a shit about you besides being a set of holes

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his intent all along was casual sex and he knowingly let you get in this deep. and arguably encouraged it (because it kept you coming back). and only addressed it when you started demanding committment. he does not respect you

get it thru your fucking head this man has not and will never give a shit about you besides being a set of holes

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cause how are these dates gonna go now. ignoring the elephant in the room and letting him beat the shit out of me during sex and then go play his video games and acting like everything's fine? delaying pulling the plug on this is just going to hurt more.

get it thru your fucking head this man has not and will never give a shit about you besides being a set of holes

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if i have any self respect i'll never fuck him again. we'll see if i have any

get it thru your fucking head this man has not and will never give a shit about you besides being a set of holes

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all the sweet moments are just him trying to convince himself he's a good person they were never about you. he never even entertained a real relationship in his head, he just wanted to stretch out how long he could keep you thinking there was a possibility and get sex during that time

get it thru your fucking head this man has not and will never give a shit about you besides being a set of holes

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get it thru your fucking head this man has not and will never give a shit about you besides being a set of holes

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didn't even make me cum. it's a good thing i guess. at least i don't have to introduce dad to another yt guy

i like ricky so much but he makes me so self conscious. idk i guess that's the downside of liking anyone a lot. hes so fit and he means well but the things he says make me feel HUGE. i asked him if it bothered him how chubby i am and he said he knows i'm not skinny but he's more of a face guy anyway. graaa peeling my skin off