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Td;lr Im currently deleting the app aka stopping using tumblr, yes the trigger that pulled this off was Giulia leaving, but I have other reasons too. See you soon for now

Vent rant Idk / thinking as I write

You know man damm Im thinking about leaving too now ugh

I mean tumblr doesnt affect me bad mentally,, but I do remember getting anxious in discourse which is why I try to avoid it

And now when summer break literally starts in less when a week, I have a lot of things planned, and tumblr may distract me

I mainly use it to save pictures or lightan up my mood, but if my friends are currently not here then IDK

I have enough pictures anyway lol...

Tumblr has been incredibly useful for my story (infographics, writing prompts, photos that give inspo)

But maybe now in the summer it's time to continue writing it rather than procrastinate on here?

I definitely have reasons to leave, I definitely have reasons to stay, so really I just dont know

I feel like staying bc I know I wont survive the boredom lol, but now there is this ghosty feeling around here that makes me want to delete while writing this, and I know its all bc Giulia left now but she was a really crucial part to the fun here

I think I might delete the app for now, even if it just for the weekend, and maybe I'll come back. Maybe not.

I might start another blog just to like/rb things I like, and leave this current blog silent,

And either way photostook will still be active.

So this is a goodbye? Is anyone even reading this I have no followers lmao

Im not going to pin this, so if this disappears under a bunch of other posts I guess it means Im back.

#salmon #last.

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Learning a language that doesn’t use the same writing system as your native one is so fun because they change the font and you’re doomed

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Misandrists be like “male suicide is over 70% of all suicides because men are just more aggressive and so they choose a more violent way to kill themselves and they aren’t even considerate to how others feel meanwhile females are dainty and caring and usually try to swallow pills because they aren’t violent”

like no... if anything, that just shows us that males on average actually want to die and are very unlikely to try and seek help before doing so.

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Common experiences with abusive mom:

hyper fixates on your appearance, constantly makes you incredibly self-aware of how you look and what others are thinking of you

compares you to other people, to show you what you should be more like (or look more like), making you feel like you’re the only worthless person

tries to control and micromanage your appearance, threatens you with missing out this and that if you don’t look up to her standards

uses you as emotional and psychological support

tells you how you are the only one who understands and loves her, forcing you to bear the burden of living as her “support system”

constantly makes you feel guilty for everything that is happening to her, makes you feel as if you owe her to make the world a bearable place for her

shares traumatic stories from her past that you are too young to understand and react to, expects unconditional emotional support and therapy from you even when you are a child

if the dad is abusive too, accuses you of being “just like him” or tells you that you remind her of him when she lashes out on you

also if father or another person is abusing you, she stands on their side or just pretends not to see or notice it’s going on, later tells you it’s your fault

silences your opinions with “you don’t know anything”

shows exaggerated concern for you for purpose of controlling where you go and what you do, makes you feel obliged to avoid certain places or situations so “she wouldn’t worry” but it extends to stuff you would usually be able to do safely, like hanging out with friends or traveling or having a social life

forces you to center her well being and her happiness more than your own and if you do anything for your own good, you will be called out for not thinking of her first

doesn’t feel responsible for providing you with decent meals or wardrobe, doesn’t notice when you’re hungry or lacking in basic resources, but lashes out at you if anyone else notices for “embarrassing her”

or alternatively, is crazy controlling over when you’re allowed to eat, what you’re allowed to eat, and what resources you are allowed to have

pushes you into interests and activities she wants you to have, disregards and criticizes everything you do that she doesn’t like

her behavior towards you changes in public, she becomes must more concerned over how other people perceive her relationship to you, is generally nicer if other people are listening

feigns concern towards you in front of others, in private keeps telling you how you’ll never make anything out of yourself

tries very hard to keep you at home forever if possible, refuses to teach you basic life skills, denies you resources you need to learn how to make something on your own, convinces you that you are in fact, helpless and incapable of survival without her, insists that you be dependent on her

breaks into your privacy, demands sensitive information about your relationships, conversations and thoughts, everything you do not feel comfortable about telling her because you know she’ll use it against you

accuses you of being a failure as a child, for being “heartless” and not caring about her at all, reminds you of everything she’s been thru only to raise you, talks as if she sacrificed herself for you

has periods where she doesn’t seem to even notice you, then in other times is completely obsessed with you and wont let you out of her sight

acts aggressive at times but always with pretense that her violence doesn’t count because she’s not physically able to seriously injure you, disregards all psychological and mental wounds of being assaulted and hurt by your own mother

acts like you’re an extension of her and have no existence or life of your own, refuses to accept any individuality and tries to prevent you from growing up and becoming your own person

makes you feel too guilty to say no to her, uses every social convention to make you feel as if you’re using and discarding your poor mother when all you want is to create a single boundary

refuses to acknowledge any of your successes but brings up your failures as a proof that nothing will ever become of you

insists over and over again that all she does is out of concern and love

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#cats #CUTEEEE

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#epics

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the mountains, bulgaria

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Yavanna’s house

#aesthetics

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Alligator eyes shining in the sunset, Myakka River State Park, Florida

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send more stupid asks my dears

#salmon

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Peanut Butter Chocolate Meltaway Cookies 🍪

#food porn #recepie

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My sister just sent me this and im screaming

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i don’t pee in the bed but i’ll pee on ya head.. do two things in life i go pee and get bread..