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suddenlybambi · 16 hours

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I appreciate you calling me out for things, but I wasn’t trying to complain about not having friends, I know that it is my own fault and take complete responsibility for that, this post in itself was me acknowledging that I need to try and be more social, not blaming other people for it.

In this post I was simply expressing that I only talk to one person and I acknowledging myself that need to fix that, but also acknowledging that socialising is not something that I am good at.

This post was me warning people who followed me for my writing that this account wasn’t going to be what it used to be and giving people a chance to unfollow me now and preparing people for the fact that, just because I am back on this account, doesn’t mean I will be back to writing. I apologise for not making that clearer.

I left your server when a situation that I won’t specify happened, but you probably know what I am talking about. If you don’t know, I will privately message you but I’m not interested in airing out my dirty laundry on here like that. I have done far too much of that in the past and a main reason I left things was because of that- because I was oversharing constantly and airing out things that did not need to be aired out.

I was not active in your server because I didn’t really know how to be. I was not a part of the rps that went on and there were rarely any discussions in the channels I had access to, and as I have previously stated, I am not good at socialising. As far as I could see, there were only three people active on that server and it felt like a tight knit group.

Just to clarify, from my perspective on the server, and from the channels I could see, it existed for one activity, it wasn’t a casual friendly chatting server, at least it wasn’t an active one. I apologise if I misinterpreted that, however that is what I saw and what I perceived, and I was not going to try and change or suggest things on someone else’s server when, particularly at the time, we had never actually spoken one on one for more than what was probably a minute. I was invited to join the server along with a larger group of people when we had a certain activity in mind, when the people were no longer active and everyone stopped interacting with that activity and it was moved to inactive, the way I saw it was that the reason I was there was no longer present. I was not involved in anything else, and I’m not the sort of person to try and forcibly insert myself into someone else’s activity when I haven’t been invited. I understand if you see this as me not trying, because I agree with you in a sense, but I can’t change the fact that I am not an assertive person who forces my way into things where I haven’t been explicitly invited to join. I am someone who will just sit and observe, I have been my entire life and I am comfortable that way. I am not comfortable trying to involve myself in things I have not been invited to be involved in.

I appreciate you trying to hold me accountable, but I know that I am accountable. I have held myself accountable and I am not out here trying to garner sympathy for my own mistakes and issues.

Again, I apologise if I was not clear enough with the purpose of this post but to clarify again-

This post is me warning people who followed me purely for writing that I am no longer writing, I am going to use this account as an attempt to be more social, however I make no promises as I am not very good at socialising, as my history shows. If anyone is following this account purely for writing, this is your chance to unfollow me before your feed is spammed with things you have no interest in.

I apologised for letting people down because I know that I left writing projects unfinished.

So, Ken, I appreciate what you are trying to do, I appreciate people being straightforward with me and not trying to dodge around things because my autistic ass can’t take hints and needs things explained, however the purpose of this post was not what I think you believed it to be.

I’m sorry if I have made any mistakes here, and I am sorry if I have upset you in any way, it was not my intention. I appreciate you.

bit of a rant sorry

I’ve considered reviving this account but I don’t think I would really write anymore, I just want to be social- but I also doubt that there is anyone following me for anything other than writing and socialising isn’t really something I’m good at

I only talk to one person anymore and I know I put too much pressure on them to be there for me and it’s not fair on them, I need to find some other outlet but I don’t know what

so, basically, if you only followed me for my writing this is your warning and chance to unfollow because this account is probably going to just be me posting anything now (probably mostly ranting and feelings and I know that is not everyone’s vibe… or anyone’s really lmaooo)

I’m sorry to the people that I have let down

#ramblie bamblie

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suddenlybambi · 16 hours

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bit of a rant sorry

I’ve considered reviving this account but I don’t think I would really write anymore, I just want to be social- but I also doubt that there is anyone following me for anything other than writing and socialising isn’t really something I’m good at

I only talk to one person anymore and I know I put too much pressure on them to be there for me and it’s not fair on them, I need to find some other outlet but I don’t know what

so, basically, if you only followed me for my writing this is your warning and chance to unfollow because this account is probably going to just be me posting anything now (probably mostly ranting and feelings and I know that is not everyone’s vibe… or anyone’s really lmaooo)

I’m sorry to the people that I have let down

#ramblie bamblie

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suddenlybambi · 6 months

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probably won’t see me here or anywhere anymore sorry

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suddenlybambi · 6 months

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