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they look like this I think .

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some simple bad kids art woah

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“that’s the coldest response I’ve ever gotten from Gilear”

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she's MY student body president! FIG cover art (i have plans for fabian and adaine being next, we'll see!)

🍓 please consider commissioning me if you like my art! 🍓

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I love this and would watch them all

au where the Bad Kids are YouTubers who have incredibly different content but everyone knows they’re friends (they all met online) and they’re still very important and save the world and stuff but most people know them for their YouTube channels.

Fig makes music (of course), Adaine does helpful tutorials and stuff for when you have anxiety and mental illnesses and stuff, Kristen is one of those (good) react channels and always talks about being a lesbian and Cassandra, Gorgug tinkers (of course), Fabian does fighting tips and recently dance lessons, and Riz is an essay YouTuber and all of his essays are of completely random things and over 5 hours long.

-Mod Riz

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freefall!

(+close ups)

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Whenever Ally and Murph crack up in a scene where Riz and Kristen are both there I do imagine them falling into each other like Riz leans sideways into Kristen and Kristen leans down on Riz as they both lose it.

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Even after all this time and awareness, it feels like asexuality is still not treated like a proper sexuality. Recently had a girl tell me that she was at a place where she ‘felt so asexual’ because all the other girls were so beautiful and guys were ignoring her because of it. She didn’t know I was asexual and I didn’t take offence (I know she didn't meant it in a malicious way) but it does feel uncomfortable that people are using ‘asexual’ in lieu of ‘unattractive' or 'lacking sexual appeal.' It's really giving 90's/early 2000's slang of using 'gay' to mean 'lame.' Even shows like Brooklyn 99 which took immense pride in being progressive with their comedy, had an episode where one of the characters says "Oh, and I'm sorry if we implied you're both asexual nerds who can only be friends with service animals."

I have mentioned this before also, when I talked about how I feel like people are more comfortable erasing the identities of canonical aro/ace characters in media but act like it's unacceptable with other sexualities... but it does feel like asexuality (and aromanticism tbh) are still not considered 'real' sexualities. In the case of shipping fictional characters, I understand there is nuance to that issue and so don't want to get into it, but it does kinda add to my point.

Why is it that people treat asexuality like it's not a sexuality? Why is it that when I come out to people I'm met with insistence that I'm wrong about my sexuality, that I'm 'self diagnosing' (it's not a medical condition), that I'm probably 'just inexperienced' or haven't 'met the right person' or have a hormone issue? Why can't people just accept that it's a sexuality like any other??

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epic aro sculpture i did for class

the heart is made out of plastic bags wrapped with tape, so it's squishy ^_^ and the knife is qtips hot glued together. the knife is also removable!

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Gorgug breaking expectations and monsters.

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archdevil of rebellion and certified complicated woman™️

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Actually heartbreaking that all the rat grinders probably killed each other thinking "well we'll just pledge ourselves to the rage god" and then when Lucy decided not to their new plan was probably "well when it's your only chance to live you'll change your mind" and so they all attacked her (she had multiple types of damage) and she didn't come back. She didn't pledge herself to rage. She kept her pledge to sorrow. And forced her adventuring party to feel the power of HER god in the denial of rage

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I’m going feral. Cassandra is NOT dead. She’s in a plane outside of Kristen’s reach, but she is still alive.

People heard Ally say Cassandra died, and clung to it but Brennan has, on more than one occasion, reminded us that Cassandra is still alive but unable to act in her weakened state.

If I see one more post about Cassandra being dead, I swear upon the grave you have dug for her, I will bury you in it.

Kristen is not operating with the power of a dead god. Ankarna would not actively kill Cassandra, someone she nearly killed another deity for mocking Cassandra is not dead. She is kept alive by Kristen, even when she can’t reach her.

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i have been sitting on the post and re-writing it for the past two days but the way fabian talked about kristen this past episode made me pause so i could cry a little.

"kristen has so many ideas and she's constantly thinking of new things we could be doing in a really cool way"

kristen, helio's chosen, leaves the only religion and community she has ever known because she realizes it is a cult full of hate.

kristen, newly out, creates a new god dedicated only to the concept of saying yes into the void that is existence.

kristen, the most gifted cleric of her generation, resurrects herself and a dead goddess.

"sometimes the execution of those ideas can, i think, feel silly, but the place is so grounded and real."

kristen spends her freshman year unmoored and lost, her terror buried underneath inspiring speeches that make her peers laugh.

kristen's god of "yes!" is immediately a joke, a buzzfeed logo. she hates it.

kristen watches cassandra die, and turns to chaos and bits; it is easier to joke than hold grief in your hands and mourn it.

fabian knows that kristen tries, but her brain is loud and frantic. she has never needed the tools to quiet it, so she never learnt them. everything had always been laid out for her; she didn't even know there were ways to hear through the static. he sees the honesty and fragility at the core of her wackiness.