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Guys, GO WATCH.

INSANE ANIMATION.

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What if we kidnapped and put them all on a real island????

Also there is a bear

Guys think about

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He's with Bobby now 💚

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Aw Philza has now made Lullah and Chay’s ex-admins VIPs in chat! So now he can more easily see their names and acknowledged them openly.

He said that they gifted subs during the 5 year anniversary, but had to stay quite at the time to not draw attention to them lol.

Also! Philza has apparently showed up to watch Sunmin’s (Chay admin’s) streams before! That’s the sweetest thing.

I’m so glad that us crows are still gonna see Ama and Sunmin amongst the rest of the flock!

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“I hope I was a good dad.”

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To clarify for fellow crows, Philza responded to someone asking if he'd log onto the qsmp server ever again with, "Not sure, I like how we ended it, but not sure." And at this point, q!Phil's in a long sleep alongside his children.

His response is somewhat in the same vein as Pac's, in that things are uncertain right now. There's nothing definitive; they would've said as much if they were never going to go onto the server again (i.e. Philza did not mince words when he said he would very likely not join Dream SMP for their [hypothetical] season 2). With the loss of their children - as well as how few people log on currently - a lot of their motivation to log on has diminished. It's possible time will heal the heartbreak, and maybe in that time, things on the QSMP improve, more cc's rejoin/join, and maybe these streamers will feel comfortable with rejoining again. And their current endings can easily be adjusted to have them return in some way (i.e. Philza just, well, waking up lol). And in the case of things not getting better, in case they still don't want to rejoin, well, they have their endings all set. No extra work needed!

But it's important to note that either of these outcomes are possible. It's not "they're never ever coming back to the server" or "oh they'll definitely be back soon :)". Nothing is set in stone. Just keep these things in mind, is all.

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Honestly I feel like we need to give the CC's some time to breath and to take a break for awhile.

Especially since they were the ones rping with the eggs, they were the ones hanging out with eggs for hours, they were the ones who got to know them for so long. And to finally say goodbye to someone who you've hung with for over a year. It's gonna be hard to wanna come back to the server after all of that.

And yes just like it was hard for us to say goodbye, it was also hard for them as well. Their sad and grieving, just like we all are. I mean they are human after all.

So please be patient, be respectful, and be kind to them during this time.

Thank you <3

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can you tell im in pieces

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it’s hard to express my feelings on this without breaking into tears, but… it’s devastating to see what i hold so dearly in my heart to come crashing down to a degree i don’t know how to describe. my love for the server isn’t ever going away though, and what i post about here isn’t going to change—i’ll still have the happy memories of what once was, and i believe love isn’t ever wasted. the eggies were the biggest part of why i watched qsmp to begin with, and i’ll always love them; their admins, the people who brought them to life. i love you richas, i love you tallulah, i love you chayanne, i love you every eggie who hatched early. i’ll still be here, holding that close to my heart. it’s not going away that easily, and i’ll still be here to express it. and whether it’s posting about qsmp or dsmp, y’all are 100% stuck with me. <3 i want to give a shoutout to the community here and to qblrsmp though, because without it i know i would be inconsolable with grief. having friends i can hang out with who are feeling the same way and be distracted from the pain together is very healing. thank you guys for the new and special friendships that stay with me, even through the grief.

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Thank you for everything <3

Gracias por todo <3

Obrigado por tudo <3

Merci pour tout <3

Danke für alles <3

모든 것에 감사드립니다 <3

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Sometimes, saying goodbye is more harder that it seems. I’m going to miss you kids. All of you

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After seeing this Mental Health Pain Scale a while ago, I realized that it doesn't really work well for people whose mental wellness changes frequently (ex: people with BPD or C-PTSD, addicts), and very extremely. So, I made some tweaks for myself, and hopefully it can help others:

Here's a version with a table :) Emotional Distress Scale

0 - I feel great! This is the best I’ve felt in a long time!

1 - I’m feeling really good! There’s no distress to address.

2 - I’m feeling good. If I start feeling bothered, I can be easily distracted or cheered up.

3 - I’m okay, but there are some things bothering me. I can easily cope with them, though.

4  - I could be better. There are a few things distressing me right now. It’s not exactly easy to deal with, but I still have the skills to get through it.

5 - I’m not okay. It’s getting harder to do the things I want to do, but I can do them. My coping skills aren’t working as well anymore, but enough of them work to get me through the day. I need some support.

6 - I’m feeling bad, and it’s very hard to do the things I need or want to do. Most of my coping skills aren’t effective right now, and it’s taking a lot of energy to stay stable. I need help.

7 - I’m feeling awful. It’s hard to focus on anything but my emotions, and/or I’m avoiding things that distress me. I can’t do much but try to take care of myself, which is already hard in itself. I’m running low on, or have run out of, effective coping skills. I need a lot of help right now.

8 - I’m feeling awful, and I can’t escape it anymore. How I feel is affecting every part of my day, and I’m reaching the point where I can’t function. It’s hard to sleep, eat, socialize, etc. I need help before I can’t handle anything.

9 - This is approaching the worst I could feel. I can’t function anymore. My emotions have totally consumed me. I may be a danger to myself or others, or I may be neglecting myself. I need urgent help.

10 - This is the worst I’ve felt ever/since [last time]. I can’t care for myself at all. My emotions are so intense, I’m at imminent risk of dangerously acting on them. I need crisis support immediately.

11 - I have acted on my emotions and hurt myself or someone else. Everything else in my life is impossible to comprehend. I need medical care and/or crisis support immediately.

Note that this doesn't really work well if your positive states end up being unhealthy (ex: mania, idealization, etc.), so it's geared towards negative emotions. This is also meant to be about how you feel NOW. The other scale works best for viewing your overall state.

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stop playing it cool, just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever sticks around is meant for you

#shoutout to my amazing friends #the first group of people who have never shamed me for my interests or being 'too much' #i love my friends <33

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Two siblings, forever inseparable.

(Had to do my own designs for these little ones :D)

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A thank you to the admins of QSMP for all their hard work. We love you and I’m so happy that I got see this project flourish, even if it was for a brief time<3

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Words cannot describe how grateful I am to witness Death Family’s journey since day one.

Huge THANK YOU to Ama and SunMin for bringing Lullah and Chay to life, you’ve changed lives to many of us you have no idea <3

Hope to see you and your new shenanigans in the future <3

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“Even if we stop being pixels, we will be a story that was told.”

4/4 <tres

“..we are simple pixels in this world, but it doesn't matter, being pixels is not so bad, at the end of the day what are pictures? if not a bunch of pixels put together. Maybe we are a big image, and we are part of a gigant image called "universe".” - Missa

I was ok doing this, then it hit me and I got sad.