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6/11/2018
I think it would be a very actual topic, an important subject to talk about. it would be useful to think about it for you, my beloved friend, and, of course, for me. achieving the goals. you might think: "hm, what's unclear with this theme? everyone will say that you just have to work to achieve your goal, to make your dream come true, that's all you have to do. so what's wrong?", and you will be absolutely right, sure, it's clear. but during more detailed learning of this question, during specifically your experience, you can notice, ho-ho, that hard working for your dream is, you know, a little bit difficult, a little bit harder then you were imagining before the start of the way. and you are right, yeah, it is difficult to lift your ass and force yourself to do something that you really need. who knows it better then I do. but you know what? working hard is the cost of entry to anything. and no one is gonna push you on, you have to push yourself on. honestly, this is a huge step to develop yourself. coming out from your comfort zone is a very big part of work. I can say that it is almost all work. develop yourself, teach yourself to be so good at something that is necessary to be in the area of your dream. get up and do something. if it's important to you and you care about it, you'll get it done. nothing good's going to get done if you just stay there sitting feeling sorry for yourself. be motivated all the time. surround yourself with people that will inspire you to do the things you want to do. enjoy your journey along the way before arriving at your destination don't even think about your comfort zone, it is irrelevant. a big part of success is just not being lazy and just doing it.  yeah, it's difficult, but it is the rules of life. you know zero people that are successful that don't work their face off. you know zero people that actually built themselves without unbelievably hard work. but you know many people who achieve their goals through that work. are you worse? it won't be easy, but it will worth.
if you do what is easy, your life will be hard. if you do what is hard, your life will be easy. 
imagine a conversation with your future self. imagine you of 20 years from now. are you stronger, smarter, wiser, happier? do you feel proud about all the years you spend? no? so what was the problem? what kind of advice do you want to give to your past self? if you go through life holding back (most of us do), most of us if we ask ourselves, looking back, 'have we done all we can do?' most of us will have to answer, 'no, we haven't'. we've been holding back. we have ideas that we don't act on, things we want to do, we're afraid to take chances, we go through life trying to seek security and not coming outside of our comfort zone and we take most of these thoughts, most of this stuff with us to the grave. life doesn’t work that way. dreams don't work unless you do. so, who do you want to be?
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5/11/2018
life hasn't prepared me for this stuff. what should I write now? some of my thoughts? if u want to know what am I thinking about, I let u know. I wonder - why me speaking English and me speaking Russian are like two different persons. I feel so shy writing such "letters", "essays" (?), I don't know, making my thoughts to look like letters, words, and sentences in English. it's okay, I get it, it's okay because of the fact that Russian is my first language and English is not, but it doesn't make me feel less uncomfortable speaking English. I've just read my first post again and now I think it's written with very silly sentences and thoughts seem like this post was written by five years old child. I'd even forgotten about such nice thing like paragraphs. I understand, it's okay and even not so bad result of my studying, and, come on, I'm just in process of learning. but I can't get on well with the fact that I can't speak English as well as I can do it Russian. I'm still a little bit afraid of using some phrases, words, making sentences. I have a too strong use to not think while talking because it's clear that I speak Russian automatically, I've been doing it almost since my birth. hm. it's difficult to feel like a little baby just having a conversation with someone when you are fourteen, it is a thing that I wanted to say. but, you know what, now I'm doing something to get my goal, aren't I? I don't really know how to sum up this kinda weird text (omg, all things that I do are weird for me...), but I want to make you remember that speaking more than one language fluently is real and it is near, but if you want to be one of the people who can speak 2, 3 or 33 languages, you have to make yourself surrounded by pleasant things connected with learning (oh, such a pity!....) and to work, work, work, work, and another time work!
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4/11/2018
I can't imagine that I'm writing this post now. should I start with some greetings? hey hi hello what's up guys. then.. hm.. should I introduce myself? but for whom? this blog will be read just by my closest friends, or even maybe just by myself. oh, my, I'm talking like a textbook. the idea of making my own secret pErsOnAl DiaRy came to me on summer vacations. but relaxation and carelessness made me forget about everything that I have to do for self-development, namely for improving my English speaking skills. but now I'm here typing this and after 2 months of studying in the 9th grade, I understood that life that I've chosen is not very easy for my mental health and I have to do some kind of stuff, that worth getting my nerves, just for surviving. one of these things is learning English, of course. so, yesterday evening I was just laying in the warm bath with such pleasant aromatic foam (it does not matter, sorry) and I wondered - why am I such a lazy ass at doing things, that can really make me happy, make my dream come true? all of my energy goes for stupid useless things, even thought about it makes me unhappy and sad. but I'm not talking about it now. I wanna say that I must do something useful for me, something, that can bring some pleasure, some nice moments in my life. learning English is one of these things. and one day I noticed, that learning a language, that I have been learning for 7 years (can you imagine?) is not so difficult, even it is a very fascinating way to development. so, I realized, that I don't do my best to learn English. I'm always talking about difficulties in learning it. I talk that it's a pity that we don't live in an English-speaking country, we haven't any person to talk with, oh, oh, it's such a difficult process. but you know what? it's just real nonsense. if you want, you can do everything to surround you by the language you learn. you must speak it with your friends all day long, discuss your usual things in English (they also need someone to talk with!), you must write them messages only in English, you must make a diary or a blog with beautiful decoration and keep writing posts about your feelings, your moments of sadness as well as moments of happiness, about things you really care about like important films, books, fashion, ecology, mental health, music, poetry, studying, feminism, art, body, care of yourself etc in English. you must watch awesome films and series that could create a beautiful cozy atmosphere, in the original, listen to wonderful warm audiobooks. there are so many chances. every single hour of your day u must do something for your goal !!... oh, this post became a motivational letter, as usual.. but, ok. let it be a note to remember for me. and for you. let’s lift our asses and do something great !
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should I post here pictures of my study process, awesome notes, school supplies, books and libraries? nah. look at this application by Matisse.
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