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[Codex: Crossroads]

Solas ⚔ Maelgwn

What part of the timeline could this be? Magic is strange in the paths between the looking glasses. Timelines blur and branch and blend. To the unwitting wanderer, this could spell their undoing and be forever lost.

But perhaps...it is not so terrible a fate to find another wayward soul to be lost with, within.

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the thing with Solas is that he's proud, and wise, and clever, and cunning, and regretful, and guilty, and honest when it'd be so much easier to lie, but while canon tells (and shows) us all of that, it doesn't tell us that the other deep-seated emotion that drives him is shame.

shame about what he did, shame about what he's going to do; shame about what he was, shame about what he is; shame about killing his friend; shame about viewing the people of the current Age as shadows; shame about not knowing better; shame about not wanting to know better; shame about a befriended/romanced Inquisitor, shame about the friends he made; shame about hiding in plain sight, shame about not telling the truth; shame about making the same mistake twice, knowing how it'll turn out; shame about his outbursts, shame about not being good enough; shame about feeling attached to the current Thedas, shame about not feeling attached enough to stop; shame about not having anything to be proud of anymore.

I was recently struggling with a scene that didn't go the way I thought it would, until I realized that neither pride nor guilt nor regret nor wariness was the the real motivation; they were just the result, the display, the cover: the real motivation was the shame.

and then everything kind of clicked into place, precisely because pride is such a focal point of Solas' character - if shame is a deep-seated emotion, it contradicts his pride, his wisdom, his intellect; if shame is a deep-seated emotion, it fuels his regret, his guilt, his determination; if shame is a deep-seated emotion, it's the one thing he's actually managed to conceal. (then again, I wonder if he's even aware that what he's feeling is shame.)

and, as I kept thinking about it, it kept making sense: to be ashamed is a grave sentence for someone like Solas, who's entire character revolves around his pride and his wisdom and his regret. he regrets enough of his mistakes to be disappointed, unsatisfied with himself, to be uncomfortable with what he's done; he's wise enough to know that he has no logical reason to feel ashamed for half of these things and yet even more reasons to feel ashamed for the other half; he's proud enough to loathe admitting to this shame. he gets wary if you poke at him, defensive if you manage to get to close to this sore spot, upset if you keep at it. his pride won't allow him to admit to his shame, and his wisdom won't allow him to not admit to it, and his shame won't allow him to speak about it, and that keeps him stuck in this vicious cycle.

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art dump because i went insane last night

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Commission for my good friend @bluerose5 of what if Zevran and Fenris landed in bg3 Faerun and learned they all casted magic. Fenris would be going THROUGH it.

Bonus:

Fave Fenris I’ve ever drawn in my life

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I'm NOT gonna say it again

SEASONINGS include herbs and spices, along with minerals and chemicals used to season food!!!! Salt, citric acid, and MSG, are all examples of seasonings that are NOT herbs or spices!

HERBS are flavorful leaves. Only. Leaves. Doesn't matter if its dried, fresh, whole, or ground, if it is a leaf, it is an herb

SPICES are flavorful parts of plants that are NOT LEAVES. These include seeds, berries, stems, bark, roots, flowers, buds... NOT LEAVES

THANK YOU

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In this link there is definitely not a folder with every Dragon Age eBook, numbered in order of reading plus the two Encyclopedias about the world. Please do not use the link, there are not free books in there.

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You are the adventurer who went on an epic quest and defeated the evil king, all to gain the sacred amulet and use its one wish to revive your sister. Now everyone expects you to accept her death and use the wish to undo the damage instead. You refuse.

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Dick is losing his mind at this point.

There is a very cute guy flirting with him in and out of the mask.

This usually wouldn’t be a problem. If he didn’t want the attention, he would make himself very clear.

No, the problem is that Danny is significantly younger than him.

Like he’s around little wing’s age right now age gap.

He knows he should shut this game down.

He’s older and he knows that if he mentions it to Danny he’ll stop.

But it’s not just simple compliments about his body.

No these are sweet and genuine.

And they’re making Dick’s brain go to mush.

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NDHSNHDBDHE

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Genuine question here:

Am I one of the only people on this hellsite that chooses to be positive about Dreadwolf?

And I say *chooses* for a reason. I’m not saying I don’t understand why people are jaded, but at some point doesn’t the negativity get to be too much? Doesn’t it get exhausting? I’m exhausted, how are you not exhausted?

Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve been through the worst several months of my life—which involved being homeless at one point—but I just don’t have it in me to assume the worst on this one. I’d very much like to have something nice for once. I think we all deserve something nice.

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everyone in inquisition: magic was never meant to be touched by dwarves like this... the inquisitor is playing with forces beyond their understanding... i cannot imagine the toll it's taking on them... how much more they can handle.........

Cadash and Dagna fucking around & throwing random shit at the anchor just to see if something funny happens:

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They were such sweet kids a year before the main events.

And now they are thugs with low empathy. They look cool but there is a feeling of loss.

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one blessedly quiet moment at vigil’s keep

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The abandoned child you’ve taken in sleeps on your lap as the god who gave you immortality softly warns you. “This will hurt.”

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Cooper Howard/The Ghoul | Figure