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When a character is assured enough in their own power that they are completely relaxed in dangerous situations??? When that same character becomes tense and uncomfortable in the mundane because they don't have a framework for peace?????? When they help navigate violence for another character and in return that character helps them navigate softness??????????? That's all, your honour

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when I see something dated 2019 I think “oh that’s not too long ago” and then I remember that 2019 was not only five years ago but those five years have somehow contained several lifetimes

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#Accidentally clicked on this while scrolling by and it scared the shit out of me 10/10

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a part of adult life you never really realize as a child is the constant need for bowls in so many different sizes. you're always doing something and going "man i wish i had the right size bowl for this" no matter how many bowl sizes you have

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Look SO many things are better as an adult, but I do so very genuinely truly miss the childhood experience of going completely insane over something at the drop of a hat. As an adult you need the right cocktail of drugs weather humidity feng-shui and job prospects to feel like a piece of media can rip you into orbit. As a 14-year-old all it took was the worst Naruto reruns in the world playing at 10pm in your childhood basement. Unmatched experience. Irreplicable. Truly a once in a lifetime gift as an apology for the experience of being 14.

#Unfortunately I still so this but now it's at the expense of the Assignments rip

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I must not mock Gen Alpha. Mocking Gen Alpha is the mind killer. Mocking Gen Alpha is the little-death that brings total generational solidarity obliteration. I will engage with Gen Alpha lovingly. I will permit them to be cringe. And when they grow up I will turn my eye to their accomplishments. Where mocking has gone there will be nothing. Only generational solidarity remains

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It’s important to remember that Pluto isn’t being kicked out of the cool guys club by mean astronomers and is, instead, transgender

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you ever just sit and realise u can’t remember 80% of your childhood? like … what happened? who am i ..?

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Iain M Banks: What is a weapon? What does it mean to use a weapon? Can a person be a weapon? Is there a difference between using a weapon and being a weapon? Is this difference meaningful? What kind of person would choose to be a weapon?

Also Iain M Banks: Here's a sapient starship with a scat fetish.

#Iain M Banks is so interesting because he's so progressive for his time #But he was cursed with sci-fi author in the 1980s a bit 😔

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man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

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you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

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shoutout to the really anxious people who face the world every day even though it makes their whole bodies freak out

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Strong "smooth shark" vibes with this one

#unreality #best state to do this to because one of Texas' defining traits is that it's big lmao

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I make art about grief again

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Poll: if your mom remarries when you’re 26 years old is that guy still your stepdad or is he just your mom’s husband.

#I don't think my dad has ever referred to my grandma as his step-mom although he probably likes her more than his dad #(my grandpa was kinda emotionally abusive) think it's because they married when my dad was in his mid 20s #he also doesn't refer to her kids as step-siblings but they're all like 15 years younger than him and did not grow up together

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