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I’m not dead I’m just dead you know

#🕯️ love makes monsters of us all. * ( ooc ) #dead tired 😭 #things are finally slowing down and I FINALLY got my car fixed so #hoping to be around more lol

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Crimson Peak is SO fucking funny when they first get to the house and Hiddles is like. Oh yeah forget to mention, giant hole in the roof. Also the floor is rotten, someday the whole foundation will collapse. And don't be alarmed if the pipes start bleeding! It's just that the very ground beneath our feet is oozing red liquid, absolutely drenched with it, as though the entire house is bleeding and bloodstained, as though the very earth our family legacy is built upon were one great open wound.

I fucking love Gothic settings. Don't worry about it Edith, welcome to your very normal and inhabitable house.

#🕯️ we only notice things when the time comes for us to see them. * ( musings ) #SCREAMING #lmao thanks ash

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fortune, fortune — smiling fate, I haven’t seen you much of late. I need you now & cannot wait but when I look, YOU’RE NOT AROUND. Never mind in what we do the night’s still good for a gram or two, I’ll be drinking late with you ‘til the MORNING COMES AROUND.

an independent & selective roleplaying blog for Anne Bonny from Assassin’s Creed IV: Black Flag. Single-ship & multiverse. As penned by Hannah, 28, Irish. 21+ ONLY.                                  temp. queue run.

Down & out, & out of luck — we’re spinning, but the needle ’s stuck, let’s go have some fun before they go & put us in the ground. Lions sit in solemn lines drinking gin & dropping lines; WASTING BEATS in this heart of mine ‘til the morning comes around. i must be good for something.

#NAME TWIN NAME TWIN NAME TWIN #🕯️ I DO KNOW THAT FOR THE SYMPATHY OF ONE LIVING BEING I WOULD MAKE PEACE WITH ALL. * ( promos )

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*      ―    ﴾  𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎  𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜  ﴿   :       𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐘  𝐁𝐄𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐃  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐌𝐀𝐃𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒.

the  following  has  been  taken  from  the  2015  album  by  THE  WEEKND.  feel  free  to  change  and  adjust  anything  as  needed.  CONTENT  WARNING:  drugs,  some  nsfw.

“ every  woman  that  loved  me,  i  seemed  to  push  them  away. “

“ don’t  waste  precious  tears  on  me.  i’m  not  worth  the  misery. “

“ i’m  better  off  when  i’m  alone. “

“ what  can  you  show  me  that  my  heart  don’t  know  already ? “

“ now  that  we’re  all  grown  up,  who  do  we  owe  it  all  to ? “

“ everyone  around  you  is  so  basic. “

“ give  me  head  all  night. “

“ don’t  believe  the  rumors,  i’m  still  a  user. “

“ they  told  me  not  to  fall  in  love.  that  shit  is  useless. “

“ i  usually  love  sleeping  all  alone. “

“ i  only  love  it  when  you  touch  me,  not  feel  me. “

“ when  i’m  fucked  up,  that’s  the  real  me. “

“ drugs  started  feeling  like  decaf. “

“ who  are  you  to  judge ? “

“ baby,  you’re  no  good. “

“ they  warned  me  about  your  type. “

“ to  say  that  we’re  in  love  is  dangerous. “

“ if  i  could,  i’d  forget  about  you. “

“ girls  born  in  the  ‘90s  are  dangerous. “

“ i  know  she’ll  be  the  death  of  me. “

“ at  least  we’ll  both  be  numb. “

“ i  can’t  feel  my  face  when  i’m  with  you. “

“ who’s  gonna  love  you  like  me ? “

“ who’s  gonna  touch  you  like  me ? “

“ who’s  gonna  fuck  you  like  me ? “

“ you  want  me  to  fix  you  but  it’s  never  enough. “

“ i’ll  always  be  there  for  you. “

“ you  said  you  wanna  be  good  but  you’re  begging  me  to  come  over. “

“ i  see  nobody  but  you. “

“ i’m  so  used  to  being  used. “

“ you’re  the  only  one  i  choose. “

“ even  though  you  break  my  heart,  i  need  you. “

“ show  me  your  broken  parts  and  your  flaws.  i’ll  take  you  as  you  are. “

“ maybe  i’ve  always  been  destined  to  end  up  in  this  place. “

“ i  hope  you  find  somebody  to  love. “

#🕯️ LET OTHER PENS DWELL ON GUILT AND MISERY. * ( memes )

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—  ❛❛  //  𝙻𝙸𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙰𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙴  𝙵𝙾𝚁  𝚃𝙷𝙴  𝙶𝙻𝚄𝚃𝚃𝙾𝙽𝚂.  (  lines  of  literature  that  will  rip  your  heart  out.  please  substitute  pronouns  as  needed. )

❛ one of the cruellest things you can do to another person is pretend to care more than you do. ❜ ❛ i loved you and sometimes you loved me too. ❜ ❛ don’t tell anybody anything. if you do, you start missing everyone. ❜ ❛ you never know how much space you occupied in other people’s lives. ❜ ❛ beautiful things grow to a certain height and then they fall and fade out. ❜ ❛ i felt like destroying something beautiful. ❜ ❛ i have scars on my hands from touching certain people. ❜ ❛ you cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness. ❜ ❛ what can you do but hold your hand out in the dark ? ❜ ❛ you can’t make homes out of human beings. someone should have told you that. ❜ ❛ your only problem, perhaps, is that you scream without letting yourself cry. ❜ ❛ being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world. ❜ ❛ i hid my deepest feelings so well i forgot where i placed them. ❜ ❛ i didn’t leave because i stopped loving you, i left because the longer i stayed the less i loved myself. ❜ ❛ at every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairytale and the other in the abyss. ❜ ❛ some people turn sad awfully young. i know, for i’m one of them. ❜ ❛ nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you. ❜ ❛ all great and precious things are lonely. ❜ ❛ someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. ❜ ❛ i felt less lonely when i didn’t know you. ❜ ❛ things change, friends leave. life doesn’t stop for anybody. ❜ ❛ i am deathly afraid of almosts. ❜ ❛ it’s such a secret place, the land of tears. ❜ ❛ what do we do now, now that we are happy ? ❜ ❛ when we first met i was lonely and you were pretty -  now i am pretty lonely. ❜ ❛ i want you to know that i’m both happy and sad and i’m still figuring out how that could be. ❜ ❛ if you gave someone your heart and they died, did they take it with them ? ❜ ❛ the one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person. ❜ ❛ you can never love people as much as you can miss them. ❜ ❛ i was too young to know how to love you. ❜ ❛ if anybody could have saved me it would have been you. ❜ ❛ sometimes i can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives i’m not living. ❜

#🕯️ LET OTHER PENS DWELL ON GUILT AND MISERY. * ( memes )

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i’m tired and battling a fierce cold so i’m just gonna reblog some memes, feel free to fill my inbox and i’ll get to things eventually :>

#🕯️ LOVE MAKES MONSTERS OF US ALL. * ( ooc ) #even if we haven't interacted before!! go for it!!

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During an interview about her incredible costumes for the film Crimson Peak (2015), Kate Hawley mentioned two paintings that particularly inspired her design of the leading female cast’s iconic attire. Proserpine by Dante Gabriel Rossetti (1874, top left) was taken into consideration for the character Lucille Sharpe, otherwise known as The Moth (top right). For Edith Cushing (bottom right), thought of as The Butterfly in contrast, The Bridesmaid by John Everett Millais (1851, bottom left) was said to have greatly influenced the character’s hauntingly beautiful look of cascading hair and the bridal-esque nightgown attire.

#OBSESSED #🕯️ BEAUTIFUL THINGS ARE FRAGILE. * ( lucille sharpe ) #🕯️ OUR VERY OWN JANE AUSTEN. * ( edith cushing )

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sangcreole​:

     It isn’t unusual for mortals to take notice of his ghastly presence. Even with the masterful trickery handed down from his maker, it’s always the glint of emerald eyes that ensnares those few wayward souls brave enough to hold his gaze. Perhaps an older blood drinker would drain her and be done with it (perhaps that is the smart thing to do, after all— so rarely does discovery end in anything other than the demise of their kind) but there is something about her smoldering curiosity that thrills him. It is stubborn, defiant even, in the face of death incarnate. Foolish but endearing nonetheless.

    (And perhaps there is a part of him that is just as desperate to be known in the first place, desperate for someone to quicken him and rid him of the numbness and despair that relentlessly thuds against the brittle bones of his ribcage).

     “Horror is relative.” He says with a diplomatic nod. “What is horror to a being whose baseline experience is embedded in death and carnal desires? Horror is the beauty in perfection. Horror is the gentle lull of sunlight we once took for granted.”

The thought has never occurred to her -- though, why would it? Even a girl who has lived through many tragedies could never imagine what simple things humanity takes for granted. The air she breathes, the light that shines down from the sky each day . . . things, it seems, only reserved for the purely human. Whatever else might exist, in this world or otherwise, left to fend for themselves, sometimes wander in eternal fear and misery. It’s a punishment far worse than death itself, in her opinion. Edith often wonders what these poor souls do to deserve such a fate; to exist purely for some hellish, twisted plan of some invisible deity? To tell cautionary tales, perhaps? One can only wonder . . .

" That’s -- tragically poetic. ”  Precisely what she may have imagined someone of his persuasion might say, despite not having any reference at all to base such a notion off of. There’s almost a glint of envy, if only for the reason of Edith only dreaming of being so articulate.  “ Have you ever considered writing a novel? ”  

#sangcreole #🕯️ EVIL THENCEFORTH BECAME MY GOOD. * ( ic ) #i'm screaming #scREAMING ASH

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paddyfuck​:

“I’ve never understood the appeal of old houses. Far too drafty for my tastes.”  //  @stainered​.

“ I think they have character. Old floors and old walls often tell old stories. ”

#paddyfuck #🕯️ EVIL THENCEFORTH BECAME MY GOOD. * ( ic ) #im sorry my muse is such a fkin NERD

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Cathcart Cemetery, Glasgow

#🕯️ WE ONLY NOTICE THINGS WHEN THE TIME COMES FOR US TO SEE THEM. * ( musings )

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Crimson Peak (2015) + Edith Cushing’s yellow velvet robe with white flowered embellishments

#such a fashion icon #🕯️ OUR VERY OWN JANE AUSTEN. * ( edith cushing )

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@aworldofyou​ : never. that word again. we’re going to work on that. - from Lucille Sharpe

a locked gaze, expression settling to something fairly stoic -- edith knew when to shut her mouth. rather, she knew when her attempts at rebuttal, or standing up for herself were futile. and even if it were an offense to the sort of smart, independent woman she so firmly expressed herself as, to this day she still struggled beneath lucille’s heel. she’s never known a woman so . . . cold, though cold to the world, and not necessarily edith herself. a world such as the one they live in can be so cruel, and so it’s understandable, but one would have thought things would be different now, being in each others’ lives. still much to learn between the pair, clearly. there’s a steady pause, before she regains some courage.  “ i suppose i am willing to try new things. ”

#aworldofyou #🕯️ EVIL THENCEFORTH BECAME MY GOOD. * ( ic ) #sorry this is so VAGUE my brain is MUSH

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i’ve definitely commented on it before but i have so much admiration for this film pretty accurately portraying the city of buffalo

#i LIVE here and it's so cool to hear these characters mention ACTUAL buffalo neighborhoods #and the sets are painfully accurate to what our city looked like at the time period #i especially like when they have the building models at carter's offices and it shows the bank #and like that bank is STILL downtown today #i also just noticed edith says they live in masten and the party's at bidwell #which are both historic buffalo neighborhoods #just geeking out cause i love local history #🕯️ LOVE MAKES MONSTERS OF US ALL. * ( ooc )

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Anna Pavlova in “La Nuit”

#🕯️ WE ONLY NOTICE THINGS WHEN THE TIME COMES FOR US TO SEE THEM. * ( musings ) #edith doesn't dance enough but she loves it :')

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i think it’s interesting that edith didn’t become absolutely obsessed with death after her mother passed. i mean - i suppose it’s because she was so young when it happened, and seeing her mother’s ghost frightened her to the point where her fear really silenced her feelings on the matter. edith is clearly a very forward, outspoken, opinionated person, but she still buried her traumas. it’s possible that that’s what initially drew her to thomas, because she could really see that he shared those traumas and the morbidity regarding their parents’ deaths (even though edith’s mother only died of disease, it’s still kind of morbid in the sense that edith was able to see her ghost, although she didn’t really die in an afwul way it was very tragic for edith and she looked like that as a ghost). 

what i’m getting at is i think there’s a lot of common narratives in the horror genre out there where a person experiences a tragic death in their life and becomes obsessed with it (lydia in the beetlejuice musical, sweeney todd with his wife, etc) and it’s cool to kind of see the opposite side of that. though honestly if she’d tapped more in to her ‘clairvoyance’ she probably would have seen the ghosts in allerdale hall and noped out of there sooner LMAO. the sharpes really banked on edith’s naivety, and i’m glad in the end that she decided to finally embrace death in that way and how it’s affected her, and how it afflicts the sharpes.

#🕯️ GHOSTS ARE REAL. THIS MUCH I KNOW. * ( headcanon ) #i kind of just wanted to write about edith's relationship with death and here we are? #it's just a rambling tbh LOL

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i finally bought the crimson peak novelization 👀

#🕯️ LOVE MAKES MONSTERS OF US ALL. * ( ooc ) #add it to the collection lol #not me starting yet another book with two i'm still working through LOL

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@sangcreole​ : if you were smart, that should scare you.

perhaps at a certain point, edith might have trembled at the very thought. at a time where a young woman struggled to grasp some sort of an understanding of the world, thrown deep into tragedies she could hardly imagine -- the lesser woman would have perished. arguably the lesser woman did perish, a new individual dragging her oldest friend to safety through the snow, and in a mere nightgown nonetheless. after that day edith found she was not the timid young woman she once was.  “ there are far more frightening things in this world than the inhuman. ”  he does not scare her, no . . . well, perhaps a little bit, but her fear has become something well reserved. she has not encountered anything truly terrifying since that fateful day, although she may very well meet her match on this one. she continues, albeit treading carefully.  “ i believe you have likely seen many horrors in your . . extended lifetime. ”

#🕯️ EVIL THENCEFORTH BECAME MY GOOD. * ( ic ) #sangcreole #edith just SWEATS PROFUSELY