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philon narrowed his gaze, unsure if he trusted the other. the moment he had seen them something in his chest ached pulling him towards them until ...something. he cannot really name it, just an uneasy feeling of part of his body telling him to run. this person brought something inevitable, something that he should fear.

...he'd never been smart about that kind of stuff, always seeking troubles and danger even if philon's intentions were nothing but good. so instead of running he simply crosses his arms.

"perhaps a nymph?" probably an old and powerful one at that.

@morteuse .

#morteuse #threads ( zagreus ). #mortal verse01 ( zagreus ). #[ FINALLY HERE TO HURT YA ]

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#portrait ( zagreus ). #bonds ( zagreus ). #ships ( zagreus x thanatos ).

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her eyes widen for a moment but instead of shock she lets out an impressed little whistle before following nai into the tunnel. rem doubts there is an environment that could actually shock her - part of becoming a crew member for the ships had been the training to survive with your psyche intact while maintaining the ship all alone. a dark tunnel didn't seem all that bad.

"is zazie the friend you are holding?" luida had mentioned something along the lines of the worms showing more conscious and intelligence than the ones that existed on earth, the few at least who still did. or perhaps nai simply could communicate with them better due to being a plant.

rem follows the boy, giving an affirmative hum to his words. "you think they would mind if I draw them?... I never told you and vash this but when I was little and later when I wanted time for myself I'd visit a museum in my city - draw the holograms they showed us of how nature used to look." this would be the first time getting to draw something that wasn't extinct or about to disappear.

He gives her a long look, silence stretching between then before he turns abruptly on his heel and vanishes into the sands below their feet. A tunnel, likely built by a worm. The one he's still holding chitters, calling Rem to come after them.

Once she's joined them, Knives exhales slowly and starts walking. "You have to listen to Zazie. They know where all the tunnels go." He knows some, has made markings along the walls of many of them, but Knives is still learning his way through this maze. He gets turned around often enough in the darkness, even when he can create his own light, and he fully expects Rem will fare worse.

She hasn't spent a year learning these tunnels after all.

"And you leave the worms alone. This is their home, they have right of way."

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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who needs sleep if i get to play ha.des early access ? anyway any spoilers / discussion will be tagged with "Hades 2 spoilers cw"

#[ do i have to be up by 5 and is it nearly midnight? mb ] #[ but i am yelling!!! ]

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"thank you, nai" despite it all she can still see glimpses of the little boy she had known. though now he seemed more skittish and distrusting. not that she can blame him.

with vash allowed to know rem could suggest at some point that the other twin can join them from time to time. it might do the two of them good to be able to spend time together.

shouldering her backpack again, rem nods at the boy "alright. lead the way" nothing else to it. if she wanted to gain his trust she would need to let nai be the one to show her his world.

"Fine." He didn't have go go back, so he could agree to such conditions. It wasn't like he had to listen anyway, he's only agreeing to let her talk. That's totally different.

He glances down to the worm in his hands for a moment.

"You can–Vash can know. No one else! Just Vash." Vash is safe enough, even if the other plant had abandoned him for a new family. They're still brothers.

He doesn't ask about her leg. Knives doesn't want to know. (His fault, don't think about it–)

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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Little something to celebrate the best girl ever :3

Happy Birthday Tesla!

#portrait ( tesla ).

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fellas is it gay to talk to snow that is vaguely shaped like your best friend & telling him you gotta be alone only to later have a nightmare about being too late & your friend forgot all about you so you really gotta rush to him....

#threads ( snufkin ). #about ( snufkin ). #portrait ( snufkin ). #answered asks ( snufkin ). #musings ( snufkin ).

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it's tes birthday !!! not that they ever really celebrated it.

#[ i doubt the crew cared much besides re.m ] #[ & the twins might have seen their record but do they remember? ] #[ do they WANNA remember? ] #[ &even for AUs where tes lives they probably are like 'oh bdays? ...i can celebrate those too???' ]

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"I am not bribing you, it's a gift." she didn't expect anything in return. but she puts the food back into her bag, falling quiet as she lets nai figure things out. he looked haunted and it saddens her to realize that she might very well be the ghost haunting him right now.

rem takes a step back to give him more room, though her eyes are drawn to the worm appearing in his hand. "alright. that shouldn't be a problem. but I do have two requests." rem raises her hand to signal her first request.

"you let me tell you about the ship from time to time. the people there, vash and I have worked on a few ideas how to reduce the stress on your sisters. I would like to know your thoughts on them." with that she raises her second finger, continuing "and once a year I need to return to the ship. that's the deal I made - I come back for maintenance" here she lifts her pant leg a little to show the prosthetic underneath "and once I am cleared, I can head back out in search of you. I won't tell anyone I already found you, if you do not want that and you don't have to come with me." vash might sense him but knowing the boy he would keep quiet.

"would that be alright with you?"

"You can't bribe me," he snaps, still wavering. How could she think that such simple, easy gestures would win him over? How dare she think that just because he'd loved her once, that she could offer simple treats like he were still a child and he'd come to heel?

He ignores the bag, a shuddering breath as everything tumbles together in his head.

Where's Zazie? He needs Zazie right now; something to keep him grounded as he tries to make sense of things. Is this even real? "I'm not a child." Not your child.

She wants him to come with her, to return to Vash and humanity and–Vash needs him. They need him, but what about what he wants? What he needs? The idea of returning to a ship, of being trapped there among humanity–Knives recoils from the idea.

He's had freedom now, even as unsafe as it may be. Knives has the ability to come and to go, and Zazie to protect him when he can't protect himself. Underground tunnels, an entire planet to flee through when he needs the space. Why would he return to containment after he's tasted life without walls, without shackles?

She wants him to come back but Knives thinks he'd rather die than be caged again.

(She says she'll stay, that she wont abandon him again but will she still say that when he doesn't want to go back? When he wants her to give up safety and comfort and humanity to stay? When she has to live in the dirt with worms?

He trusted her before but he doesn't think he can now–not until she proves there's still something for him to trust. And Knives isn't sure she cares enough to try.)

There's a worm wiggling between his fingers as he peels away from Rem, vulnerable in a way that hurts. "You can't make me come back. You have to–if you want me to–Prove it. If I'm supposed to trust you then–then you have to give me a reason to."

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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this is his fear. and rem knows she could try and dismiss it, explain that luida and brad are good people - but that wouldn't acknowledge his fear, a mistake she won't make again.

"if they do, if anyone tries anything, we run away together. we will find a place for the three of us" at least if they need too. but maybe the ship could change nai's mind, make him realize that not all humans are bad.

rem lets go of nai to search through her bags, suddenly smiling "I got a gift for you. had to use some of the last cherries on the ship and convince luida to give me one of the bags meant to explore planets" those could keep food fresh for weeks, unfortunately most of them had been destroyed. "cherry tart" she finally says before offering him the bag.

"I live with Zazie," he counters at that, even if the offer's tempting. "Vash abandoned me too." He'd run away and found a new family and kept Rem for himself, leaving Knives alone in the desert with nothing but worms to keep him safe. With the doctor and the medical experiments to form a new breed of humans suited to the planet.

No one had searched for him; he'd had to hunt the doctor down himself when he'd heard the man was alive. Knives doesn't know how to explain any of it. Lacks the words to explain that he's safer with worms than he is with humanity, that he's been watching and judging them wanting this whole time.

Been plotting a planet-wide extermination.

He tries to ignore the way his fingers curl into the fabric of her clothing, the way he's almost as tall as she is now. "They just want to use us up too. They're going to use him up."

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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i know i tend to write in more serious / high stake story fandoms but hear me out........................................i rlly rlly love mo.ominva.lley and esp snu.fkin,,,, why not just add him as a feel-good muse,,,

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"yes, I did make the choice to try and save as many people as I could but I came back. I didn't survive by luck, I ran to a pod - because I did not want to leave the two of you" it had been a hail mary but it had worked ( for the most part at least ).

rem sighs, fingers brushing over blond locks. "it wasn't safe but not because you are plants. it wasn't safe because we are humans. and the people who took vash and me in know he is an independent, if you come with me you can live there too - you won't have to hide."

she still keeps him close, trying to keep him tethered to the here and now and not let him drown in his hurt. "it's alright if you don't believe me, I'll just have to prove you wrong over time."

"You left. You don't get to just come back–" Like she hadn't decided dying was better than staying with them. Like saving the humans on board had been more important than keeping the two of them safe.

"You said we couldn't be plants." A year of learning to pretend, learning to hide everything non human about them. She didn't mean that it was okay for him to be a plant. She wants them human. "It wasn't safe."

He doesn't care that his voice crack; he isn't crying and that's the important part. Knives wants, suddenly, for things to be easy again. Like before, when they'd been too small to care or worry about anything more complicated than figuring out who was Vash and who was Nai. When they didn't have to think about anything beyond their next snack, next bath, next bedtime.

(He could sink into the plant network right now, it'd be so easy. To just sink down and stop being Knives and simply be everyone else instead. He could, Knives knows he can. He's considered it)

"You left, you don't get to say you won't leave anymore–"

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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something within his expression breaks her heart and rem simply pulls the boy into an embrace, holding him close. "I don't care that you are a plant. you and vash are the greatest gift and joy in my life" she won't let him drown. she'd help him through this, through all that pain that he seemed to bottle up.

"human or not. you're nai - you love cherry tart and you love a stuffed toy named mister pasta. you sometimes want to drop an entire mountain on your brother when you two fight but you'd protect him from anyone else...and you hate my jokes. and maybe you hate me too but that does not hurt me. I will be by your side for as long as you need me to."

He falters briefly, thrown at the knowledge that she knows already. Has known the whole time. She's still here, she isn't leaving and Knives–

Doesn't know what to do with that.

The world's crumbling under his feet (again, and just like before Rem can't fix it, is the cause of it) and he doesn't know what to do. He sways slightly, sucking in air and remembering vaguely, Tesla and the night they found her, the way he'd just–

"I'm not human enough," he counters, trying to hold onto anything. (He's drowning, he's certain he's drowning; he's standing on a desert planet and he's drowning–) "I'm a plant and you didn't want–"

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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of course he is not the boy she remembers. neither was vash when they reunited. something broke in those children and rem knows it came from the cracks that formed when they found tesla.

there isn't much nai could do at this point that would shock her.

"I know. I knew it already on that day. and that is something you will have to live with." that is a burden she would be unable to take from him. if he felt guilt, aware of it or not, it is up to nai to figure out things from here.

"I... I should have talked to you more. I thought you needed time until you could admit that you do remember what you saw in that room. but it wasn't time what you needed and I am sorry you did not trust me enough to talk to me. but I am here now and this time I won't abandon you, you're still my son."

She's trying to pacify him and he doesn't want to be; the idea that those people had saved Vash, as if he'd ever been in danger from anyone but them makes him angry.

(They'd saved Rem, they'd taken in Vash but they'd never even looked for him–)

He isn't the boy she remembers, and that just fuels his anger further; makes him want to lash out, until she has no choice but to acknowledge he's different now, that he isn't the same person. That he did this. She'd leave if he told her. Knives is certain of it.

(There's still blood under his nails from his last visit into a human town, flaking away when he gestures too violently. Has Vash told her anything?)

"I crashed the fleet," Knives spits, coiling in preparation for–he doesn't know. For something. "I changed the data in the navigation computers for everything but the plant ships. There was no malfunction, I did it."

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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he seemed angry, so terribly angry. her heart aches but she lets him glare and speak before nodding. "we were rescued by the same place." rem explains softly, taking a step towards him.

"but no, he didn't want me to leave. he was worried the journey would be too much and he couldn't come with me, he's looking after some plants"

she wanted to rush over to him and hug him but nai seemed to not be in the mindset for such a gesture. "I came looking for you, ask you if you wanted to go to vash. but I am not leaving you." rem sighs, raising her hand but not touching him yet.

"...you've grown so much. are you well?"

@millionsnife .

#millionsnife #threads ( rem ).

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song of achilles rp starters

by madeline miller. i altered some quotes so they fit better  ♡

❝  i saw then how i had changed.  ❞ ❝  name one hero who was happy — you can’t.  ❞ ❝  i feel like i could eat the world raw.  ❞ ❝  you are half my soul, as the poets say.  ❞ ❝  i have no need to forgive you. you cannot offend me.  ❞ ❝  i do not fear ridicule. i never have.  ❞ ❝  you have always trusted so easily; you have had so little in your life to fear or suspect.  ❞ ❝  do you hear me? please, say something.  ❞ ❝  your face is like quicksilver, always racing to something new. you unsettle me.  ❞ ❝  you do not give things up so easily now as you once did.  ❞ ❝  now i know how to make you follow me everywhere.  ❞ ❝  i would know your face in dark or disguise. i would know it even in madness.  ❞ ❝  there is no law that gods must be fair.  ❞ ❝  i have never seen anyone fight the way you do.  ❞ ❝  our dead come for their vengeance regardless of witnesses.  ❞ ❝  the sorrow was so large it threatened to tear through my skin.  ❞ ❝  when you die, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with you.  ❞ ❝  you were always better with words than i.  ❞ ❝  i will never leave you. it will be this, always, for as long as you will let me.  ❞ ❝  you smile, and your face is like the sun.  ❞ ❝  i thought you were — something. you do not — you do not move like a human.  ❞ ❝  do you want to walk up to the woods?  ❞ ❝  you can’t be very wounded if you can stand for so long.  ❞ ❝  there are no bargains between lion and men. i will kill you and eat you raw.  ❞ ❝  we are like gods at the dawning of the world.  ❞ ❝  nothing could eclipse the stain of this dirty, mortal mediocrity.  ❞ ❝  i yearn for the darkness and silence of the underworld, where i can rest.  ❞ ❝  those seconds, half seconds, that the line of our gaze connected, were the only moment in my day that i felt anything at all.  ❞ ❝  you seem utterly unaware of your effect on the people around you.  ❞ ❝  it was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. it was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came.  ❞ ❝  you are a weapon, a killer. do not forget it.  ❞ ❝  i have heard that men who live by a waterfall cease to hear it — in such a way did i learn to live beside the rushing torrent of my doom.  ❞ ❝  if you have to go, you know i will go with you.  ❞ ❝  there is no one like you.  ❞ ❝  we have given each other wounds, but they are not mortal.  ❞ ❝  and perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.  ❞ ❝  who can be ashamed to lose to such beauty? it is enough to watch you win.  ❞ ❝  do not let what you have gained this day be so easily lost.  ❞ ❝  you have killed them and taken your vengeance. it is enough.  ❞ ❝  no man is worth more than another, wherever he is from.  ❞ ❝  strange that such a small kindness feels like grace.  ❞ ❝  you can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature.  ❞ ❝  i cannot bear to see you grieving.  ❞ ❝  i remember little more than scattered images from my life then.  ❞ ❝  i would recognize you by touch alone, by smell; i would know you blind, by the way your breaths came and your feet struck the earth. i would know you in death, at the end of the world.  ❞ ❝  i see a dozen men here ready to leap on each other’s throats.  ❞ ❝  in my land a bow is marked as the weapon of cowards.  ❞ ❝  you may still make a good person.  ❞ ❝  you don’t bother to threaten me, yet. i should be worth threatening.  ❞ ❝  the memories well up like springwater, faster than i can hold them back.  ❞ ❝  i hoped that you would come.  ❞ ❝  the voices of the dead were said to have the power to make the living mad.  ❞ ❝  i have weathered the anger of gods before.  ❞ ❝  i thought of how many nights i had lain awake in this room, loving you in silence.  ❞ ❝  there is nothing in the world i want more than to know what you had not said.  ❞ ❝  you will never gain fame from your fighting. does this surprise you?  ❞ ❝  my mind is filled with cataclysm and apocalypse: i wish for earthquakes, eruptions, flood. only that seems large enough to hold all of my rage and grief.  ❞ ❝  i will not cry in front of you.  ❞ ❝  listen to me. you go too far in this. i will not be able to protect you.  ❞ ❝  there is no honor in betraying your friends.  ❞ ❝  i’m afraid I have been prompted by a rare stirring of guilt.  ❞ ❝  i promised myself that if i ever saw you again, i would keep my thoughts behind my eyes.  ❞ ❝  i did not want you to see my fear, though normally we kept nothing from each other.  ❞ ❝  gods and mortals never mix happily in our stories.  ❞ ❝  you will be dead soon enough.  ❞ ❝  you are destroying yourself. you will not be loved for this, you will be hated, and cursed.  ❞ ❝  you left yourself today. and now you are returned.  ❞ ❝  you are a better person than i.  ❞ ❝  whatever you do, i shall stand with you, as i always have.  ❞ ❝  you have looked at me a thousand thousand times, but there is something different in this gaze, an intensity i do not know.  ❞ ❝  my life is my reputation. it is all i have.  ❞ ❝  may i give you some advice? if you are truly his friend, you will help him leave this soft heart behind.  ❞ ❝  what are you thinking about?  ❞ ❝  even the boldest of people would whisper a prayer if they brushed against me.  ❞ ❝  the keen edge of my envy was like flint, a spark away from fire.  ❞ ❝  do you think we fight hopeless wars?  ❞ ❝  it is strange, that you would speak against betrayal.  ❞ ❝  if every soldier killed only those who’d personally offended him, we’d have no wars at all.  ❞ ❝  no one has ever tried to take something from me.  ❞ ❝  stay behind me.  ❞ ❝  will you help me put the rest of my armor on?  ❞ ❝  your face is blank and barren, like another language, impenetrable.  ❞ ❝  i am here because i believe that we will win. i am staying until the end.  ❞ ❝  your presence is like a stone in my shoe, impossible to ignore.  ❞ ❝  he is not worthy of you. he never has been.  ❞ ❝  will you tell me who hurt you?  ❞ ❝  it is like a nightmare; i expect, each moment, to wake to relief. but there is no waking.  ❞ ❝  i do not need to prove myself to you. to any of you.  ❞ ❝  you have always thought too much of yourself.  ❞ ❝  some men gain glory after they die, while others fade.  ❞ ❝  even here, behind the darkness of my eyelids, i cannot name the thing i hope for.  ❞ ❝  our joy is so bright we can see nothing else but the other.  ❞ ❝  you have a tender heart. an admirable quality, surely.  ❞ ❝  you are spring, golden and bright. envious death would drink your blood, and grow young again.  ❞ ❝  i will not be the raven on your shoulder all the time, predicting gloom.  ❞ ❝  you look different in sleep, beautiful but cold as moonlight.  ❞ ❝  when there is greed, there is hope.  ❞ ❝  i could have told you more, of the dreams that leave me bleary and bloodshot, the almost-screams that scrape my throat as i swallow them down.  ❞ ❝  you are angry, and not without reason.  ❞ ❝  you feel mislead; you were promised victory.  ❞ ❝  you know, it’s funny; i keep thinking i’ve seen you before.  ❞

#memes ( ooc ). #[ please specify a muse if possible ♥ ]

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....I knew I would write her the moment the first trailer hit but I didn't expect to adore her this much,,, anyway already iconing her. I am sick & afterwards vacation right away so I might use this to revamp this blog a bit ♥

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