sosoullight

[sosoullight]

Last Kiss, Taylor Swift

[sosoullight]

losing a friend (for the one that got away) 1/3

part 2 , part 3

@frenchtoastlesbian //personalmessage.blogspot.com // @linguinereid // trista mateer // unknown // richard siken // ocean vuong “on earth we’re briefly gorgeous”// unknown // unknown

[sosoullight]

I miss you so much....

It's insane how much I miss you. Lol

I know it looks like I m doing really well but I do miss you.

In my happiest moments I think of you.

When I m sad I think of you.

It's just how you said it,

I have tattooed your name in my mind and now everytime I think- I think of you.

I end up looking for your life updates...

I think there's some peace in knowing so?

I know you can't read this...but I m so so happy that you are doing the thing you love the most.

You have no idea how proud I am to see you pursue music.

I just know you'll do so well.

And I'll always be an invisible supporter.

I wish you all the good things in life and all the success.

God I miss you so much.

#open letter to an absent best friend from my life ig

#writing #self care #open letter

[sosoullight]

but i crumble completely when you cry... it seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye... i'm always just about to go and spoil a surprise, take my hands off of your eyes too soon...

[sosoullight]

but i crumble completely when you cry... it seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye... i'm always just about to go and spoil a surprise, take my hands off of your eyes too soon...

[sosoullight]

I was inspired by my friend (who isn't posting on social media--yet) who was doing a more painterly effect on a piece he was working on. I was fiddling with the colors and I really like how this one turned out.

[sosoullight]

Clementine Von Radics, from In A Dream You Saw A Way To Survive; “The Fear”

[Text ID: “I am afraid / I will love you forever / and we will never be / in the same room / again.”]

[sosoullight]

You deserve rest. You deserve a break. A day off. Hollidays. Weekends. An hour to yourself. Cozy evenings. Life is not about only being productive.

[sosoullight]

I was reminiscing about our love in my head .

So i revisited our chats.

Ig i wanted to remember what it felt like to be so in love .

It was a happy memory.

But the more I read, the more my smile disappeared,

The more my anxiety grew.

The more the voices grew louder and the more i began to hate myself.

I started to feel my depressive episode crawling back to me.

The one which i kept at bay, anchored with chains and force.

And i was back to wishing that i could forget it all again.

But..then i tell myself.

That I'd rather have this heartbreak than to have never loved.

And i know despite the history my love was true.

And i was happy.... at least at some point I was.

And i held my head up high again and smiled.

Until next time...

[sosoullight]

It's 3 at night.

I lay in bed

Unable to sleep,

Haunted by the memories.

Voices ringing in my ear

Places i don't wanna visit.

I have to be alright!

I need to be!

I try to convince myself.

Just one more night?

We can do this!

See how it goes?

We'll keep trying.

Just remember -

You can do this.

I can do this.

I can live.

No matter what the voice says.

We'll stay alive....

[sosoullight]

Destroy the patriarchy, not the planet.

Digital illustration of a Black fem wearing a jumper and beige shirt. Text reads, ‘destroy the patriarchy, not the planet.’ There are fireflies, mushrooms and clouds in the background. 

[sosoullight]

As someone who’s dealing with an invisible illness, I just wanna say to all y’all that asking for help doesn’t make you weak. In fact, asking for help makes you strong and brave, especially in a society that tells people to be as independent as possible.

[sosoullight]

if you’re reading this i hope something good happens to you today

[sosoullight]

[sosoullight]

Haylee Morice on Instagram

[sosoullight]

Keeping this quote to my grave

[sosoullight]

It's overwhelming sad

One moment ago i was ready to move on

Throw it all away in the past

Made myself understand the necessity

And the other...

I'm back again

Crying uncontrollably

Missing you so much

It hurts.

Why can't I just forget?

Why can't I just move on?

Why do i love like this?

With my everything?

If i love you once I ll love you forever person.

I want to live.

I need to live.

And to live i need to forget..

Not revisit memories and replay scenarios in my head with imaginary someone to make myself smile and cry and survive lol

I don't even know.

How can a person destroy you twice?

How can you let them?

Worst part?

I'll let you destroy me again and again and again

If it means i get one more moment with you

I'll sacrifice anything and everything to be with you still even if it's bad

Because i chose you

I love you

And i hate myself for that

To the core