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“Even if you know what’s coming, you’re never prepared for how it feels.”

— Natalie Standiford, How to Say Goodbye in Robot

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“When you love someone, it’s never over. You move on because you have to, but you take them with you in your heart.”

— Elizabeth Chandler

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I do feel like there's a way in which some people who, for whatever reason, cannot understand lesbians will attempt to understand us by projecting themselves and their experiences onto us, and then get upset because they are not lesbians and would not want to live our lives. like instead of being able to imagine a life in which they do not desire relationships with men in any way (romantically, sexually, or even necessarily platonically-- not that we don't have men as friends but that friendship with men is not something that we specifically need to feel happy or complete, like it's whatever, cool if we meet someone chill but not something we necessarily go out of our way to find) they imagine desiring relationships with men but then forsaking these relationships or abstaining from them due to trying to conform to a politic or identity label (<- not what being a lesbian is) and then imagine lesbianism to be a restrictive and harmful identity that limits behavior. it seems like to some there's just this psychological barrier to understanding it as authentic instead of a performative set of rules, and it leads to a lot of weird takes where people think lesbians need to be "reassured" that "it's okay to like men" and it's like.. we know it is, we just don't. like it's not a rulebook, we're not denying ourselves anything, it's just an honest description of our experience. I'm not like constantly suppressing any part of myself or denying myself anything, I'm just vibing.

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I will say just one thing. How sad and upsetting is that, i the time we live, a woman and a man do the same exact thing and the man is praised and the woman is downgraded and gets call out for it. It can be applied in so many situations that I won't specify

#nat rambles

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Maturity is when you realize people can't give you what they can't give themselves, so you stop expecting loyalty from people who betray themselves, stop expecting honesty from people who lie to themselves, and stop expecting peace from people who are at war with themselves.

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Is it real?

Is there a chance that you may be back in my arms?

Because this feels

Like a dream about you that becomes real

And I don't wanna get my hopes up

But my heart is already there

Cause the thought of having you back

Makes my life worth again

Worth again

Is it real?

Or am I seeing things wrong?

Please tell me

Cause I don't wanna get confused, love

I'm afraid it's too late to stop

The disappointment will happen no matter what 

But don't make this worse

Please answer me

Is this real?

Cause I don't wanna get my hopes up

But my heart is already there

Cause the thought of having you back

Makes my life worth again

Worth again

#nat rambles #something i just wrote #about her #the beginning of the first draft of a song #it's just pure feelings

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“I’ll be here just waiting and hoping for every long dream of you to come true.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald; Benediction

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“I love talking to you, even if I have nothing to say.”

— Mahmoud Darwish

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So my mom is talking on the phone with a family member. Apparently they've asked about my brother first and then about "the girls" aka my sister and I. My mom just started talking about my sister and, when they specifically asked about me, she just said "she's with her things"....

I'm studying and I'm working, the only one in the family doing both, when neither my brother or my sister are doing anything, literally. But I'm just with my "things". Amazing.

#nat rambles

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“I don’t care if we on good terms or not, the secrets and insecurities you shared with me would never leave my mouth.”

— Unknown