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& she better not propose to my wife either..

-FIN.

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I take friendship very seriously that is why I cannot be associated with people who don’t

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I feel I’ve crossed paths w/ at least 2 of my soulmates..

Where the rest at..?

I still haven’t given up on love. I just want.. What I want (not debriefing that here, that’ll have to be a whole sep note 😮‍💨), and I’m unwilling to compromise.

Where’s my wife at bruh? I’m tired of all this play, play shit. I’m ready to love & be loved on so many different levels.

-FIN.

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Rogue . . .

🥀🦁🔥

-FIN.

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If you’re not ready for me, don’t come.

-FIN.

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I’m not hopeless, and you’re not romantic..

Bye.

-FIN.

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Are there any actively healing, unclaimed, ready to love & be loved phenomenally, my “type” to the tee, subs?

No?

Didn’t think so.

*yawn*.

GIVE ME MOOOOOOORE. ALLOW ME TO RECEIVE MORE! I DESERVE THEE MOST.

Craving more & doing more but receiving less will forever create turmoil within me & externally.

For now, I digress..

Everything I need, I have. Grateful.

I want more… Crave it… Desire it…

& Ima fkn get it.. Best believe 🖤.

(It) will come to me, just as (it) should.

-FIN.

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Should I continue posting on my insta soo I can release more posts?

Consistency is draining when you’re not whole.

-FIN

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Out of all the ppl, connections, memories, I’ve managed to release, I still haven’t mastered release.

Soul, speak to me.. Does it always hurt, and that’s simply the answer, or am I missing something?

I don’t have the answers.

That concerns me.

Fighting myself to not switch to survival/permanent strategy mode. Yes, it’ll get me to the finish line, but it won’t be beneficial to my current journey.

I don’t wanna be mean, I don’t wanna block/suppress my feels, I don’t wanna hurt anyone bc I myself are hurting, I don’t wanna lose what I’m working for/towards, I don’t wanna give these white ppl what they’ve been waiting for, I don’t wanna regress, I don’t wanna be heartless. I wanna love; & that state doesn’t allow for that.. It allows for total & complete domination & control without bound. I will win, always, but at what cost?

Self journey/healing v. Auto pilot..

Me v Me.

Its never been anything else.

-FIN.

Ew, that’s kind of ugly.. 👆🏾.

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I did it, so I’ll fix it. As always. Just bitchin (victim venting).

-FIN.

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It’s so hard to maneuver w/ a broken heart 🥀..

-FIN.

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That was necessary.. & pure. I missed her.

Been a min.

I should start being more consistent on here again? Craving healing, clarity, creative elusiveness, non judgement, a safe empathetic open venue. I’m craving something only I can provide.

Me.

This space so grounding.

It’s time to charge.

PS

I love you Yellow.

Sincerely,

Papi Des (Golden One)

-FIN.

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Your girls don’t really be yours, and that’s the problem.. Keep your lease away from me before I claim the title..

-FIN.

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I need to write but I can’t…

-FIN.

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Soft girl energy gets matched w/ Daddy energy 👌🏾.

-FIN.

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I need to find the energy to make it back here more often… 😮‍💨. So much to debrief. Writing it out typically leads me to the answers I’m seeking.

-FIN.

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I had an amazing, unspeakable 2 weeks that has now been derailed.

I lost her… But I don’t lose. This one is special…

Time to take a different approach & revisit. Time to learn & grow, anyone that inspires positive growth is always worthy.

Baby, I’m coming for you. In due time. Just give me that. Just give me time.

Currently becoming my best me for me, which will translate to the best dom for you.

I apologize in advance for this time missed. Daddys going to get things back on track, the right way.

Let’s Play…

-FIN.