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how to handle a loss of muse : new blog 

yeah so i’m moving blogs . again . tags are currently not working for me , which is unsurprising . i’ll be responding to all my replies on my new blog starting today ( 3/25 ) and be following everybody who i am currently writing with . but that might not happen til the morning . because i’m wine drunk and In My Feels™ because i don’t know how to process grief .

introducing : eighteen new muses , twelve old ( not including private ) muses , and four new idol groups ( two which need members , hint hint nudge nudge ) . 

also nobody judge my terrible photoshop promo making skills . i literally use a photo editing app on my phone and that’s as good as it’s going to get :’)

so yeah , go and 

follow blvehours

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how to handle a loss of muse : new blog 

yeah so i’m moving blogs . again . tags are currently not working for me , which is unsurprising . i’ll be responding to all my replies on my new blog starting today ( 3/25 ) and be following everybody who i am currently writing with . but that might not happen til the morning . because i’m wine drunk and In My Feels™ because i don’t know how to process grief .

introducing : eighteen new muses , twelve old ( not including private ) muses , and four new idol groups ( two which need members , hint hint nudge nudge ) . 

also nobody judge my terrible photoshop promo making skills . i literally use a photo editing app on my phone and that’s as good as it’s going to get :’)

so yeah , go and 

follow blvehours

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tfw a random edm musician likes the side blog you created to post profiles for your new indie blog without having to make a shit ton of custom pages bc you're lazy ??????

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therapist side of my brain : and what do we do when we feel like we have no control in our lives and can't find inspiration to write ?

impulsive , always in control side of my brain : make a new blog and add new eighteen muses while only getting rid of twelve

therapist side of my brain : no

me : :]

#♚ [ ooc ] — talking to myself #in other news i'm making a new blog

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miss u

#my tag didn’t stick #miles is drooling

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i’m barely even alive im just here clicking buttons

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i got a job T-T

#♚ [ ooc ] — talking to myself #i'm so happy

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↖Slow as fuck with replies but does it anyway.. eventually..

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diseasc​:

━━  "BEING  needy  isn’t  a  bad  thing.“  teddie  comforts  as  his  eyes  divert  from  hyuna’s  to  watch  the  other’s  plump  lips  press  against  his  palm. he  can’t  help  but  smile  as  he  cocks  his  own  head  to  the  side,  the  tender  move  from  the  other  captivating  him. "i  know  i’m  not  the  most  affectionate,  especially  when  we’re  here…”  he  sighs  as  he  shifts  slightly  under  hyuna’s  legs,  his  hand  rounding  the  other’s  neck  before  the  flat  of  his  palm  runs  down  the  center  of  hyuna’s  chest. “i  just  don’t  want  either  of  us  to  get  in  trouble. it  would  be  game  over,  more  for  you  than  me  and  you’ve  worked  too  fucking  hard  for  me  to  be  the  reason  it  gets  ruined.”  he  leans  forward,  the  hand  hyuna  had  kissed,  tightening  it’s  hold  on  his  cheek,  nose  now  close  enough  to  nudge  theirs. the  hand  on  hyuna’s  chest  creeps  down  and  slips  under  the the  other’s  t-shirt  with  ease,  fingers  running  up  and  down  his  soft,  warm  chest  in  an  attempt  to  comfort. “let’s  get  home,  hm?  maybe  i  can  help  satisfy  these  needs.”

hyuna  hummed  in  slight  disagreement  .  “  it  is  if  it’s  affecting  your  work  and  causing  trouble  then  i’d  have  to  say  it  is  .  “  he  chuckled  .  a  small  pout  settled  on  his  lips  as  the  other  speak  .  “  stop  apologizing  teddie  .  “   he  said  ,  squeezing  his  thighs  around  the  other  slightly  .  “  you  are  very  affectionate  .  just  not  in  certain  situations  .  and  maybe  sometimes  you  need  that  push  to  know  you’re  allowed  to  be  .  i  know  that  ,  and  i  don’t  take  it  personally  .  especially  at  work  .  “  he  said  .  “  you  only  want  what  is  best  for  you  and  i  and  i  acknowledge  that  .  i  was  being  silly  today  and  i’m  sorry  .  we’ve  both  worked  far  too  hard  to  let  that  get  ruined  .  “  he  said  him  ,  tilting  his  chin  up  slightly  to  kiss  teddie  .  the fingers  against  his  chest  send  a  small  shiver  down  his  spin  ,  rolling  his  hips  slightly  .  “  why  not  satisfy  some  of  them  now  ?  your  windows  are  tinted  .  “  he  said  ,  biting  his  lower  lip  playfully  .  

#diseasc #° bae hyuna — a culmination of everything #✎ bae hyuna — writes with teddie #✎ bae hyung — writes with all #*spray bottles hyuna* down child

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mccnxhild​:

an almost pout formed on her face when she saw his face scrunch. maybe he didn’t like how it all looked. but then she laughs at what follows and she moves to stand beside him and adjusts parts of the outfit. “it’s still you!” she smiled brightly. “it’s just you in nice clothes addie.” she said softly and finally finished fiddling with the clothes. “you can always swap the belt for one of yours, or wear a pair of vans, untuck it. whatever makes you more comfortable.” she said to him smoothing his sleeves. when he mentioned what he looked like she laughs and covers her mouth looking up to him. he wasn’t wrong that was kind of what he looked like, but she thought he looked handsome. “i think you look like a refined e-boy.” she snickers and looked to him an excited smirk on her lips when he mentions the possibility of filming one of those thirst trap tiktoks. but when he mentioned the bangs her expression turned devious. “don’t go putting ideas in my head!” devyn laughs with a warm smile. “i don’t think you’d even have to dance if you didn’t want to, people will look at you anyway.” she shrugs. “perfect i’ll film edit it all the things.” she smiled anf moved to hug him from behind arms wrapping around him gviing a small squeeze. 

addison  laughed  . “  the  belt  i  have  will  not  go  with  this  at  all  .  “ he  said  .  for something  that  rarely  gets  used  because  its  owner  prefers  sweats  over jeans  ,  the  thing  is  on  its  last  leg  .  “  we’re  not  bleaching  my  hair  again  .  “  he  said  ,  patting  her  lightly  on  the  head  .  “  that  was  too  much  work  and  it  burned  and  smelled  disgusting  .  i  had  my  more  fun  as  a  blond  moment  and  i’m  good  with  never  going  there  again  .  “  he  told  her  .  his  hair  was  just  getting  back  to  its  unfried  status  ,  he  wasn’t  about  to  go  destroy  any  of  it  again  .  “  i  feel  like  i  have  to  do  at  least  something  entertaining  to  be  worth  the  likes  .  “  he  said  as  he  leaned  back  against  her  slightly  ,  tapping  a  random  tune  against  her  arms  around  him  .  “  you  have  to  do  it  with  me  .  all  social  media  endeavors  are  required  to involve  you  both  on  and  off  screen  .  “  he  said  ,  gently  prying  off  her  hands  from  his  waist  .  “  i’m  gonna  change  out  of  this  now  .  “  he  smiled  ,  pulling  the  belt  out  from  the  loops  and  beginning  to  unbutton  the  shirt  as  he  headed  back  into  the  dressing  room  and  stepping  back  out  a  couple  minutes  later  ,  the  clothes  carefully  draped  over  his  arm  .  “  so  . . .  shoes  and  that’s  it  right  ?  “  he  asked  her  .

#mccnxhild #° addison park — a culmination of everything #✎ addison park — writes with all #✄ addison park — cut from the same cloth

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we'll be back to our regularly poorly scheduled responses tomorrow . saturday was trip to houston , sunday was sleeping until 6pm because everything exhausts me , and then today was clean up , build an extra organizer and redo my albums day .

i also will hopefully get a job offer tomorrow so fingers crossed .

#♚ [ ooc ] — talking to myself

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Okay by why KQ out here taking eight members giving me nice ass postcard / poster photos to hang up and then giving me an unequal number of vertical vs horizontal and making it impossible to do Tetris with them 😩

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solarflcres​:

me , back on my giffing bullshit : soobin plays with his hair so fucking much in vlives ;-;

like , sir ?? why ? also why tf are my gifs coming out muted and grainy ??? wtf .

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me , back on my giffing bullshit : soobin plays with his hair so fucking much in vlives ;-;

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slowly getting through my replies . sorry for delays . my muse comes and goes so quick recently i always seem to just miss it . 

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rapverse​:

    last  night  sucked  ,  so  she  had  put  in  her  diary  .  it  took  a  lot  of  meditation  and  sound  music  to  full  volume  for  her  mind  to  be  clear  of  the  replaying  words  etched  into  her  cerebrum  .  dreams  didn’t  help  when  all  they  could  cultivate  was  break  up  after  break  up  and  despite  not  having  a  face  to  put  on  the  being  who  was  doing  the  breaking  ,  it  was  obvious  who  the  inspiration  came  from  .  dreams  still  running  amuck  as  she  slept  ,  a  smell  interrupting  the  sequence  of  events  that  were  playing  .  it’s  not  until  she  furrows  her  eyebrows  and  peaks  with  one  eye  that  she  registers  someone  –  not  just  anyone  ,  but  younghwa  …  cooking  .  

slippers  warming  up  bare  feet  ,  the  brunette  peaks  through  the  shut  door  (  she  made  sure  he  heard  it  slam  last  night  )  ,  taking  a  sniff  before  deeming  it  safe  to  step  out  of  her  room  .  the  scene  in  front  of  her  was  close  enough  to  have  her  in  fits  of  giggles  ,  yet  she  continued  the  act  from  last  night  -  wounded  .  the  sentiment  from  her  boyfriend  enough  to  make  her  crouch  down  in  front  of  him  ,  mimicking  his  posture  ,  ❛  you  hurt  my  feelings  .  ❜  it  was  quick  ,  breakfast  or  the  attempt  of  it  could  wait  ,  heart  beating  against  her  chest  thoughts  screaming  different  scenarios  .  

this  vaguely  reminds  him  of  his  mother  when  he  was  younger  .  how  she’d  squat  down  in  front  of  him  after  he’d  calmed  down  from  whatever  tantrum  he’d  had  ,  spewing  hurtful  words  and  a  mess  of  swinging  limbs  .  he  looked  down  at  his  legs  ,  picking  at  some  of  the  frayed  edges  of  the  hole  in  the  knee  of  his  jeans  .  he  had  refused  to  leave  last  night  to  at  least  change  or  bring  a  change  of  clothes  there  in  hopes  that  she’d  open  the  door  and  the  anger  would  have  a  pin  in  it  until  now  .  “  i  know  .  “  he  said  quietly  .  “  i  didn’t  mean  for  it  to  hurt  you  .  it’s  just  -—  “ easier  .   “  you’re  so  pretty  .  “  he  said  instead  looking  back  up  at  her  and  reaching  out  to  brush  some  hair  out  of  her  face  .  “  i’m  so  sorry  i  hurt  you  .  that’s  the  last  thing  i  ever  want  to  do  to  you  .  “  his  words  are  barely  a  whisper  .  “  you  mean  the  world  to  me  .  “

#rapverse #° lee younghwa — a culmination of everything #✎ lee younghwa — writes with all #✎ lee younghwa — writes with hwang jisoo

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dcydreamin​:

     when  the  glass  of  water  was  returned  to  him,  benji  gently  slid  it  across  the  table  once  again  -  as  if  to  silently  tell  emily  that  she  could  keep  it  if  she  wanted.  “  no  problem,  ”  he  remarked  in  a  casual  manner.  most  of  the  time  it  came  as  second  nature  to  be  nonchalant  and  play  it  cool,  but  because  of  their  history ,  benji  was  almost  desperate  to  bombard  her  with  a  million  questions.  fortunately  he  was  content  with  hearing  her  talk  about  the  toddler,  especially  since  he  was  equally  curious  on  how  much  this  changed  her  life.  he  met  the  stories  with  wide  smiles  and  laughter,  mind  immediately  trying  to  envision  the  thought  of  a  little  boy  doing  all  of  that.  “  oh  my  god,  does  he  really?  he’s  such  a  handful,  ”  he  smiled  fondly.  “  I’m  doing  great.  as  you  probably  already  figured  out  I  just  got  picked  up  by  a  real  baseball  team  in  the  mlb.  so,  you  know,  moving  up  in  the  world  from  a  dingy  little  high  school  team.”  the  thought  felt  nostalgic  yet  almost  funny  in  a  way.  “  you  know,  if  mickey  ever decides  he  likes  baseball,  I’d  definitely  love  to  get  you  guys  front  row  tickets  and  maybe  have  him  meet  the  mascot.  ”  

she  tried  masking  her  surprise  as  benji  pushed  the  drink  back  .  she  doesn’t  even  know  why  it  surprised  her  .  reaching  out  she  brought  it  closer  to  her  .  “  he  really  is  .  i  don’t  know  what  i’d  do  if  i  didn’t  have  my  cousins  helping  me  out  .  “  she  smiled  .  they  really  were  life  savers  .  “  yeah  ,  i  heard  .  “  she  nodded  .  “ congratulations  on  it  .  “  she  wouldn’t  admit  that  she’d  been  following  his  career  since  she’d  left  him  .  it  was  what  made  leaving  worth  it  .  at  least  ,  that  was  what  she  told  herself  when  she  was  younger  .  now  she  truly  believed  it  .  “  i  always  believed  that  you’d  make  it  benji  .  “  she  said  softly  toying  with  the  straw  slightly  ,  twirling  it  around  in  the  glass  .  “  he  likes  it  .  “  she  told  him  .  “  she  likes  hitting  his  '  big  brothers  ‘  with  the  baseball  bat  more  though  .  “  the  kid  had  a  serious  sadistic  streak  in  him  .  “  i  think  he  would  enjoy  seeing  a  baseball  game  in  real  life  though  .  “  maybe  it’d  show  him  that  the  bat  wasn’t  for  whacking  people  with  .  and  maybe  he’d  fall  in  love  with  it  the  way  his  father  had  and  she  could  have  her  own  little  benji  .  

#dcydreamin #° emily yang — a culmination of everything #✎ emily yang — writes with benji li #✎ emily yang — writes with all