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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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"nothing is real atoms never touch each other youve never touched anything in your life" ok. well when i pet my dog he is soft and when he licks my hand it is wet and that is far more real to me than whatevers going on at an atomic level

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Ahn Jong Yuen: EclecticStills (1995)

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♡ 'Kissycat Sleeps' ♡ Coloured pencils on fine grain heavyweight paper; 2023. Signed original drawing available here.

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#cats

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#86…………. #😅

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*booking an mri* what if I accidentally have a pacemaker. what if I got secret bone surgery and forgot about the pins

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I was walking around the neighborhood one day and suddenly came across this tree with a branch the formed a spiral

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#cats

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I was so anxious today that I was trying to fill out a form for my cat’s vet appointment and wrote a 3 backwards

it felt right but once it was written I was like no this definitely does not seem right

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I feel like I’m already falling behind even tho I literally just moved here :/ but at least I called the spine center about my back and had a doctors appointment for something bothering me for months and I have another one next week too

still don’t have a therapist… which might explain why I’m so fucking depressed… but today I kinda feel like actually being nice to myself for once???

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I went to this light festival thing with my bf this last weekend and we walked for maybe like 2.5 hours at most and the next day my body hurt soooo bad 😭😭😭 even 3 days later I’m still sore

I wish my stupid back condition didn’t do this :/

at least I tried it tho, I’m glad I did. it was a fun experience and I’m glad to know I CAN do it… I just have to suffer the consequences the next few days 😂

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it’s still so foggy and it’s 11:15 am!!! usually the fog disappears by maybe like 9 am at the latest but it’s still soooo foggy :) it’s less foggy than an hour ago but I might take a walk for once after I eat!!!

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I really don’t know what happened, I was doing fantastic at the end of 2020 and the start of 2021

I guess I had a shit job at a terrible place and it broke me down so much I felt terrible about myself and everything

somehow I picked myself back up a little, but things just didn’t keep improving and started falling back down and now I feel like the good feelings I had a year ago are unattainable