sludgem0nst3r

[sludgem0nst3r]

Do people still do red braclets

#an0rex1c #ed relapse

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In the park with my friends qnd they're ignoring me

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In the park with my friends qnd they're ignoring me

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Yay sh relapse

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I have a headache and I want to eat something

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I want my mom to take care of me like when I was little and got sick

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I'm cold and my bed hurts nothing matters anymore I want it to matter again

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I wanted to eat earlier and I just stared at it for half an hour it's such a waste

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I'm so tired I'm rotting in my bed I don't want to do this anymore I'm so fucking tired

[sludgem0nst3r]

Food log: 2

Breakfast: apple(72)

Lunch: nothing

Dinner: two slices on toast and 250ml of apple juice (220+126)

Total:418

Burned:322

Net:96

I'm really tired and thirsty, but I keep waking up hours before I need to get out of bed

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Food log: 1

Breakfast: Apple (72 calories)

Lunch: Sour k candies (136 calories)

Dinner: two burgers no buns and 5 halloumi fries (330+250=580)

Total: 788

Calories burned: 515

Net: 273

Ngl could've gone without dinner, made me feel sick afterwards. After I got home from excersing I slept all day. I've just woke up and I dont feel tired at all, I'm probably going to some YouTube workout.

[sludgem0nst3r]

Food log: 1

Breakfast: Apple (72 calories)

Lunch: Sour k candies (136 calories)

Dinner: two burgers no buns and 5 halloumi fries (330+250=580)

Total: 788

Calories burned: 515

Net: 273

Ngl could've gone without dinner, made me feel sick afterwards. After I got home from excersing I slept all day. I've just woke up and I dont feel tired at all, I'm probably going to some YouTube workout.

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Going to start posting food logs to keep myself on track. Idk. Something about people knowing that i binged makes me want to eat nothing

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I'm going to fucking cry. I've been living at my grandmas house for two months after my mother cut me purging, she sent me for recovery and I've gained 7 whole pounds since my last post. I'm so disgusted in myself. Everytime I get somewhere real I mess it up and have to start over

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Now that I'm at 116lbs I'm either gaining a pound or losing a pound within a few days.

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I've spent every lunchtime the last two weeks in my schools library bc I don't want to be tempted by food. It's so sad and lonely trying to find something to do.

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ED headaches make me want to die