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Don’t Let Me Be Lonely: An American Lyric, Claudia Rankine

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hm.

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don't vwant to feel bad anymore.

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seadvweller hate is so cute.

#i'm right fuckjng here dude. #fuck off.

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sometimes i don't knowv if he vwould still choose to be vwith me if he knewv i vwould turn out to be like this.

#boring. alvways crying. alvways mad.

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i'm. not a good partner.

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i don't knowv howv to stop feeling bad.

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blugh.

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really surprised people havwen't started sending shitty anons about howv i only evwer talk about jet, yet.

#sorry i am literally obsessed vwith him. #you vwould be too.

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need me a freak that vwill lay on me for 5 hours.

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i'm just. going to lay dowvn.

#nap maybe.

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you knowv, at least before i had a job i could sit through my vweird emotion rollercoaster on my owvn, avway from people, but nowv i havwe to keep it all together until i come home and then cry it out in one go and that's... vworse. i think.

#that's not fair to jet. #he shouldn't havwe to see my cry this often.

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vwhy do i do that.

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ah.

#nevwermind.

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Having ur main emotional response be crying is so embarrassing like ill be trying to explain why im mad or ill try having a serious convo abt smthn that upsets me and ill start crying like a baby and i have to like turn around and go “i am not crying 4 pity or to emotionally manipulate u im crying cuz im a little bitch, give me a sec”

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i don't think he's upset about it.

#maybe he is? #he didn't sound upset.

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don't evwen knowv vwhy i'm crying about that.

#my shift is ovwer in 5 minutes please don't look at my face lol.