sincerelyadhd

[sincerelyadhd]

It’s been sometime. In a different place now, compared to all the years prior. I’m not who I used to be. Is that good or bad? Anyway. This isn’t sadness I feel… it’s melancholy sprinkled with anxiety. Minor sprinkles. Well, enough anxiety to turn into a hermit, to avoid moments that can produce anxiety. I’m- fuck it, I’m sad. Absolutely sad. I don’t know if anyone understands me. In hindsight though, I will admit that moments where I was misunderstood in the past, were moments where I had a bad portrayal of variable x. So I don’t blame people for surface judgment. I just wish the right person was able to see my potential and vision. I’m speaking vaguely, but I don’t care. It’s for me. Yes, selfishly for me.

I’m working on a few things now. I think I’ve truly found what I will be doing for the rest of my life. Great to learn that there aren’t any deadlines on these things. So, it’s truly about the journey. Despite my impatience sometimes.

Destiny works in weird ways, or rather, the only way it was going to work anyway. Hard determinism? Okay. Be right back.

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Chasing approval is poisonous.

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I’ve always felt like scum.

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DTLA

#dtla

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Tumblr is the only space where I can vent and no one sees.

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OVER FUCKING WHELMED

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Sex that’s primal.

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Bored.

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I don’t have patience for other humans. I’d rather be alone forever, I guess.

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i Don't know what it is, but I feel magic and torture at the same time when I find something new that inspires me.

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i’ll say I feel indifferent, but it’s poisoned with anxiety.

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Sarah is awesome. She’s super cool. I like her.

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Starting to think going back to school stole the life I wanted and could’ve had.

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So not cool how you make me feel inside.

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Let me choke your neck? Orrrrr

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[sincerelyadhd]

Need to get back to some old habits to better myself.