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All my life, I dealt with a lot of rude and obnoxious people, people who treated me badly, kareeb ke, bahar ke, Ghar ke ... Mujhse jaisa bhi sulook Kiya Maine kabhi kisi ke saath un jaisa behave nahi kiya, i forgave everyone, I still treated everyone with kindness. Even animals and insects.... I never harmed anyone or tried never to hurt anyone even by mistake. Bas badle mein main Allah se yahi mangti thi, ya Allah, mujhse koi kaise bhi rahe, I don't care, bas us insaan ke dil mein mere liye muhabbat daal do.... Uska Dil mere liye narm kar do.

Lekin wakht ke saath mere dusman bhi mere kayal ho gaye ,bas woh ek sakhs mujhse raazi na hua. Muhabbat to dur... Mujhe sabse zyada zaleel bhi using ne Kiya....

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That's what ur busy with, always....

I see it each day each night....

No, i understand u can't control whom u like,

But u owed me atleast being a little kind...

U owned me a simple human decency....

U owned me atleast to not hurt me , I didn't deserve this betrayal.

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Dear mutuals,

Keep me in prayers, I am in an ardent need of all the good vibes and prayers , I have an important interview today. Probably a life altering event to happen .... ! Please pray all goes well.

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Taghaful theek hai, ranjish baja lekin mohtaram!

Dil itna na dukhayen ki baat khuda tak ja puhanche.

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Muhabbat bhi rizq hai ..

aur is duniya mein mere naseeb mein

bas faake likhe hai

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You can't fight for what is not yours.... 😓

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In my era of not chasing after anyone and being content (trying my best) with whatever Allah has planned for me.

Those who want to stay in your life will make an effort for it. Even through arguments and fallouts, they will communicate with you and tell you what the problem is and try to overcome it because that's what people do when they value a relationship. They don't ghost you without an explanation. Because wallahi that is very, very hurtful. If you claim to love someone, the least you could do is tell them why you need space from them or why you don't want to talk to them.

People can leave you and disappear on you and be disappointed in you and make you feel like you're not enough and perhaps never will be for anyone; but Allah is the Only One who will love you despite your flaws and forgive you when you go back to Him and never leave you so long as you're holding on to His Rope. Allah is the Only constant in our lives.

So yeah. I'm done pining and chasing after people, especially when I've tried to reach out and was only met with silence. If someone wants me in their life, they know where to find me. I have had a lifetime's worth of farewells and goodbyes, the leftover grief of some which I'm still dealing with. Loneliness and solitude are long familiar acquaintances of mine. I've learnt to find comfort with them, and with my Lord. I've learnt to cultivate peace in the midst of grief. So yeah, I'm not gonna chase after anyone anymore.

#who stayed by you allah

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Knowing that there will be a day when everything in the world will feel wrong makes it more important to live in those moments where all things are right in the world.

Nothing will be resolved ever, it's not that easy, but I know all will be right in my world once i see you , even if just for a bit everything will be right.

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14th Feb 2024

True love is as selfless as it is selfish. It's more than soul mates or a perfect kiss or white horses and sunsets. It simply is love, infinite, unquestionable, unconditional, even if unrequited, even if unappreciated, even if naive love it is, and for whatever it is worth, I have truly loved you.

But even if my love is timeless, my time is limited.

I can't sit waiting while you heal or make up your mind, or weigh in your available options or wait for you to understand my worth. I have to make good use of the life I am left with... So even while I love you with every breath with every heart beat , I can only hope you know wherever i am, however I am, you are a part of me, always alive in me...

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Don't try to force anything. Let life be a deep let-go. God opens millions of flowers everyday without forcing their buds. ― Osho

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Just because you value someone more ..they don't value you

Ye kaisa math hai, Aaj Tak samjh hi nahi aaya mujhe

#games people play

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