i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text
i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text
TG: dirk do u know if you can use your heart zappy powers like a defibrillator
TT: I doubt that it works that way.
TG: so the answer is you dont know
GT: I think we should test it!
TT: I do not think we should test it.
lifesteal!squiddo is the character of all time to me. pov you join a new server. join a surprise wedding. give a heart to the bride. join the brides gang. build a fnaf party where you kill everyone and make an escape plan for your (self-proclaimed) only friend and not the guy who also gave you a heart. build a nuke. get killed. divorce your business partner. run for president. lose. get banned by your only friend. wake up in clown makeup. truly the character arc of all time.
do you ever see a person and you are overcome with incredible fondness? and you just think "oh." but not in a romantic or sexual way you are just filled with warmth and it makes you happy, it just does. and you think "i'm so happy you exist. i'm happy you are somewhere out there in the world, doing your thing". it's love but also not entirely
like people are lovely and i feel it in my entire chest like a burning candle that smells like roses and a sunny day
kind of freaks me out how my parents will just enter my room and turn down the volume on whatever i mightve been listening to before i fell asleep. and ive been having problems with sleeping too so when i do crash its usually a deep sleep for like, 3-4 hours and its disorientating as fuck to wake up from that and wonder if everything in my surroundings is the way it was or whether my family has been creeping around in my room again despite me asking them Not to do that