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Moving?

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Holy shit this article is amazing

Not only is the subject matter incredibly powerful, coupled with beautifully nuanced argumentation and consideration of all aspects of the alarming issue of femicide within India, but the intertwining of cultural and historical context really made the article beyond a dissertation. The reading experience was so enthralling and emotional. The ending had tears seeping out of my eyes and goosebumps raising from my arms. 

#femicide #thenewyorker

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What do we think of walkable cities

By "we", I mean me.

I think I'm split 80-20 in favor of walkable cityscapes; cities that force us to depend on cars and isolate ourselves are aggressively wasteful and humanity-starved, but a "perfect little town" feels idealistically dystopian and like an all-inclusive resort or some sort of zoo enclosure for humans. The thought of asking "Why leave when everything you need is here?" gives me chills.

#Spotify

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I forgot my password

Sorry it's been so long! Here's what my life looks like right now:

Raven and I hit 10 months on September 13th <3 Don't tell him but I am so in love with him

I'm taking an involuntary gap year and starting college in fall 2024. (Lots more baggage to unpack with this but I don't want to be a Debbie Downer)

Finished school strong, another absolute demolition of AP tests. All 5s except calc which was a given lol

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I came back here because I was thinking about the state of literature. I feel that books only tell standalone stories, detailing when something novel (wink) occurs in some character's life. Let's explore miraculous things happening in a more casual sense. I want to read something that implies cyclicality. It's an ancient concept that time is cyclical– why is there no literature about it?? Basically, I want to read a book in which there is no beginning and end of a story, it's just capturing a portion of a much larger existence. I have to be able to envision exactly how the story progresses once I run out of pages to turn. (Does what I'm saying make any sense?). Screw the plot volcano; give me something that feels like I just peered into another person's life and stayed long enough to find meaning.

I have some banger book ideas but this blog (5 followers strong) is wayy too popular for me to give up creative property like that. No idea is free!!

Bye :)

Edit: Reading this back, I think I can simplify what I was trying to explain by using the Doppler Effect. When an object is passing by you, it's at its loudest and highest pitch when it is closest to you and vice versa because the waves between you and the object become shorter. Anyways, I want the story to be the loudest and highest pitch (the part we perceive), but I want to hear the low tones of it heading towards me and away from me.

#we back #a day at the races #Spotify

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by: donさんのページ

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by danielmercadante

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Why did you post my autobiography please delete this. Surely there are copyright laws against posts like these?

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

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Renders for The Line, whose foundation is currently being started in Saudi Arabia

After seeing the plans, I had some general concerns. Im inclined to post about it so that when this motherload of crap is abandoned I can refer to this timestamp and have a moment of satisfaction that I knew it

Exacerbates class division crisis [opulent upper levels v. destitute bottom level]

Quite literally a vertical hierarchy

Water/irrigation, sanitation systems

Noise issues with everyone living right next to constant running of bullet trains

Physical affects due to recycled air, lack of vitamin D [exasperated in lower levels]

Is it all a homogenous cityscape? Any agriculture or strictly imports?

Animals. Disrupts their migrations, genetic diversity, other natural phenomena. Not to mention birds

Law enforcement

Direct, incessant sun + large panels of glass = giant scorching hot zones

Sandstorms, sand blowing over the top

Environmental disturbance, fragmenting nature

Couldn't it follow coastal lines instead of bulldozing through existing habitat?

Not the most conducive and productive shape. Circular urban planning is much more intuitive

A "line" makes it so that each essential building serves less people, so you'd need to build more, inflating the infrastructure budget

Not a very organic solution in general. Too ambitious and relies heavily on technology that is yet to be developed

No room for manufacturing plants and stage 3 DTM industry. Feels like a billionaire's haven and that doesn't sit right with me. Yea, let's just invent a city for rich folks and leave everyone else to rot in our underfunded and mismanaged cities.

Waste management, AKA where does the dump get dumped. Awks question but someone has to ask it

Rigid shape– no allowance for urban sprawl. Again, billions

• Shape is hostile and does not foster diffusion of ideas, innovation

Epidemic: close quarters are breeding grounds for disease

Inaccessibility. Those who are handicapped, disabled, or with mobility issues will be needlessly disadvantaged

Phone service, power lines, internet cables

Structural integrity

• Giant thin wall = lateral instability

Soil. Scorching hot desert temps plus and open top. How do they plan on maintaining and achieving such lush greenery seen in the published marketing materials?

NOW FOR THE GOOD STUFF:

Hypocrisy of Saudi Arabia's government 🇸🇦

• Building a brand new city meant to attract wealthy foreign investors instead of refurbishing their existing, crumbling cities is the antithesis to sustainability!!

• S.A. is already full of poorly planned/overpopulated cities and abandoned infrastructure projects, many of which do not have adequate plumbing and running water

Displacement of tribal members who have been settled in those areas for generations.

And lastly, architecture has historically been used to convey political messaging. Is this a cover-up for the Prince's human rights violations? Simply propaganda?

• Carl Sappers would not approve

Thanks for reading if u got this far <3

#the line #architecture #urban planning #cities #saudi arabia #neom #Spotify

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BIG FAT UPDATE:

Reading my previous entries are so cringe. It's like reading the entries of a mentally unstable rodent who learned how to type. I almost couldnt read them in their entirety. Just know that Im more self-aware now

I hit my 1 year anniversary with Starbucks, and I am now training to become a Coffee Master.... so I can be a certified coffee snob (including pay bump)

I had jaw surgery a few days ago, so my days solely consist of soft foods and bed rest. I should be good to go by the time school starts, although I wont fully recover until about 3 months. (Your dad is devastated by the news but not to worry: I'll be back in commission soon)

On a cooler note, I went to France. Ive been there a couple of times already, but this time was different. Genuinely the best vacation Ive ever had. It wasn't Paris like usual, we went to the French Riviera! Marseille, Nice (I ate three full pizza pies there), Cannes (where I made a friend named Neil), Monaco (to celebrate my birthday), Antibes (with gorgeous seaside sculptures and cute markets), you name it. When we did stop in Paris, I ate at Victoria's and got sat next to Zion fucking Williamson and Luka Doncic.... no words. (Except I got invited to Zion's table once Luka left..... my mom dragged me away though). Anyways, I am endlessly grateful I was able to go and I had the time of my life <3<3

My dad and I agreed that my senior trip will just be him and myself in Iceland! 🇮🇸 Exciting

Speaking of senior trip.... I am a senior in August. Im looking forward to graduating but Im dreading the work in between now and May. Just a few months of hard work so I have the chance to get into a good university where I will work hard for 5 more years lol. Sigh groan complain.

I miss Minnesota almost every day. I have moved on, but it would be nice if I could see them this summer. Although it's unlikely. Im mostly sad that we have been together for so many years but I wont graduate with them :(

I have some friends here. I really like them and they are super nice! I feel like they are genuinely good people. Plus I have a bit of a love triangle going on 😏 Updates later

Also, guess who failed every single AP test....... NOT ME! All fives baby

That is all I have for now. Bye <3

#WOO #Spotify

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Hey queens, kings, jokers,

I apologize to @stevetoppsculpture for not posting in months. You were my only fan and I would never take your support for granted!!

TX is turning out to be ok. My grades have definitely increased exponentially, so that's a good thing.

This wasn't in my last message because archaeologists have radioactively dated it to be from 800 B.C., but I secured a job! My enlistment in the Starbucks ranks began in July. I thought I had good work ethic but I kind of want to quit.... I'll stick it out until my first anniversary.

Covid: It's pretty sad that my travels have dwindled compared to previous years. I almost cried when the travel ban was enacted, because oh no! I can't go to Spain for my birthday! Boo hoo Sheheni. I am grateful for the life I have now and my parents' success; especially since we've never had it this nicely until recently. The pandemic has affected others in ways I can't begin to understand, so I am so grateful for my family's health as well.

I really miss my friends though. More than anything. Those are my girls, my support system, extensions of who I am. Selfishly, it makes me sad that they're making new memories without me. Even if we reunite in college, how different will it be? I'll attribute these fears to insecurity; nothing scares me more than being replaced

On a brighter note, I got a rowing machine and have triumphantly returned to working out! Being sad has helped me maintain 125 but with this additional rigor I hit 118

I think my music taste has gotten much much better, juxtaposed by my taste in guys has gone so far down. The Power Rangers would dunk on me like Lebron if they knew the guy Im feeling right now

I need to get better at making plans and following through with them. I have about 6 hang outs that keep getting pushed back because of me. How I still have friends I have no idea

At least I have my zero readers as friends! Bye guys. Love you all

<3

#Spotify #the world is a vampireeeee

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Kastura, Frank Stella, 1979, MoMA: Painting and Sculpture

Acquired through the Mr. and Mrs. Victor Ganz, Mr. and Mrs. Donald H. Peters, and Mr. and Mrs. Charles Zadok Funds Size: 9’ 7" x 7’ 8" x 30" (292.1 x 233.7 x 76.2 cm) Medium: Oil and epoxy on aluminum, and wire mesh

http://www.moma.org/collection/works/79536

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DAMN. by Kendrick Lamar the ending got me bro

Untitled, Arshile Gorky, 1943, Art Institute of Chicago: Prints and Drawings

In July 1943, Arshile Gorky vacationed in the foothills of the Appalachians, at the Virginia farm of his wife’s parents. There he devoted himself to drawing outdoors, developing a vocabulary of leaf, seed, and pod shapes from the lush mid-summer landscape. Drawn with obvious passion, this work, with its essentially joyous riot of color, provides little indication of the suffering and despair of Gorky’s last years, which eventually caused him to take his own life. Gift of the Joseph and Helen Regenstein Foundation, Peter B. Bensinger, Louis H. Silver, Joseph R. Shapiro, and the Ada Turnbull Hertle Fund Size: 578 x 736 mm Medium: Wax crayons and colored crayon and graphite with scraping and incising, on ivory wove paper

https://www.artic.edu/artworks/88645/

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The Smoking Fire, plate 6 from Imaginary Prisons, Giovanni Battista Piranesi, 1750, Art Institute of Chicago: Prints and Drawings

Clarence Buckingham Collection Size: 535 x 394 mm (image); 543 x 400 mm (plate); 800 x 550 mm (sheet) Medium: Etching and engraving on heavy ivory laid paper

https://www.artic.edu/artworks/43901/

[sheheni]

This is all true bestie

And if if Tumblr Naji is different from Twitter Naji, everyone should follow her <3

Welcome!

Halo ^-^ !!!!!

New to Tumblr, really got pulled in because I like reading and making layouts hehe! 

Would love to get recommendations to any good fanfics from Army :DD.

Doesn’t matter which platform, anything would be really appreiciated. 

Will always follow back, very open-minded so feel free to say hai! <3

Some random things that make me happy just because:

- Piano Covers

- Online Shopping

- Plants 

- Making Spotify Playlists (it’s all I do) 

- Reading

- Bangtan HYYH Era

- Fanart (!!)

- Jewlery (bracelets + rings)

- GIFs

- Cats

- Nail Polish

- BT21 (my babies) 

- Keychains

- Drawing (even though I struggle a lot T T)

- Knitting

- LipTints / MakeUp in General 

- Twitter

- The Color Brown

- Gummy Worms

- Playing BTS Universe Story

- Paintings

Well, I don’t know what else to say. But I hope you have a good day mwah. 

#amidle #myfriend #lauvyou

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Untitled, from “i-jusi”, Mark Kannemeyer, June 2010, Minneapolis Institute of Art: Contemporary Art

three rectangles in horizontal rows, each with drawings of stylized faces–three in top and bottom rectangles, four in center rectangle; black and white i-jusi is the name of an internationally renowned, experimental South African graphic design magazine edited and published by graphic artist Garth Walker. Roughly translated as “juice” in Zulu, i-jusi was first released in 1995, one year after the end of apartheid in South Africa, as a cultural and artistic response to the country’s newly established democratic state. For 15 years, i-jusi has encouraged South African artists to remove themselves from the influence of Western aesthetics and create “a visual language rooted in the African experience.” At its very core, the publication asks the question, “What makes me African'” The i-jusi Portofolio features examples of the most iconic images by South African artists who contributed to the magazine during its run, including David Goldblatt, Anton & Mark Kannemeyer, Brandt & Conrad Botes, Brode Vosloo, and Pieter Hugo. The portfolio consists of 10 lithographs, each signed by the artist, which were selected by designer Garth Walker and art publisher and gallerist Gavin Rooke. The portfolio is a survey of i-jusi’s long history as well as a condensed visual documentary of South Africa’s artists as they journey through the aftermath of apartheid. Size: 12 7/8 x 9 in. (32.7 x 22.86 cm) (image) 19 15/16 x 13 in. (50.64 x 33.02 cm) (sheet) Medium: Lithograph

https://collections.artsmia.org/art/109888/

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Virgil Finlay (1914-1971), “Famous Fantastic Mysteries”, Vol. 5, #4, 1943 Source

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My comeback

I didnt think I would return so soon, but Tumblr is addicting. I guess I missed my 2 followers and my 1 anonymous friend </3

Also, @stevetoppsculpture, thanks for liking 2 of my posts 💋

#finally famous #comeback