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Hope

Hope is great but was never enough

Look deeply into your shadowy hopes

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The enemy

The other you ,"toi" the suffering

Longing for release

Looking for my eye

You are the black and the blue

You are your enemy

The shadow

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To get it all out

All of it

Nothing should remain

end of this suffering .

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Sorry and not sorry

Never felt sorry for being with you

Licking you was my best thing

You so delicious .

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Happiness

It was never a proof of anything

Need to make it go slow

Need to lift the veil

Am not feeling alright at all

Why all this ?

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Truly hard to love for real,dont you all just fill your egoes

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Persue what's beautiful ?

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Suffering am lost in it .

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I have been bad to some people .

And i regret it

I dont.totaly regret it cause i know i do regret it for the sake of me ,my ego wants to get clean in an easy way, i know i did bad ,now i wanna fix it .

I am sorry for it

But being sorry isn't just the way to go

I need to face why have i been bad to them why have i lied about my affection and love

I wanna make it the fault of my feelings ,that we are stupid and wz always make bad decisions ,but down deep i know therr is the why .

I need to fuck cause am a sick fuck ?

I see that alot around are sick fucks and sick fucks arent realy bad anymore .

My sexual drive and my want to coopilate with as many female partners as i need

I deserve it .some liked it.

But whats my feeling toward it for real

Yes maybe that was love but i dont wanna be possessed by somebody else .

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In need of no acceptance from anybody

Thats how it should go .

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No.panic nothing worth worrying about

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Need to face it ,need to find it,need to merge it

Need to feel it

Need to see it

Need to hear it

Need to...

To touch it

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Never thaught that u can actualy hide from your self.

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Always hiding my feelings of time wasted of unfinished dreams ,of ...

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The ego be like

Look am fucked up but am great .

Look at me people how great i am in being fucked

Always wanting to be praised

You have nothing to complain about bitchh

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Donnt hurt others cause you are hurt

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Am a pussy and i have always been

I have been good cause i have been weak thats the worst kinds of being good

Now i wanna bz good cause i am strong

And also i wanna be bad

Why am i not bad

I have been bad to my close ones ,i need to stop that .