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#mood #the strugge is real

[shaadowdemon007]

Dear John

I listened to your voicemail again. I cried for an hour afterwards. I miss being called "kiddo". But it gave me the energy I needed to get some cleaning done. I'm taking a break and raising a cup of coffee to you. I'll drink a beer for you when the work is done

#griefjourney

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[shaadowdemon007]

Dear John

This has been a really rough shift tonight. The girl I found in the bathroom was drugged and possibly raped and I've been responding to a lot of those calls and it's breaking my heart. You were always the first one I would talk to about it and could vent to and now you're not there to listen and it's breaking me

#i need you #emslife #nightshift

[shaadowdemon007]

Today's mood

nope.

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I want to be here

Today at Johnston Creek, AB, Canada Follow @travelgurus for more

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I try really hard to fold up shirts and place them neatly on the rack if I don't want them

i saw this girl trying to fold a shirt at a store the same way the employees do for like fifteen minutes and those are the only valid customers 

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Dear John

I've been doing a lot better. I've been laughing a lot more. Like really laughing at things, not just using laughter to force myself to be ok. I still miss you terribly and wish I could have done a lot of things differently but I'm accepting it

#griefjourney #getting better

[shaadowdemon007]

Dear John

It's been just over 3 weeks since I've said my final goodbye to you but it still hurts. I try my best to take one day at a time but I still need to take some time out of my day to let my emotions out and cry for a bit

[shaadowdemon007]

Relationship Goals

I live for the nights we spend on the couch together holding each other's feet and watching football and sports center... smoking our Juuls and drinking gin

#home & lifestyle #happy #what really matters

[shaadowdemon007]

Relationship Goals

He watches sports center...I play on Tumblr and Twitter

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Coffee

Today was the first day that I was able to drink a cup of coffee and not cry

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my s/o is cute and talented rb if ur s/o is cute and talented

[shaadowdemon007]

“Still feigning death on the ground, he understood. Narcissa knew that the only way she would be permitted to enter Hogwarts, and find her son, was as part of the conquering army. She no longer cared whether Voldemort won.”

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I love being clean but it takes so much effort

why is taking a shower so tiring

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Just because you have left that toxic situation, doesn’t mean you’re automatically healed and shouldn’t care anymore. It’s okay if you still care. Give it time to work through.

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Enjoying tea in my new mug from @malintatherian!! Thank you for coming up to visit and always being there for me🖤 (at Pine Hills, Albany, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpzlBACnDazGrPRHa4IioESuqKIaX3jMrIHPLI0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fsel8zc3kw9v