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sexy-leaks · 2 years

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Don’t trust the Sexyversity Dev Team.

So at some point the leak got taken down. That's fair. This account was kindaaa an emotionally charged impulse decision. I think I'm doing way better now mentally! However I still don't trust the sexyversity devs lmao

It honestly was kinda shitty of me to say they're bad and refuse to elaborate. So here's a rough callout post, copy pasted from a DM conversation with someone:

CONTENT WARNINGS FOR ABLEISM, EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION, AND GENERAL TOXIC FRIENDSHIP BEHAVIOR

Essentially what they did comes down to two main members: Ellis (twistedpictures/ghostbox/hostbox/sicklywhitedudes) and Billy (skulleybilly, seems to be deleted and i can’t find any of their other accounts anymore). Other members joined in on shit as well but those two are the ones I specifically remember. This all took place in our friend group servers, as I was part of the friend group that works on Sexyversity. Hell, before this all went down I was even in the private Sexyversity Discord and planning to contribute as a team member. That’s why I had all that material related to the game.

First of all, there was a specific member who was kicked out of the group before me, who I'll call S to protect their identity. As far as I know, S *was* a shitty person, and deserved to be kicked out of the group. They would constantly try to get people involved in bi/pan discourse, even if those people weren't bi or pan. But Ellis (twistedpictures) and Billy and several other people would shit talk S once they were banned. constantly to the point of it getting incredibly weird.

It made several people even feel unsafe because they would get worried that they would be talked about this way even if they left willingly. I know this because I've talked to one or two other people who left.

Second of all, what they did to me personally.

Tl;dr I posted an image unspoilered that should have been spoilered, people started posting shit like "UH" and a bunch of awkward emojis and I didn't understand what was wrong bc I have ADHD and probably Autism, eventually they asked me upfront to delete it. So I did as soon as I was asked and then asked if in the future they could be more upfront with me from the start since I struggle to take a hint, and then Billy announced that the server was being deleted "because yall couldn't behave" and that they would migrate to a new one!

I asked if it was because of me, and Billy completely blew up on me, telling me that I was part of the problem and shit. Me and a few other people tried to tell them that we can't keep ignoring our friend group's issues and deleting and remaking servers (we went through like 3 or 4 servers across several months) and Billy legit told me, (quoting this from a screenshot,) "shut the fuck up". that was the entire message

They started basically treating me like an awful person for needing it pointed out to me that the original image wasn't okay to send, at one point someone else said "you shouldnt need constructive criticism on how to be a human being" and those words rlly stuck with me.

By the end Ellis was saying shit like "well SOME OF US are just here to have a fun time, you shouldn't be so invested in an internet discord server" (not an exact quote bc I don't have any screenshots unfortunately and I can't remember well, it wasn't quite that hostile tbh) and like. I struggle with social interaction severely. Yeah I'm terminally online but we are literally exiting a Global Pandemic and I have no irl friends and you expect me to take being booted from my primary friend group well???

And yeah, they deleted the whole server, and made a new one where I wasn't invited.

The funny part? Once several months prior I was venting in there about being concerned about getting compared to S, and Billy legit dmed me to be like "i think you're really nice if it makes you feel better!! uwu"

I know a few other people who were booted in a similar fashion to me after being led along for long periods of time as well, but I'm not sure if they'd be comfortable with me talking about them.

I have some screenshots. I don't have everything and I know screenshots can be faked, but it's the best I have since they delete servers so often

i have a lot and some of them are a little redundant bc i was really emotional at the time and just kept screenshotting everything i could think to screenshot until i started forgetting. I have to censor them bc 1. i wanna protect my identity at least somewhat and 2. billy uses a different name in these screenshots and i have no idea if they consider it a deadname or smthing so I just wanna be safe

billy is wilson tit supremacist with the lesbian dont starve pfp. ellis is ghostbox (another handle they use sometimes)

for context the drawing, in more specific terms, was a drawing by a controversial teenage deviantartist where an angel girl in a bikini is drawn sitting dead on the floor next to a plague doctor looking character. there's no gore beyond a pool of brown and gray liquid beneath them that might be blood, but the girl's legs are bent at an slightly unnatural angle, and she's pale and her eyes are out of focus. It's been on deviantart for years without a mature filter + I'm desensitized to most edgy art by young artists so that's why I was so careless at the time. I understand now that not everyone is fine with seeing that sort of thing.

If you are old enough to handle suggestive art and drawn gore/death and are curious about the exact image, it can be found here. Suggestive/Death warning: https://www.deviantart.com/spritecranbirdie/art/the-raven-reaper-818131474

i know I'm leaving a ton of the phone elements but i feel like those things are harder to fake so i feel better leaving them in

this was when they posted in announcements abt the server being deleted

this ones a doozy bc then they blow up on some other poor soul for trying to also problem solve

i get that there were other reasons for nuking the server but like. did those other reasons seriously force them to blow up on at least two people and shut down anyone trying to make things better

bonus lightning round: stuff that's not quite part of the big fight but still kinda weird:

a moment from billy that felt like a slap to the face

mentions of S around the time the server was deleted. keep in mind he was booted fairly early on into this specific server's lifetime, he mainly was a part of the servers that came and died before this one. yet there are around 839 results. S' name was a word but all of the top mentions were him specifically so take that as you will

and finally, the time billy came in my dms to comfort me.

I’m not saying that anything I did is justified. But does being a flawed person justify a group of people emotionally manipulating me into trusting them, then as soon as I slip up, being ableist towards me because I couldn’t pick up on their social cues? I don’t think so.

Throughout my life, I’ve tended to have very few friends at any given time, but I’ve had very strong emotional attachments to each of them. My friendships don’t usually last long, so I become especially attached when they begin to become long-term, like this friend group did. But I also have bad trust issues (which were reinforced by this incident) I’ve long suspected I have some sort of underlying mental illness related to my social issues.

On top of this, we are recovering from a global pandemic. Many people struggled for the past couple of years to socialize irl, and turned to Discord and social media.

For me, and many other people, Discord friend groups aren’t just some silly side attraction, they’re our main source of social interaction. Maybe that makes us terminally online, but I don’t really care, because at least for me, it’s either this or no social interaction, period.

I told these people multiple times about my mental health issues and neurodivergence, and yet they still acted like this, treating me like an idiot or inhuman for making strong bonds and being a little dense in the process. I just don’t think that’s okay.

On top of this, again, I’m not the only person they ganged up on. And no, I’m not talking about S. I won’t elaborate because I don’t know all the details and it’s not my story to tell, but two people continued to be friends with me afterwards, and were both booted from the group shortly after me for unrelated, but completely unjustified, reasons.

Please don’t trust the Sexyversity dev team. Or sicklywhitedudes, or the Sexypedia wiki admins, because people from Sexyversity also manage those pages.

Thank you for reading.

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sexy-leaks · 2 years

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A Post I Have Considered Making For Several Months

A few months ago, I was finally booted from a toxic friend group that part of me is tempted to say often bordered on cult-like at times. Maybe I’m exaggerating when I say that second part, but the group definitely was not healthy, and left me with lasting trauma.

This group is working on a project that is fairly popular on both Tumblr and Twitter. Sexyversity, a Tumblr Sexyman dating sim. It’s incredibly painful to see people praising the content made by the people who have caused me several months of depression and anxiety. Maybe this is a dumb emotionally charged decision, but I’ve been considering doing something like this for quite a while:

Contained within the link below is essentially every bit of Sexyversity content that I still have access to. This is a surprising amount, considering the rest of the dev team never blocked my google account from the folder. Much of it was added after I was kicked, in fact. I won’t lie, I’m doing this because I need payback for what I went through.

The Sexyversity Leaks

I’m sorry that this isn’t an actual fleshed out callout post, but tons of stuff that could have been evidence has been lost due to the Sexyversity devs habit of constantly deleting and remaking servers. On top of this, while multiple people were harmed by them, I’m only one person taking action, and I have a poor and flawed memory. I’m nervous I’ll get something wrong or that a callout post would simply be “well I remember that so-and-so might have said they think heterophobia is real” (just an example I don’t actually remember anything like that) or some other claims with no backup. If people are interested I’ll get to work at attempting a callout, but keep in mind that it might not be the best.

On one hand, I want to see justice for myself and the other victims of the Sexyversity staff. I have confirmed that I am not the only one who was left with a horrific experience of them. I will be leaving the other victims anonymous and avoid mentioning them much unless they are okay with it.

On the other hand, I genuinely think dwelling on the past is harmful for my mental health, even if it feels good momentarily. So I’m going to set myself some ground rules for this account:

1. Do not force myself to post here. Only post here if I feel genuinely comfortable doing so.

2. Stop posting here if it gets no attention. I don’t want to obsess over these people for no reason. If this plan isn’t working, it stops.

3. Try to be as honest as I can comfortably be with people. I will try to protect my identity, especially during these first few posts, but I’ve done some bad things too and sooner or later I need to admit them. Admitting these things will likely give away my identity, so I’m waiting until I feel safe and ready, but hopefully if people are interested I will eventually share.

Thank you for reading.

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