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SO as i was saying. this is just me rambling based on my incomplete memories of whichever episodes jimmy novak was in (was it like two eps or smthg? around season 5? anyway i havent rewatched them since 2015) but like LITERALLY im obsessed with him. like. hes just Some Guy hes literally just a dude. got a wife and a kid, devout christian, probably quietly homophobic/in the closet/both. i can see with my minds eye that he has a green ish 1995 honda civic. hes ur kinda nice and discreet neighbor who does the white people smile and vaguely waves at you when u see him take out the trash. smthg about the fact that he has a wedding ring (obviously) absolutely murders me for some unknown reason. BUT ALSO!!!!!!! a literal. LITERAL angel of the Lord Himself communicates with him OUT OF ALL PEOPLE ON EARTH and he sjfjjs just goes along with it. barely,,.,.questions it...........,.,doesnt hesitate a MINUTE to stick his ARM!!!!!!!!!!!! in BOILING WATER!!!!! because Angel Told Him To Do It. and then he agrees to become the vessel for this unknown terrifyingly powerful supernatural force of the universe without questions he just says "take care of my family" liek zjfbskd are christians just Like That or like. anyway hes the true blueberry shot man i adore him unironically

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Shattered at the altar of Winchester

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cas was fantastic because supernatural was about american men and being cool and tough and drinking beer and eating burgers and knowing about pop culture. but then cas shows up and he is tougher and older and has fought more battles and can drink more than sam or dean ever could, and he doesn’t give a fuck. all his power is just a vehicle to get what he really wants which is to look after bees and parent his kids and spend time with the man he loves. it’s often played for a joke but all those jokes accidentally made it canon that a sincere, nurturing queer man can beat the heroes of the story in every benchmark of traditional male success. that’s why he made the show great and that’s why the cw wanted him dead

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Dean, watching Cas carve an angel banishing sigil on his chest and take on 5 angels point blank: What’s it called when you’re scared of your own boyfriend ?

Sam, watching the same thing: wisdom.

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Sam: Stop, I’m claustrophobic

Jack: What’s claustrophobic mean?

Castiel: I think it means he’s afraid of Santa Claus

Dean: HO HO HO

Jack: STOP IT DEAN YOU’RE SCARING HIM

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girl wtf.. sam not knowing about “the dean cave” in the scoobynatural ep and dean showing it to him and pointing out that it specifically has 2 RECLINERS & alluding to the fact that he watches movies there and then when cas returns to the bunker later in the ep he………… immediately heads down……………… to the dean cave……………………. which sam doesnt know about…………………. in a universe where dean and cas have had canonical movie nights…………………………… maybe scoobynatural DID give me my rights

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PAUSE ONE MORE TIME

Let’s also remember Dean tried to repeat what he prayed out to Cas and Cas said “you don’t have to say it, i heard your prayer” but didn’t say i love you back and THIS was Dean’s face 

this reaction makes so much more sense now

ok merry christmas y’all bye

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I just spent way too much time to this… BUT! I took pictures of my mouth while saying “I love you” (and drew over them, because sharing close ups of my mouth.. well, nope.) These are the biggest mouth shapes that I made. And what we need to keep in mind is that I spoke slowly, making clear shapes with my mouth and in real life people don’t talk like that, we are lazy, we don’t make every letters shape with our mouth, we let them melt together, as long as we can make the sounds sound about right. 

So next I went through the purgatory prayer scene frame by frame and analysed it. And, well, “I” is pretty clear to even hear, but there is clearly the bigger a sound first and from there his mouth closes a bit, helping to turn it i sound, making “I”. For L you need to lift your tongue up, the scene is pretty dark and the angle makes it even harder to see, but when you compare the frame before and the frame where the tongue is up, you can see the difference. (it’s even clearer if you flip the frames back and fort in the video). In the o sound we see very typical laziness when speaking, the mouth doesn’t actually open, like when just saying “o”, but more of just, falls to a general vowel shape, that makes the o sound possible. From there he closes his mouth further, from this angle we can’t see the position of the lips clearly, but the shape sure makes a v sound possible. And finally, before he opens his mouth again for the “I don’t know-”, his lips clearly make y/u-shape, his mouth gets small, smaller than for o, and his mouth comes forward (notice the difference in his cheeks compared to for example the v shape). 

So I’d say, you can not only hear it, you can totally see it too.

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Dean/Jensen said a faint “I love you” (1:31). I heard it and no one can convince me otherwise. NO ONE!!! And if you can’t hear it, set the speed at 0.5. I know Jensen slipped it in there. I noticed, Jensen, and I fucking love you

#merry christmas hellers

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you're a fucking baby I hope you know that

sorry i don’t take insults like that from cowards on anon try again later 

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belphegor showing up in season 15 during dean and cas’ breakup arc and ultimately being the final nail in the coffin which leads to their actual breakup is really so brilliant and for once i’m not sure if this was accidental:

“According to legend, Belphegor was sent from the Underworld by Pluto to find out if there really was such a thing on earth as married happiness. Rumor of such had reached the demons but they knew that people were not designed to live in harmony. Belphegor’s experiences in the world soon convinced him that the rumor was groundless.”

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The idea of heaven in the finale being fake is actually so smart

Imagine tricking someone into thinking they went to heaven and then being self-conscious about not actually being happy there

Like, saying "here you can have everything you ever wanted" and then not giving them anything, but instead getting a very narrow and twisted perception of their desires and warping the reality in such ways that make them feel ashamed for not being grateful, ashamed for wanting more

A gaslighting heaven would be a wonderful torture tool

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sometimes I just get the urge to inflict my suffering onto others

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As a fandom, I think we should discuss TransDean (ftm) more.

My points for this argument:

It would explain Dean being named after Deanna, and then changing it to Dean. (Then both Dean and Sam would have been directly named after their grandparents, Sam (shortened version of Samuel) and Dean originaly named Deanna)

His toxic masculinity? He felt pressured to act cis and copied his father. Felt this was the only way he could fit in, especially in the hunter society (which we all know is a bit uhhh).

Throughout the whole show he was always compared to Mary and being Sam's mother, while Sam was always paralled to John. (Meaning that John forced this role onto him as that was how he saw him)

Also compulsive heterosexuality

Does this make sense?

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“Fragile” - Digital Oil Painting

Human bodies are so fragile.

Please see the pinned post at the top of my Tumblr for my links if you’d like to help support me in saving for a safe place to live!

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turns out you can put words in any order!

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I just think about the person who lives in Latin America, who’s an avid fan of Supernatural but isn’t part of the fandom and just watches the show. I think about how for that person, they will go on about their lives believing and knowing that Destiel was officially confirmed. For that person, Castiel loved Dean and Dean said he loved Castiel back. To this person, Castiel heard someone finally say they love him before he died and they saw Dean’s bisexuality confirmed.

I think about this person and I live for them.