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Hi! I'm Kaeya from Genshin Impact and me and my Diluc are looking for Jean or anyone else close to us :) adults only please! Thanks!!

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#im albedo! #and also looking for jean. same boat shes my best friend and ive never seen one

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im wriothesley from genshin impact, looking mainly for other people from fontaine (but open to talking to anyone). please be of a similar age (im 26) - just interact with this post and ill reach out.

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#im navia & sigewinne :) #technically sigewinne is on the back burner of kinsider until release but unfortunately i feel i already know i definitely kin her

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This is Evan MacMillan from Dead by daylight.

Looking for anyone, but especially Phillip, Herman, Max and Dwight.

We are 18+

Interact with this post and I’ll message you!

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#kinsidering philip and caleb! #and i am tarhos on a technicality bc of the knight otherkinning but thats still In Question #++ one of my dear friends is dwight

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actually, holding grudges is pointless. everyone from genshin is my friend, peace and love in teyvat :) - razor

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#peace and love in teyvat :)

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A warning for anyone in the kin community. I was originally against posting her username publicly as this was just a vent for my friends to see, but after recent events I believe everyone has the right to know who they are dealing with. Her usernames are at the end of this post.

Original post: I have been asking her to please leave me be for 5 months, and I am desperately tired of dreading and fearing her next attack, or worrying about when she is going to go after my boyfriend or best friend again. I truly believe that the only way she is ever going to leave me alone is if I air this out so that everyone knows the truth and she has nothing left to lie about. She has not once, in 5 months of me offering, been able to provide a single thing that I did to deserve this beyond "you blocked me". I am also posting my responses to her for complete transparency in our interactions.

This post is a huge mess and wildly out of order, I am just throwing it all here.

If this snowballs into further harassment, then I am deleting my account entirely. This situation has put me through unbelievable levels of stress, hurt, pain, and I have tried to be as tolerant and patient as I can. It is now 2024 and I am extremely over dealing with this.

I do not want anyone referring to this as kin drama or discourse. This is ongoing harassment. I sincerely doubt anyone will see this or care. This is for my own peace of mind that I am finally speaking up, and my last possible resource as my 5 months of asking her to leave me alone if she cannot treat me like a real person has not worked. I have kept this private for 5 months, I have tried to handle this in DM's, my boyfriend and best friend have both tried to put a stop to it. Nothing has worked.

To you: if you intend to reach back out to me in the future, read this first. Read it again. Read every single vile, horrible, cruel thing you have spammed me with and ask yourself if you are going to repeat it if I fail to respond in a single day or in the way that you want. I do not believe that anything is going to get through to you and you are going to continue to pretend that this is a malicious game specifically to spite and hurt you instead of taking any sort of accountability or a true look at yourself and how you are jeopardizing your future. I do not think that you view me as a living person, I genuinely feel like in your eyes I do not breathe think or feel which is why it is so easy for you to hurt me.

You betrayed my trust, you wasted my patience and chances, you hurt me, you mocked me for crying when you hurt me. I do care about you. I do want you to leave me alone. I do not want to or deserve to suffer in silence from this constant onslaught. I still want the best for you and I still take steps to ensure none of this gets back to your main account so that you still have a space to yourself. You deserve safety as much as I do, but you have never given me that and I no longer want to take it on complete faith that you will one day learn that other people are as real as you are. If it is easier to continue hating me and pretend that I am not who I say I am instead of reflecting, then do it, but do it alone.

A few months ago, she messaged me a bunch of cruel things and I told her that I would do this. That has repeated a few times where I have told her to stop messaging me or I would post this. It is clear now that she believes I never will and that there are no consequences to her actions, so.

I have taken the time to calm down and decided against acting impulsively. Instead, I am going to offer you an ultimatum and warning. If you contact me again, including any of my friends or my boyfriend, I will be publicly posting every DM log and videos of all of your messages, my messages, the anonymous asks, and my friends responses. Aside from yourself, everyone in this situation has been unfaltering in their patience and decorum with you. I have never said one bad word against you save for my one and only tumblr post, but I have consistently swallowed every single hurtful insult you have spewed at myself and my friends. I am aware of what [best friend] messaged you and I am aware of the cruelty towards us both that you showed in response. I am aware of how much you hate me and how you really think about me and view me. I do not believe that you understand what you have done when you still attempt to conflate your behaviour with 'not adhering to person/kin' and my response as being 'spiteful and immature', and claiming that none of this actually happened and that I am making it all up.

I have since decided to protect her identity anyway because I am not trying to isolate her, punish her, or send harassment her way. I just want to be left alone.

Anyway. Sorry to anyone reading this from a phone, and godspeed with zooming in.

I blocked her after this (a week into knowing her), after I had asked her a few times to please treat me with respect. That is what kicked it off.

For transparency, these were the majority of our interactions for the week that I knew her. Literally just constantly reassuring her, which is fine and I am perfectly okay and happy to do. It was when she began swearing at me and lashing out at me that it became a problem, which resulted in me blocking her in the above messages.

She guilted me into not telling anyone which is why I kept it private for this long.

A while later, she joined a different server that I was already apart of and reached out to let me know that it was unintentional. I said it was completely fine for her to stay there. For 10 minutes at most, I was talking to a server member about my car. I had never interacted with that person before, it was our one and only conversation. She immediately sent this (purple) to me, and later this (white) to Xander. No one demoted to her to a 'sad loser' pile, the server was practically inactive and she never talked within it. No one pushed her away or shut her down.

I no longer have the screenshot of the message itself, so take this with a grain of salt, screenshots of the conversation between my best friend and I.

Xander typo'd the above, it was indeed 'gut', not 'get'. Aymr is a Fire Emblem weapon. Anyway, due to that I confronted her with this.

I blocked her so she went back to Xander. I took a screen recording of it but have removed the first (several) minutes out of this and there are jump cuts where I removed sensitive IRL information out. I do not think anyone will watch this entire video so I want to point out some telling things she has sent to both of us.

Admitting that I had been asking her for respect 'the entire time' alongside completely invalidating everything by saying I am not a victim in this. I seriously do not consider myself a victim of her but her language is telling. 'You all' refers to myself, my best friend, and my boyfriend. There was never one big group relentlessly attacking her.

Here are misc, out of order screenshots. Long screenshot here and here. (I did not ban her from the server, I am not an admin. She was banned for spamming invalidation and harassing other members.)

She sent this to me after I posted a ramble about disliking a random book series. I obviously never stabbed her, I have never met her IRL, we live in different countries. I do not know what she was talking about.

This was me venting to my boyfriend about it, for timestamps and to show that I have genuinely never wanted anything other than to be left alone and for her actual peace and calm. Here and here are the full versions of the screenshots (within a screenshot). I do not remember what upset me this much but I do remember crying for a few days over something that she had said (within the 50+ hostile messages). I do not have a screenshot of this so again, take it with a grain of salt, but at one point she called me a 'grown man crying' during the anniversary of my assault trauma, so it could have been that. Either way, it was pointlessly cruel to tell me.

This is @ chandelure-sonata I have changed my mind and decided to start exposing her usernames every time that she spams another one of my loved ones telling them to die. No safe space for people like this. You can call this a callout now 🤷‍♂️

@ iceymaidneva, chandelure-sonata, harlequinade1, intothenight12. If she changes them you can find the new ones from any of the messages she sent to me on this blog.

What I want out of this post: I want to be left alone. I want her out of my life. I want her to stop telling myself and my friends to kill themselves. I want her to stop telling people who do nothing but like my posts to die. I want people to know what they are going into if they elect to befriend her. I want people to be aware that she has done this for years, harassed, stalked, used people's IRL information and safety against them, gone after their friends and partners. She will do it to you, too. I want to be left alone, and I want people to know that she will not stop with me just as she did not stop with those before me. As I have been asking for 6 months: leave me alone.

#reblogging bc i interact with a lot of fire emblem kins #if she sees this reblog then hello. i do not know this person and am not an avenue to get to them. i just think this is vile #beloved fe mutuals be aware to block

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Hi! I’m kin with Lumine / The Traveler from Genshin Impact. Looking for really anyone, I’m not exactly picky. Still trying to figure out my canon. In general I just want to meet more Genshin kins. Thank you! 🌟

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#i have so many genshin kins traveller simply take your pick /lh #albedo is the main one though :)

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Hi! I'm kin with Nahida from Genshin Impact! I'd most like to meet the traveler (mine was Aether, but I'm happy to speak with Lumine, too!), Paimon, Apep, the aranara, Rukkhadevata, Cyno or anyone else from Sumeru, but I'm more than happy to speak with anyone who remembers me! I already know my Wanderer, but if any others just want to chat I'm also open to that! Doubles are also loved! Like/reblog and I'll contact to you! But 18+ only, please!

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#im nilou!! #<- and also nahida to a lesser extent. we love twinning

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hello, i am ferdinand von aegir (lolz) from fire emblem three houses. looking for the black eagles, i was closer to dorothea, edelgard and hubert. be 18+ as well if you interact, since i’ll reach out to whoever does, tysm.

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#im linhardt :) among a handful of others

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Hi! Someone in a kincord server im in made this survey directed at kin folk from Genshin Impact!! If this applies to you she would appreciate you filling it out :3

#pretty please make sure the someone posts the stats i love stats

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Hi! I'm (spiritual) kin with Guizhong from Genshin Impact. I'd like to speak with anyone else, but please only people aged 18+, as I am in my 20s! Like/Reblog and I'll get back to you :)

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#waves #i kin havria! #and my close friend kins zhongli

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Xiao from Genshin Impact. Looking for anyone, especially Venti. We were close.

Be 19+ thank you.

Like / reblog and I'll get ahold of you.

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#waves #venti is among my many genshin kins #ive got a close friend who kins zhongli also!

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thinks about every kin call jve ever rt’d. how often i also add my friebds kins to tags. funny

#its ok i know my friends love when i put them in gcs with strangers i find on the internet #my posts

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Hi! I'm Kaveh from Genshin Impact, really looking for Alhaitham Tighnari and Cyno! But of course I'm open to anyone else that's looking for me :> I'm 21+ so only other adults for interacting!!

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#extremely vague feeling ive rt’d one of your calls before but #hi im tighnari (unfortunately). i know 3 cynos. Send help. but i also double kaveh (small kin) so int at your own comfort

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hi, i am wanderer/scaramouche from genshin impact, looking for kazuha specifically but anyone else familiar with me is welcome too! be an adult if you interact, i am 18+ and will contact.

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#i have many a genshin kin but the only one i have memories of scara for is nilou! #<- i have a friend who kins kazuha also (not clickbait for making friends) (hes used to me throwing him into gcs with strangers so if youd #like i will put you in contact)

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clearing my storage and found these

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hi! i saw your blog around on kin finder blogs - i'm kin with a couple genshin characters, this is my main but my kin blog is @statealchemistelric!

hi! im so sorry i didnt see this until now!!

tumblr is being absolute hell about trying to message from a sideblog but you can add my discord .calcite if youd like :)

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why is my carrd dead… h??

#my posts