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Through Google I came across your 2017 post about Regina Spektor`s gayest songs. I'm listening to her newest album and there's a song called one man's prayer. Shit's gay. Not necessarily healthy gay but. It's gay as fuck.

i really thought this was going to be a spam message, so this message is a nice surprise. what a blast from the past! i wish the song didn't have such incel energy but ty for letting me know

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fatal flaw in this plan. i don’t know how to be normal

ok i think im done being crazy now. everyone wish me luck i’m going to be normal now

#weekends are now just.s o bad

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been getting really into bed lately

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ok i think im done being crazy now. everyone wish me luck i’m going to be normal now

#step one of being normal isbrushing my teeth #step two is trying to write more (i.e. any) of this assignment

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hey, sorry for posting just when im going through it, but do you guys have any tips for getting over something that deeply affects you but there is literally nothing you can do about it and you just need to get over it because thats kind of the only option other than feeling bad about it forever

#thank you have a nice day

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I’m obsessed with your header picture. Do you happen to know what flowers those are?

sorry i have no idea! does anyone else know?

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i love poetry so much but i will never be able to write it because i feel like.. it would definitely be all the bullshit blood flowers skin soft tender teeth etc words that everyone makes fun of at Least in the beginning and i am too prone to embarrassment for it to ever work. art for me is like. i think the most detached from my own personal emotion (it still has some, but mostly just that a lot of it is gay, so that feels like a vulnerability in a way), then fiction is the next one, because wow i have a hard time showing that to people, but poetry is like. i don’t think i can even stand to be the only one reading it. just the act of writing it would be too much i think. yes i am overthinking this but maybe its goodto have an interest i just consume and don’t produce.

#i just don't want peopleto read it and be like. ugh. #i find poetry so like. incredibly moving. i just dont think i can replicate it in any way that is meaningful

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lads

#sorry for only posting on here when i'm going through it but. lads. ia m going through it

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hey, random question, can i hear some of ur bucket list items?? also ur goals for 2022! this is genuine interest i like hearing about this stuff

#self improvement etc #i dunno how many of u guys r even active still! but if u r reply tot he post or smth!

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the fight between cutting down my book from its crazy long length (like 160k) vs the fight of keeping in my favourite scenes. 

#truly if i cut some of the romance scenes that r less plot important #then their romance stops being believeable and starts being confusing and happening too quick #and if i cut the plot stuff that isnt as relevant as the other plot stuff. it means the reader is going to be kind of confused #because later stuff is going to happen that is ORIGINALLY foreshadowed but now might come out of nowhere #WHAT IS THE SOLUTION HERE???? #Maybe i just say fuck it. im not looking to publish right now anyway. and just cut it down based on actual extraneous scenes / too long ch #apters #and then after ive had people read it and gotten feedback i can see what to do

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ok im gonna do a more formal post later but i have finished the second draft of my book (featuring the characters you’ve seen me drawn for the past few years) and i am looking for beta readers. so if you have any interest in my characters, hmu! i am looking for someone who can at least read the first act, which is 40k, so if that’s too big of a commitment, then that is completely cool. im planning on having the beta readers read it over like. at least five months to give everyone enough time with life and everything. anyway, cheers

#i also am down to do a beta swap and read ur work

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consider: it's rosevriskanrezi... and June comes to visit

this ask was such a blast from the past yet i got it today?? yesterday?? i have not drawn homestuck fanart for three years. when i read june i thought you were saying it was like. american summer.

#anyway ive considered it and i think 5 ppl is too many for a ship

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tattoos look so hot but i am cursed to never get them because 1) i would definitely find something wrong with the design due to the way my brain works and it would be on me forever 2) i think it would have to be personal and the only thing i like tattoos of are like plants which aren’t really personal at all and therefore not worth it and 3) it seems like im heading towards a career in finance and i am already pushing my luck with my short hair and how i am so obviously a lesbian

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i need to get more emotion and meaning into my art i think. i think maybe part of the reason ive been feeling so lifeless about it is that it is pretty much just me doing a collage of already existing photos and mashing them together. but i also dont know how to do that except in really like. basic and almost meaningless ways because i feel like they would also be fake and not help. i really like rendering skin but i think maybe my art should be about something?? but also i like drawing just girls kissing? i love looking at other peoples art and ive been liking looking at traditional art lately too but literally like. is it worth all the time to create something that already exists and doesn’t even really mean anything other than like ‘pretty’?

#im sorry i have this crisis like every month #i think the question really is like can i live my life without making art #because if i follow this instinct and i just stop drawing. what does that mean for how long i spent doing it. like yes it is just because #i was/am indescribably. indescribeably? lonely. and i spent all my time doing it and staying inside my room #and now i have this skill that i dont know if it genuinely improves my life or if i enjoy or not #so its like what do i DO with it? do i just say fuck it i guess those years were a waste?? #am i doing anything else worthwhile with my time??? is it the same result if i watch youtube videos all day vs if i draw something?? #they both have a similar end result of nothing really changing or mattering #AH #i should really go see a therapist or something but money

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i love my story and my characters so much...

#like i cannot wait for other people to find out about them. will they care? probably not #but SOME people might and i can talk about my characters with them

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all the things i did, just so i could call you mine

#all the things you did! well i hope i was your favourite criiiiiiiiiiiiiiiime!!!! #cause baby you were mine!

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all the things i did, just so i could call you mine

#my art #original art #original characters #yasmeen #vera #for all of you who saw me post about the reference pic...no you didnt