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Food log

5/16/24

+70 mini croissant

+266 ham, Gouda, Hawaiian roll

+65 half a rice krispy treat

Net 401

I completely forgot to post this yesterday sorry :(

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"Here i have a present for you" *hands me a rice krispy treat*

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Also i can't use Twitter rn

Someone was struggling to fast and i told them not to worry about it you can "still loose without fasting" i didn't realize how easy it was for that to happen lmao

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Uh crazy fat ugly fucking legs check but at least my stomach looks ok

my lower legs are so weird you can't see them

I actually despise these fuckers why am i built like this

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Unfortunate build

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Food log

+150 cookie

+140 egg, cauliflower rice, kimchi

Net 290

Chat am i loosing my mind or is it just pms i didn't even smoke today and i still fucking forgot everything that happened istg it's like nothing registers in my brain. I didn't sleep last night, and i was up all day and yet it still feels like i wasn't fucking conscience throughout any of it. Shit like this makes me think I'm not real literally was just staring at the wall most of the time

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Food log

+130 matcha

+150 cookie

+???? Tocos

+binge

Net ???

My memory is getting so bad i barely remember anything from this morning. I don't remember most of what happened today actually

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I always hated how skinny i was when i was younger

But once i started getting bigger i realized how much i missed being thin

~hw vs cw

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Food log

+50 coffee

+250 Chocolate croissant

-180 walked for 15 minutes and some ab workouts but i got bored

+135 Egg and cauliflower rice

1,460 steps

Net 255

i also don't believe i actually burned that much exercising it doesn't make sense for the amount of time i spent on it

I'm so fucking bored it's not even funny

Everything is just SO boring and it's pissing me off like weed barely helps anymore. Why is everything so fucking boring i hate it it's like I'm waiting for something to be interesting but nothing ever is. I get bored exercising i get bored watching videos and movies and shows the only thing that isn't boring is splatoon AND I DIDNT EVEN FUCJING PLAY TODAY BECAUSE I WAS TOO UNMOTIVATED TO ACTUALLY PLAY

I can't do anything i don't want to do anything i feel like I'm rotting and i feel like I'm on autopilot all the time i feel weirdly fat and i don't understand why i think I'm 109 when i weighed in at 104 yesterday i know I'm probably 106 but guess the fuck what I'm so unmotivated that i won't go downstairs to weigh myself I'm fucjing sick of this and i don't even want to change it because that requires effort and i don't WANT TO

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Food log

5/12/24

+440 cinnamon roll

200 steps..

Net 440

I forgot how much cinnamon rolls are and that just ended up being Omad because i Dont have much left

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Food log

5/11/24

+65 coffee

-355 walked for 46 minutes

+290 Veggie spring rolls and tofu soup

+80 popcornnnnnnn

5,915 steps

Net 80

I think tofu is my new safe food :)

So yesterday i weighed 109lbs and today i weighed 104lbs not sure what that was about but at least we're down. I'm not gonna update my cw yet just to make sure i actually maintain yk ?

sorry these logs have been dry as hell I've been kinda out of it recently. Don't want to do much of anything it's like I'm floating all the time tbh. Nothings really bad or good it just is, everything just is. I don't think I'm real

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Food logs

5/9/24

+45 a singular timbit

+330? Biscuit's and gravy with scrambled eggs

Net 375

I ate most of the biscuit but i didn't eat any of the sausage that was in the gravy because ew. I put the gravy on my eggs :)

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5/10/24

+310 nuggets half a small fry

+220 fried red bean mochi

1,142 steps

Net 530 :(

I had two of those mochis if i only had one I'd be fine agh

Also i completely forgot to post yesterday

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+58 coffee

+250 donuts

+580 maybe? Breakfast sandwich

-purged a little but gave up

Are you fucjing dead ass ?? can i seriously not starve for two days kms actually

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Food log

+63 coffee

-200 walked to and from store

+240 cauliflower rice tofu and kimchi

+140 granola bar

+60 popcornnnn

2,060 Steps

Net 303

I'm gonna be honest I've been binging almost every day. I have my food logs written down fully at 11 pm almost every night and i go and binge.

I'm going to do this Lacey's games diet i made :7

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Food log

5/4/24

+190 deep fried pickles

-507 walked to and from drugstore

+760 an entire bag of Reese's Pieces

4,970 steps

Net 443

Idk if i should the calories burned by heart rate because that's crazy

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Food log

Being sober is lame this is my food long

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Food log

5/1/24

+240 Kraft dinner cup

+200 toast with cottage cheese and honey

471 steps

Net 440

I kinda forgot how easy it is to just not eat when you're not high. I'm not going to be smoking all to much this month, mostly because I'm running out (and i don't want to buy more) partly because i feel like I need a tolerance break

Oh also someone threatening to- call the police... on my tumblr account.. which was kinda funny i posted the dms on twitter already

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1 month apart

New pictures on the left. Old pictures on the right

Bmi 17.1 (106lbs) vs bmi 17.9 (111lbs)

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I will meet my gw by the end of this month i will be 100lbs trust

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