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More Vast!Jon head cannons for your enjoyment :)

I'll post more in a while since this week I'm kinda busy ;(

Vast!Jon AU _ 1-2-3-4-5-6-X

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Magtober Day 31 - Free Space

Local man haunts people's dreams, they don't like it. More at ten.

Happy (slightly belated) halloween all!! I give you something slightly colourful to wrap up magtober! Thank you all for your continued support <3 I personally think it's so funny that the only reason Jon is intimidating in the slightest before his smitting powers is the fact that he cannot control whether or not he haunts your dreams.

Prompt list by @emerald-emerlad for tmatober 2023! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE CHALLENGE M8 :D

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Average picnic with an average couple

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MARTIN BLACKWOOD GENTS

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Jon Martin…. kiss 🫢

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(Archivist's) curiosity killed the Peter (the laser eyes have finally come in handy)

[ID: a sketchy comic made with colored pencils, it depicts Jonathan Sims and Peter Lukas from The Magnus Archives. in the first panel Jon says "Answer me!" and Peter stares at him angrily and says "Nope!" Second panel: Jon says "die then", and there's an angry emoji, and a question mark next to Peter. Third panel is Jon turning Peter to ash with lasers coming from his eyes. /end ID]

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the fandom seemed to like him so have this one too! I decided that like drawing him. My first attempt at designing him was not very .. great. I need to think of what kind of clothes he'd wear though, that I've gotten stuck on. I think desaturated red tones work well with his pallette.

KEEP IN MIND I BARELY STARTED SEASON 3 PLEASE! I spoiled myself a ton already but I'd prefer there to be none on my posts :3

❌do not use, repost, edit, input into ai/nft, etc

✅reblogging appreciated and encouraged !!

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You see, Martin says 'I grieved for you' to Jon, but this doesn't do justice for just what he would have gone through.

As most people know, having a loved one in hospital is horrible, but Jon's case is an entirely different thing. Assuming Jon was initially taken to a hospital in Great Yarmouth, it would've taken Martin a while to get there, even if he left right away. He might have missed Jon's emergency treatment, but he certainly didn't miss the worst of it.

Many people assume that CPR is a quick, simple, lifesaving procedure, it is not. Jon was found not breathing, and without a pulse, so he would have had at least 20 minutes straight of CPR, and that messes up a body. On a person as weak as Jon it would badly break ribs, and cause a lot of bruising. Even if Martin didn't have to watch Jon's chest be crushed to no avail, that type of damage is often visible.

I don't know if you've ever seen a dead body, but it's different to an unconscious one in every way. Jon of course, was not dead, but he would absolutely look it. As I'm sure you know, blood being pumped is what keeps the body warm, and breathing accounts for a large part of what we perceive as living, so the absence of both of these, especially in a loved one, is jarring, and likely to send anyone into shock

In lots of TV shows you see doctors calling deaths, but in reality it's actually quite a difficult thing to diagnose. It's not a quick check of the pulse and you're done, there's a lot of tests; there are many conditions that can look like death. In Jon's case his mind and nerves were still active, meaning it would have been picked up on fairly quickly, but Jon would have been assumed dead until these tests were completed.

The thing with a case like this, is there's nothing the doctors can feasibly do; as Elias says, it's an unknown quantity. The most likely course of action would be to make him as comfortable as possible, and redo the death checks every so often. There would be no hope for his recovery, but legally the hospital would have to do this, and would be able to offer very little comfort.

Although of course you want your loved one to survive, many family members of coma patients confess to hoping that they'd just die. The limbo of waiting is impossible to process, and having them there but having no way to communicate with them can be excruciating. There's no way to properly grieve for someone if you always have it in the back of your mind that they could wake up.

Giving up on someone like that is terribly and awfully painful. You can tell them you're sorry all you want, but you'll always be thinking about how they'd have wanted you to stay. Having to create both sides of an interaction like that when truly you're in control of neither is simply impossible to recover from.

Every action Martin took after Jon's death was justified, logical, even. To succumb to the lonely after leaving the man you love, sentencing him to die alone?

It feels right.

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I am very bad at uploading my yarnwork... Let's do a Magnus Archives yarnwork masterpost #2, also featuring Malevolent

By the way I have commissions open now, check it out I guess.

All pixel art done by my bestie @podaliedja

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Taking a break from your (ir)regularly scheduled locked tomb content to bring you an Anabelle Cane!

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Ode to jmart AUs where they dated before, broke up, and then get back together. It was usually all Jon’s fault 💕 and yes this is a scene from ghostbusters 2

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avatars get free top surgery i guess (or just modified ones at that)

anyways i love the idea of personalized top scars sm they seem so cool

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“we’ve all got regrets. but we can’t undo what’s done.”

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ok. years have passed and we've had some distance, so i'm finally gonna take the leap of faith that tma fandom is finally ready to hear me on this. let's talk about tannins.

161 was the first tma episode i heard on early release, and i felt the bit where martin declines wine and cites tannins was pretty obvious in its implications. cool, got it, say no more.

imagine my surprise when i was one of maybe three people i saw read between the lines there, in a fandom famous for red stringing--a fandom that immediately caught the much less obvious thread of ignition sources in the same episode. i'll spell it out: alcohol is an issue for martin.

maybe it just felt obvious because addiction is a pet issue for me--as it is for jonny, who has said everything he writes is filtered through a lens of addiction. i don't know if that's due to his own experience or a loved one's, and i won't speculate; i also don't know if martin personally struggled with drinking or just avoids it for fear he would, but alcohol would fit what we know of his family. his dad walking out and his mum spiralling into bitter wallowing and verbal abuse? i'd bet one or both of them drank, yeah.

on a basic level martin tries to decline alcohol, and that alone should have raised eyebrows given what we know of martin and, again, a fandom that dissects everything. we already knew martin "K" blackwood lied about his personal life and his family in particular, especially pre-canon, which is when this flashback took place. i was shocked that everyone took his flimsy excuse at face value with no further questions.

and the excuse is flimsy. martin turns down wine by--nervously--exclaiming tannins are "a proven headache trigger!" which sounds like trivia from a magazine cover and not the words of someone who actually has headaches--and it hasn't come up before or since. jon, confused, points out that tea, a drink martin consumes to a degree that is memetic both in- and out-of-universe, also contains tannins, and martin squawks a panicked, "what?!"

if tannins are enough of a concern for martin that he knew they're in wine and so avoids it, why didn't he know they're in his drink of choice? why does he still drink tea at the time of canon, and why doesn't he struggle with constant headaches from consuming 'a proven headache trigger' day in and day out? why, indeed, would someone avoid wine and not tea?

when sasha insists martin drink he caves and agrees to 'just a drop'. i imagine him pouring it in a plant, which admittedly he could have done if tannins really were the issue. i will say that i, for one, would be less likely to falsely agree to something that makes me physically ill than to a private issue that i'd rather not be pressed on any further. this scene also establishes martin's birthday was an ice cream party instead of the more traditional visit to a pub.

also, this scene was in the first episode of the final season, as one of three flashbacks that could have been to any pre-canon event in the archives. prime narrative real estate. not really time one would waste on establishing the important character context that martin has... headaches. which never comes up before or after, even regarding the week he spent in spiral town. but you know what is pretty crucial character background...?

it felt like a no-brainer, and yet all i saw was h/c fluff about jon attending to martin's headaches. and i hate feeling bitter about disability representation. i want folks with chronic headaches to feel seen and have fluffy escapist fantasies. i don't want to be mad about people portraying a character with a disability. but, guys? you got the wrong disability. jonny sent a clear message, and it went over fandom's head.

#THANK YOU #i think this also informs martins reaction to Jon's struggle with addiction #the topic was always complicated and not totally was/was not jons fault #but martin had a sharp uptick in harshness when directly engaging with Jon's will power regarding his addiction #“you dont want to blind yourself” can easily be read in this context as “you CAN'T put serious effort into course correcting yourself” #martin just seemed so resigned to addiction being this preordained problem that jon and his loved ones have to live with #and high key resentful without ever meaningfully engaging with the topic #because meaningful engagement with jons addiction opens the door to his past baggage and we know hes avoidant to a dangerous degree #all of which im saying with sympathy to addicts and appreciation for the complexity of addiction #the irony of the century however #is that i could argue martin fell into addiction all the same #and that it manifested as compulsive lying rather than substance abuse

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leaving my hibernation to post this

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God, could you imagine if more of Gertrude’s assistants lived and worked together?

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if lena has an actual apartment and she doesn't just straight up live at the oiar, her apartment has got to be the most bare minimum apartment ever. no tv, no couch, one bed, one table, one chair. no posters. no decorations. one single fist-shaped hole in the wall. she's living like a broke college student with no friends