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( * & SIENNA !

Though her reaction could be seen as being ever so slightly fake, Sienna did deep down miss her friend. Sure, this sort of party was always her sort of thing, growing up with rich parties. Even the redhead saw just how inappropriate this whole thing was, almost tarnishing Mallory’s memory and making it all seem a joke. “It really isn’t alright though.” She sighed, looking away for a moment. “Um, like Paris, Milan, Berlin, Prague and London..She only knew about Paris, but I wanted to surprise her with more.”

—– ❀ her features shift to a softer expression, sympathy evident on her face as she draws the cup back, taking it that the offer has been politely declined.  ❛ the crying, i mean. it’s okay to be sad, ❜ she says, a thin shoulder lifting into a helpless half-shrug. sienna doesn’t owe anybody any explanation, is what ebony’s trying to say. as she begins to list the places she’d hoped to travel to with mallory, ebony can’t help but raise an eyebrow.  ❛ wow, ❜ she mutters towards the carpet, but she forces herself to focus on the other’s emotions, and not the extensive amount of money that ebony only assumes she has.  ❛ it sounds like you were a pretty great friend to her. i’m, uhm --- sorry you won’t get to go. ❜           

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( * & ROSEMARY !

rosemary didn’t smoke; well not to the point where she was addicted. vices like smoking and alcohol just cost a lot to be frank, and she didn’t see the point in wasting the money that often. sure, she drank occasionally, and when she drank, she would smoke. she had a pack in her purse because of this. she held an unlit cigarette in her hand, “what would it mater if i lit up in here?” she leaned closer to the person near her, “i have this stupid little cup to ash in and there are people plastered. i don’t think mallory would mind a little smoke.” 

—– ❀ a more considerate individual might be concerned for the preferences of the homeowner ( megan something ? morgan something ? ) so it’s a good thing a more considerate person isn’t present.  ❛ could i swipe one off you ? ❜ ebony asks, nonchalantly plucking her lighter from the safety of her bra, before offering it to the unfamiliar woman --- a silent of way of saying she doesn’t see a problem with it, encouraging her to light up. 

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hi hello sorry for being spotty as fuck today. i’m sick and a Mess so pls bear with me. but i’m gonna try and do replies and stuff ( but i’m gonna be here on and off so ! yikes ! ) and then catch up with ims and then be Here and Present ( if anyone’s around then ? who knows, timezones are wild ) 

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( * & EVIE !

evie had been smitten with mallory so being around all of these people who knew her so well, it was beyond strange. she chewed on her nail, trying not to drink, not to infringe on anyone who really knew her, more than work friends. she sighed to herself as she looked around for a life line, someone to talk to or a way to escape. “hey — do you know how to get out of here? it’s so packed i’m kind of overwhelmed.”

—– ❀ putting on a front of faux-confidence isn’t a rarity for ebony, and situations like these are no exception. does she know this enormous mansion well enough to navigate it with the certainty that she does ? absolutely not. does she do it anyway ? of course. her arm extends, offering her hand to the other to lead her out to the nearest exist.  ❛ uh-huh. c’mon, we’ll go this way. do you wanna grab some water really quick or do you just wanna get out ? ❜ she asks, wiggling her fingers, encouraging evie to take her hand.   

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( * & HARPER !

“OH   MY   GOD…this   tastes   like   poison.   This   is   definitely   NOT   an   iced   tea.”

—– ❀ as ebony’s eyebrows raise, she reaches out to pluck the glass from harper’s hand and replace it with her own.  ❛ oops ! sorry, that one’s mine. is that better ? ❜  

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( * & LANDON‌ !

landon pursed his lips in response and shook his head. who was he to judge? but then again, why would anyone show up to a party that was being thrown for a dead girl if they didn’t know her? booze did seem like the only logical answer. “so, how did you hear about the party?” he asked, curiously before taking a sip of his beverage. 

—– ❀ as his response gives ebony the impression that he, on the other hand, did know the deceased, she feels a wave of regret flood her veins, causing her head to duck for a moment, gaze on the floor.  ❛ that’s, uh, kinda the worst part, ❜ she admits once she pulls her eyes from the floor.  ❛ i had no idea it was for her. didn’t know it was her birthday. people were just kinda spreading the word, i guess. and, through the grapevine or whatever, a pretty important detail got left out, ❜ the reason why the party was taking place.  ❛ it’s pretty fucked up.❜  

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( * & EMMA !

Emma stood against the bar, siping a glass of champagne as she looked out at the party. “I told myself I wasn’t going to drink tonight, but actually being here…” The blonde trailed off as she spoke to the person beside her. “I’m not so sure I can do this whole thing sober.”

—– ❀ despite a little extra volume being necessary to be heard over the buzz of the party, ebony’s still talking too loud --- and with a pink flush to her cheeks and a stagger in her step, it isn’t hard to figure out why.  ❛ what is that, champagne ? c’mon, it hardly counts anyway. you’re fine ! if it gets you through, it gets you through. could be a lot worse. ❜

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( * & LANDON !

landon couldn’t believe she was gone. he was almost positive that no one could and the book she’d left behind almost didn’t seem real. he’d read it, more than once and he wasn’t sure if he believed it. regardless of all of that, he was here and he was positive that mallory didn’t know all of these people. “so,” he started, looking at the person next to him. “are you here for the drinks or to remember mallory?” he asked them.

—– ❀ when it’s asked like that, ebony ( even while slightly foggy-minded ) is pretty sure there’s only one correct response to such a question. it isn’t the one she gives him.   ❛ how much are you gonna judge me if i say the booze ? ❜ her green eyes shift in his direction as she asks the question that’s said in such a monotone that it’s made rather clear that she doesn’t care for the answer, either way. for no valid reason, or any reason at all, she also adds on a half lie,  ❛ didn’t even know her. ❜

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( * & JAMIE‌ !

“Seems a little strange that she’s letting anyone and their mother in,” Jamie hummed as he sipped his drink. “Feels less like a memorial service and more like a Hamptons flex…Not that I’m complaining.”

—– ❀ well, at least she’s not the only one thinking it.  ❛ says a lot that half these people don’t even know what they’re supposedly turning up to until they’re here, ❜ she agrees, although that also technically applies to her ---- needless to say, she leaves that little detail out.  ❛ i guess if my house looked like this i’d wanna show it off at any given opportunity, too, but -- y’know, it’s pretty distasteful, ❜ she says, despite partaking anyway, and assuming the night won’t end before she’s sprawled across an enormous bed in one of countless bedrooms with a stranger between her thighs. happy birthday, mallory, indeed. 

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( * & SIENNA !

Sienna hadn’t particularly wanted to go to her best friend’s would be twenty-fifth birthday, at least that’s what she told her friends and family. She was still healing, she said, mourning the loss of her best friend. She had to admit, things were different without Mallory around, she had no one to bicker with or go shopping with for hours on end. Seeing someone looking at her, she forced a smile, though a few tears fell down her face. “I..I just miss her so much. We were planning to go to Europe..”

—– ❀ upon two things, ebony is certain: she has no place being at this morbid shindig, and rich people are FUCKING AWFUL. no, if she had known what this party was actually supposed to be, she wouldn’t have attended, but the fact she hadn’t a clue sums it up quite nicely, she thinks; people are using it as an excuse to get hammered, and folks who have no business celebrating the life of a murdered girl are hearing about it through the grapevine and inviting themselves. but she’s here now, and three drinks to the wind, as although she can realise that these people are bordering on barbaric, it doesn’t make her any better than them. hand curled around her pathetic little plastic cup, she pauses as she spots a picture of pure sadness a few feet away, alone. oh, god.  ❛ hey, it’s okay, ❜ she soothes, understanding. of course people miss her. of course they do. pushing herself off the wall to take a few steps closer, ebony accepts that this is what she’s doing now. the kid’s grieving, the least she can do is humour her.  ❛ where in europe were you gonna go ? ❜ they don’t need to get into the deep, dark emotions of it all, but maybe talking might help. either that, or the alcohol that ebony's willing to share as she offers her cup to the redhead just might do the trick. 

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( FRIEND OF GRANT'S ) ebony harrison ( 24 / she/they ): demigirl & friends who seemingly clicked despite emotional distance, and acquaintance of mallory's. ( nina nesbitt ) ( PACE / 20+ / SHE/HER )

hello ! so, i’m typing this up straight after acceptance ( lmao, talk about eager ) so hopefully anything i inevitably forget, i can add between now and when this’ll actually be posted, so you actually have some decent info to work with ! but i’m pace ( which is obviously an alias but,,,, pls just call me pace ! ) and my pronouns are she/her ! and moving on to the one you actually wanna know about... 

—– ❀ okay, so !! as you can see above, ebony is a friend of grant’s ! on the surface, they seem to just ‘get’ eachother, but of course ebony is completely oblivious to who he really is and what he’s capable of. however, because ebony isn’t the most open and uhh,,, Not-Closed-Off as people, it kind of works ? in a,,,, neither of them ask too many questions kind of way ? it’s mutual, y’know ?she kind of sees him as a guy who’s Not Like The Other Guys ( while lowkey a voice in the back of her head is like ALL GUYS ARE LIKE THE OTHER GUYS ) and they just seem to Understand eachother. but ebony can be a sceptical little fuck, and she’s generally just Wary in general sometimes, but she also wants to believe that some people are good and their intentions are as they seem and it’s Pure. even if she EVER got creepy vibes from grant, she’d either be like CREEP EVIL NASTY BYE SEE YA or convince herself she’s making it up because of relationships with people in the past. but ofc, the worst part is that he’s never given her any reason to think grant is anything but just a nice, charming guy who’s maybe a little pretentious and quiet but that’s basically the worst thing about him, and if it were to happen now, she’s in too deep for it to be a red flag. yoikes. but we all know that to everyone else he just looks like a,,, Nice Guy. either way, he’s a friend, and their lack of actually being as close as they may seem isn’t that weird for her ( which i shall explain in a different bullet point bc this is long ! )

—– ❀ she isn’t a complete plum, and won’t turn a blind eye forever, but in the recent months/so far, she’s come to grant’s defence, thinking that anybody who’s pointed the finger at him is a) unoriginal and b) has clearly never met him. she thinks it’s cruel and unnecessary. like, her pov is that he lost his girlfriend, who told the story of what happened/was going to happen to her, and it’s as simple as that, in a ‘why would mallory write about that otherwise’ kind of way. she’s applying logic to it and i’m like oh,,, honey,,, you sweet summer child,,, plus, grant’s manipulative ass is looking all kinds of charming and innocent and whatever. HOWEVER, things slowly unfolding and eventually ebony beginning to question things ! yes pls ! internal conflict !

—– ❀ however, ebony also briefly vaguely knew mallory ! she attended a few of her yoga classes ages ago, and it’s a complete coincidence that ebony knew the both of them. if/when grant ever mentioned mallory to ebony, the name wouldn’t have clicked, and since she never met her outside of the classes, it took her a while to click why mallory looked so familiar when everything blew up after her death. it kind of weirds her out that someone she knew was murdered, and that it never clicked that Grant’s Girlfriend was the one who taught those yoga classes, but it’s just a complete coincidence ! 

—– ❀ TW FOR ABUSE MENTION: ebony hasn’t read the book, and doesn’t plan on it. she might one day if she’s feeling impulsive and self destructive, but because of the subject matter, she’s avoiding it. it had nothing to do with being grant’s friend ( even though most people would probably question if it’s the Moral and Ethical thing to do, that doesn’t even cross her mind -- she’s not the most moral of people tbh ) and has more to do with the fact that she’s been in an abusive relationship in the past, herself, and she’s just like............nope. ( / end of tw ! )

—– ❀ she didn’t grow up in new york, and has only called it home for for a few years. but she also travels a lot, and is very flaky, and can disappear for periods of time just to show up announced a few weeks later. it’s not weird for her to drop off the grid for a bit ( sounds safe, ebs ) and it’s not weird for her to ditch social circles and local hangouts in general and just ghost, and she’s also lived in several different states across the country. she cannot commit to anything ever, including places. it’s actually odd that she’s been in new york for so long, but she loves the energy and the spirit of the city. and it’s massive so if she tires of a certain spot, she can drift elsewhere ! plus.........plot convenience. 

—– ❀ sometimes she might feel a little out of place tbh ! she’s not an academic and she definitely didn’t come from money, and doesn’t have an abundance of it now, either. she’s a bartender, as that’s always her job when i play her lmao, but i might give her another too but i’m still flipping back and forth so..... tbd !

—– ❀ TW FOR DEATH: a bit of background: she was born in california to amelia robinson & david harrison, a young couple who hadn’t been together all that long when they found out they were expecting, but were madly in love nonetheless. david was completely devoted to his daughter, but he sadly died when she was seven. after his death, some hard truths to swallow came out about him, and her already distraught mother was even more heartbroken. life was pretty rough after his death and her mother couldn’t really cope anymore and became someone that ebs ended up not really recognising, and she became kind of cruel. she’s since forgiven her mother for who she became and therefore how she then treated her daughter, but they’re not close. ebony left cali for a few years after turning seventeen, and when she returned at twenty, she found her father’s broken watch, which she sometimes still wears now. it looks out of place on her thin wrist, especially since the damn thing doesn’t work, but she likes it nonetheless and refuses to get it fixed. in ways like that, she can be,,, a little pretentious ( again, why her friendship with grant works ) and while we’re on the subject of that..... ( / tw ends ! )

—– ❀ her personality is a little messy. she can be very........difficult ? especially as a friend ? though she’s kind-hearted and forgiving and can be very gentle, she’s also temperamental and vague and selfish. she doesn’t mean to be selfish, but she just is. it’s,,, probably infuriating to some people ? as well as the fact that she’s very easily misunderstood due to being hard to understand. yet she also doesn’t like people making the effort to try and understand. yet also wants someone in her life who does understand her. like.........she wants something, but won’t let anybody make the steps to get the thing she wants ? like.............jfc, ebs. she also cannot deal with anything, and it’s not uncommon for somebody to think that everything is going fine and they’re getting on with her great, but then shit hits the fan and the real things happen and she’s like !!! bye !!! so, again, she’s a bit of a flight risk right now. bc like...... well, a murder’s a pretty big thing, my dudes. but also, in her mind, one of her friends is going through some Big Stuff what with his girlfriend being “murdered by her ex” so although most people would be like “gosh golly i should be there for him” there’s a part of ebony that’s like “cannot............deal...............want.......................to yeet.........” but because it’s his Trauma to deal with, it’s easier for her to stay. for example, if something happened between herself and grant that was mutual ( no matter what it was ) that caused angst, that’d be more of a reason for her to Yeet because it directly effects her ? if that at all makes sense ?

—– ❀ quick thing about gender and pronouns !! gender is messy and complicated ( to her ) and she accepted that long ago, but she identifies as a demigirl. her pronouns are she/her, HOWEVER she really appreciates when people use they/them when she hasn’t explicitly stated her pronouns to somebody. she just ,,, thinks it’s the respectful thing to do, but it also makes her feel Valid. she mostly identifies with the gender she was assigned at birth, and tends to present very femininely, but that doesn’t make her any less nb, y’know ? and she doesn’t like people,,, forgetting that she’s Not A Woman ? a lot of the time she’s worried people won’t see her as being nb and even her nb friends she’s sometimes convinced will just forget she’s Not A Woman ?? however, she’s okay with sometimes being referred to as a girl, but always on her own terms. like.......her mobile header literally says ‘sad girls club’ but like..... on her own terms, y’know ? so tldr: if we could pls refrain from referring to her as like ‘the woman’ or ‘the girl’ in threads, that’d be greatly appreciated !

—– ❀ some extras if you want to see/read more about the goblin: stats, playlist, pinterest, aesthetic, old drabbles*, old about/drabble. she doesn’t have a full bio, as the last one i wrote ended up being over 7k words and honestly.........who has the time

* if you click this one, please be aware that trigger warnings apply for abuse, as well as vague/tiny mentions of pregnancy.

extra connections !!! if u want !!!! idk !!!

—– ❀ friends from out of town ! if anybody is from anywhere else in the u.s outside of ny, or they spent a lot of time somewhere else, they totally could’ve known eachother a few years ago. bc ebony has lived in several different places, i can probably wiggle things around and make it work no matter what state they’ve lived in !

—– ❀ friends ! as you might’ve gathered from the rest of the intro, ebony can be a little Difficult, but she’s still kind at heart, and can be soft, and thoughtful ! so, friends that have no problem with her, friends who call her out on her bullshit, friends who she’s ditched in the past, friends she parties with, friends who have tried to Fix her, friends she trusts more than most, etc etc ! as the great sutton foster once said, anything goes !

—– ❀ fwb/hook-ups/flings/exes ! whether they’re things of the past or kind of ongoing, it’s pretty open ! ebony likes people of any and all genders, and ( not dissimilar to mallory, actually ! ) has no problems spreading her love around. which is basically the beating-around-the-bush way of saying she has a lot of sex with a lot of people, and i support her ( ... eh, when it’s healthy ) but one night stands, friends that have no problem keeping things causal, people she dated for a while, something that started casual but Feelings happened and it’s messy, all kinds of stuff is good to go !

—– ❀ people who were also in the yoga classes mallory taught at the time ! it would’ve been a while ago but if the Yoga Peoples would’ve been there back in the day too then perfect !

—– ❀ grant’s other friends ! people who met through grant ! we all have that friend we met through a mutual murderer, right ? or someone who eb met through grant and they can’t fucking stand eachother ? someone she met through grant but then shagged and now it’s awkward ? people who were actually friends with eachother first and one of them introduced grant to the other ? people who she only met at mallory’s funeral bc they were both there to support their murderous pal ? having the two of ‘em meet unrelated and then find out casually like oh shit u know my good bitch grant ? wild ! all kinds of shit !

—– ❀ roommates ! what are the realistic chances of a group of roomies all knowing either the gal who got murdered or her boyfriend ? slim as fuck but plot convenience !! maybe two or three roomies ? ny’s expensive and ebony isn’t a rich gal !

—– ❀ tbh though i also really love just.......... throwing the characters into a situation and seeing how things go, and having people meet for the first time and stuff, but i also love pre-plotted and intenser stuff, and messy/complicated plots work really well with eb ! i love all kinds of things, i’m down for w/e. while we’re on connections though, i tend to suck with plotting and i’m sometimes a little slow with ims, but i just want to make that Known so it’s not taken personally or anybody thinks i’m not interested anymore or anything ! i’m definitely replying, i promise !

okay so if you read all of this, you’re a saint and greatly appreciated ! apologies for the rambling ! feel free to drop by if you’d like to plot or anything like that ! ps. pls enjoy the fact that i scheduled this while watching the ted bundy thing on netflix, bc it tickled me. bit too fitting huh lads. 

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hey ! i just though i’d swing by as i don’t want to just vanish without warning. life has unexpectedly come to bite me right in the arse, and i feel like keeping my role is is unfair to everybody who applied but wasn’t accepted, but could be more active than i can right now, even though i really want to stay --- it’s perfectly bollocks timing. i have full intentions of returning if the opportunity arises in the future if y’all will still have me, and i legit love all of you and hope you, lorfield, your characters etc all thrive. you’re ALL legit the nicest muns ever, and SO fucking talented, and thank u for being so nice to me and plotting with me, and i’m sorry i can’t follow through with the plots. but ily. see you in another life, brotha ♡

#❀ — ʜᴏᴡ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴀᴍɴ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ɪ ᴀᴍ ﹙ooc.﹚ #who will see this ? idk !

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( & * torrcs !

“no, no. eso no vale — no me importa cualesquier cosas tú estás haciendo ahora,” jaxon scolded in a hushed tone over the phone. he had been on the phone with this mysterious person for at least an hour. he aggressively hung up the call by double tapping the button and let out a forceful sigh. furrowing his eyebrows, he spoke to no one in particular, “dios mío, someone tell me something decent.”

—– ❀ while some may say it’s nosey, ebony would say it’s observant. the other’s long, hushed conversation hasn’t gone unnoticed, due to human nature leaving it impossible to ignore an annoyed but quiet conversation in a language she doesn’t speak ---- it’s something about them not wanting to be heard. she’d occupied her time elsewhere, but when the conversation finally ends, he gets her full attention again.  ❛ trouble in paradise ? ❜

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