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25.02.24

these are really old pics, i've since read two more books, watched six more movies and one more drama. idk if many of you know this but it's pretty difficult for me to watch stuff (i watched two movies last year), so i'm super happy with my media consumption this summer.

📖: Let's Pretend This Never Happened by Jenny Lawson My book review of Trick Mirror by Jia Tolentino

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favorite spot to study except for my room - it looks like a library but is actually a coffee shop

the holidays always kind of overwhelm me 🫠

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31/100 days of productivity | 15/11/2023

i don’t mind the cold season, but sun setting before 5 pm really does things to my focus and i don’t like it 😭

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November

Cold weather 🤝 sick mentally and physically all the time

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A cozy, simple holiday weekend 🪽⭐️☁️

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I’ve never enjoyed any kind of work I’ve done more than all the cataloging I’ve done at this museum.

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challenge day 9 of 70 deposits 🛁

fitness: 35 min intermed pilates 🩰

academics: finished my discussions and presentation! 💻

spiritual growth + affirmations [on purpose, abundance, and love]:

• purpose does not need to be forced. it comes naturally when i live in alignment with my true nature.

• i live an abundant life—rich connections, resources, health, and high quality experiences. anything that comes into my life must align with or enhance what i already have.

• reality is a channel. i can change it whenever i desire.

• i meditate on my actions with love and wisdom.

p.s. i’m so proud bc the pics are mine this time HAHA

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11.24.2023

yesterday I finished my writing sample for my grad school application! I have everything sent off and am just waiting until next week when I can register for classes. I’m honestly terrified to start this new chapter but it’s also thrilling to actually be making steps towards the career I’ve been dreaming about since my freshman year of undergrad. ❤️

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Hello and welcome to tired & petty bitch academia.

I smoke, I am noncommittal, I spend all my inheritance on coffee, and I scam men into paying for me to go on trips to Europe. Amy Dunne did nothing wrong.

xo

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6.07.17 / last hustle

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Poland Day 4 - Final full day here, got a lot of work done but sampling animals is way more taxing than humans. Really looking forward to sleeping in my own bed again tomorrow but we still got some more work to do in the morning.

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my november work sessions have looked a lot like this—with a lot of starting and stopping and staring at documents and frowning and trying but not very hard and not getting much done and getting up and sitting back down and trying again and again and again. i told my therapist this week that it feels like there is a gap between wanting to do the work (and knowing how to do it and being excited to do it and having the time to do it) and then doing it, and i keep falling into that gap—i never make it to the other side. “i think the gap is where you have to try,” i finally told her, forty minutes into our fifty minute session, “and i don’t think i’m trying.” she looked at me for a minute and then, very quietly, said, "i think you are trying. i think you are trying incredibly hard." three days later, i think she might be right even if admitting it—even here! in silly little words in a silly little blog post!—makes me want to cry. i am trying. i'm trying and trying and trying and then i'm looking at my pile of tries, dryly informing it that unless it produces something i'll insist it doesn't count as real trying. and how absurd is that? how defeating? it's all trying! the work is in the trying. the love for the craft is in the trying. the frustration? in the trying. the disappointment? in the trying. the thinking the excitement the delight the learning? in the trying. and it is trying, in all senses of this word that i've now written so many times it doesn't look like a word anymore—it can be difficult and annoying and emotionally draining and utterly terrifying because look at that expanse of possibility that i'll have to work so hard to cross when i can't see to the other side of it and yet—! it isn't always. i know it isn't always. why do i insist on being so afraid of it? why do i clutch the fear of it so tightly? what good do my white knuckles do? and so i am sitting here, cross-legged and warm, picking that fear apart one little thread at a time, remembering that the excitement is in the trying—that the wonder is in the trying—that i am here for the hours the days the minutes the seconds the moments that are (in the) trying—

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recent study scenes

been trudging through the tail end of clinical rotations and while i’ve definitely enjoyed myself and learned so much in a relatively short amount of time, i am unbelievably ready for this to be over! i know studying for step exams is just going to be the next thing to tackle but i’m excited for a change of pace!

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Good morning from sunny Bordeaux. Writing 20 pages for my thesis today! Love you all!

Girls in Finance project server // other posts

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Trying cute little coffee/ bake shops around Atlanta 🖤 also I saw this post that said we aren’t having fun as adults because we don’t make bucket lists like we used to as tweens, so here’s my autumn list 🥰

09.09.2023

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saturday 28/10/23

shawdies i’m sorry i been gone. four hour daily german is killing me. i’m in A2 now, and i need to start getting more energy to get work done after class. today i just passed out. like gymming 5 days a week and 9am classes is mad exhausting but i’m good!

♫ feel so good - mase ♫