I think I might literally just be a dumbass
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im just gonna stop talking because i know i said something wrong i just dont know what
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i just make things awkward
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i have absolutely nothing going for me
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i sabotage myself because
i dont want to be a pity friend
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i like to pretend that i dont know why
people dont like me
why people dont talk to me
when the truth is i know exactly why
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i think the most disappointing thing
is that deep down i know
that i will never change.
i will always be like this.
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i just want someone to ask me if im alright
i know ill say im fine
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attention seeker
i say i do it for the attention
because when i am in the shower
trying to hide my sobs and even my breaths
while they are laughing in their room
i can only think
how would they react?
would they ask what is wrong?
would they hug me?
would they feel bad for me?
while i am in the shower
crying and pitying myself
i want them to hear my pain
i want to cry to them
about how i wish i was different
about how i wish i was normal
about how i wish i wasnt so alone
about how i wish
about how i wish
about how i wish
i am always the lisener
i am always the one that consoles
but for once
i want to be the one listened to
i want to be the one consoled
i say i do it for attention
and yet they do not ask me what is wrong
and yet the do no hug me
and yet the do not feel bad for me
because in the end
i dont want to be an attention seeker
because the thought of them knowing
makes me shake
makes me scared
makes me ashamed
makes me panic
so i force my mind to different things
so i bite my lip
so i rinse my face
so i shake out my arms
so i take a deep breath
in
out
and when i step out of the bathroom
it is as if nothing has happened
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if i could find a place
where i could go
and scream
and sob
and yell
until my voice is gone
and my head is pounding
without anyone hearing
without anyone questioning
i dont think i would
i dont think i could
ever stop screaming
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why cant i get it out of my head
you look so sad
why do i keep thinking about it
sitting there
why am i letting it bother me
all alone
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i wish i could go back and unhear it
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