ruthytwoshakes

[ruthytwoshakes]

BOOTS AND BOMBS BOOTS AND BOMBS 💣💣💣💣💣🔥🔥!!!!!!!!

actually no, we're not "dating". we're bound together for infinity. like the stars. so, fuck you, actually.

#tf2 #boots and bombs #and me and my 3 partners whatever

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rb this and tell me what ur accent is. this has no purpose except the fact i just realized i could have like... mutuals with cockney accents or newfoundland accents or something and thats just wild

#Southern Drawl . very unfortunate. #I’m able to hide it alright if i really try but my vocabulary gives it away. #also the autism accent so i just sound ridiculous. My accent is silly little guy who ain’t understandable #It’s been getting stronger by the year I’m scared. Where the hell did you come from

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#love mammal friend all my partners are mammal heads #i need to send this to them

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Please share this around

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I've been trapped in a cycle of pain since I was young, but recently it's been getting worse. I have 1 week of pain, 1 week of recovery, and only 2 weeks where I feel not terrible. And if I'm not able to recover than those 2 weeks turn into a couple days, rest are pain filled. I talk about my sensory issues and mental disabilities, but I don't think I've ever talked about this before. It scares me and I'd rather not acknowledge it.

You'd think I would be able to develop coping strategies, but I've never had any help or direction, live in an environment with many limitations and roadblocks, and I'm terrible at recognizing my own limits. And then the added guilt, aka internalized ableism, of even needing those coping strategies in the first place. So I'm just barely hanging on tbh.

I'm starting a new treatment today that will hopefully help, it so happens to coincide with the start of a new pain week. hooray. im in agony. But this might help with future weeks so I'm staying as hopeful as I can.

Why am I saying all this? I guess I owe people an explanation as to why I never finish any of my big projects. People who have been following for a while know that I start something huge and then drop it, and this is why. I desperately want to, but it kills me to do anything more than concept art and one-offs. I feel terrible for everybody who I've let down, so I'm gonna be honest from here on out.

I wont be finishing any big projects. Not until I move out and get more accommodations and (hopefully) a surgery to remove the organ causing me pain. I will work on whatever I have the energy for, but I can't promise anything. Feel free to request projects for me to work on! Motivation helps me work on them lol.

I really appreciate the love and community I've found here, it means so much to me. Helped me get through the tough times, and I wouldn't be where I am now as an artist without everybody's kind words and support. I love the tf2 community so much, everybody is so kind and creative. I can't wait to move out into a better environment where I'll finally be able to work on all my big projects. It's one of the big things motivating me to keep on going. I hope in the future that I'll be able to live off of art as my full time job! I physically and mentally can't do anything else lmao. Maybe I'll start a patreon, open commissions, I'm not sure yet.

Whatever the future holds, I know my place will be in the tf2 community. I have big plans guys, just bare with me for the next 3 years <3

Thanks so much, as always, and I'll be back in a week <3 -Ruth

#chronic pain #thats what I'm going through. It's taken me so long to admit it but yes. I feel like a big burden has been released. #not taken away. but at least its not weighing so heavy on me anymore. #I'm trying to be kinder and more considerate to myself. Baby steps of course #but hopefully I'll get better at this as the years go on. I'm staying positive #But I'm so scared I'll never get better. That I'll never fulfill my dreams of being a professional artist. #I know that there's a very real chance of that happening. but it's hard to accept. Funnily enough crying helps with some of my symptoms lol #making my silly little art helps. and the attention does too heheh. I'm proud of what I make and maybe thats enough. #have a lot to learn I think #I can't wait to get older. I'm so excited to live and grow and learn more and more #Life is gonna be good. It's gonna be amazing. I'm so happy

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shit like this should be radicalizing people

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Long-term Reparations for a Black Family

The below write-up is from a previous post I made for Courtney but I copy and pasted it as I'm fatigued and it's still relevant.

For those of you who know my blog, you know my friend Courtney needs support. The reality is it is unlikely that that will change soon given that she is a disabled single mom providing for 3 kids with a low-wage job. I love her dearly and she genuinely struggles every day. I want to make the world better for her. I talk often about the power of community care. Courtney needs this consistently. If you are a non-Black person who is financially secure, please consider giving her reparations every month or biweekly. I will put her paylinks below. To work towards and as an accomplice of Black liberation, you need to be committed.

This part is not copy pasted but new.

Currently, her family is struggling with food, getting their water on, and saving for next month's rent. They don't have water at the moment and her son has no clean underwear left. They really need the water back on. The sooner the better. They need 136 more to get the water. If you see this, please send a dollar if possible, or even 50 cents. Small donations add up. Give reparations consistently and commit, but if you can't do it consistently still help out when you can.

Cash.me/browni3mom

Venmo @courtney-reece-85

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Spreading some palestinian joy with these beautiful pictures, I wanted to write something like "palestinian art" but honestly palestine is art and one day, hopefully in the near future, palestine will be free.

I got most of these from @hannahziad on instagram, shes a palestinian-american social media influencer and she posts alot about palestine.

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Keep Gaza connected

Link to the twitter thread: https://x.com/oridepato/status/1772062549220929986?s=46&t=k_zC2KOGchduOvGrPSZTog

Simly tutorial: https://x.com/mambangstory/status/1739555477846212832?s=46&t=k_zC2KOGchduOvGrPSZTog

Video tutorial: https://x.com/brownisthecolor/status/1748468717787533553?s=46&t=k_zC2KOGchduOvGrPSZTog

Holafly tutorial: https://x.com/gayjeris/status/1751225312623423818?s=46&t=k_zC2KOGchduOvGrPSZTog

The Google docs from: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfpEdXPgJt2DeBe7fKo-XFpOi2JGjG5Q6i7IimFwrfSRxDGsw/formResponse

Please donate if you are able, esims are extremely important!!!

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I believed in you and your love. Please do not let me down and save my family from this war. Take them out of Sudan so that they can enjoy some stability and security.

This is my house after it was bombed in June and we are inside it

Save my family please🙏

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TEEHEE THANK YOY <333 rat girl rat girl I love ratty girls

I think she’d smell alright and everything but she would despise doing anything with her hair. 3 in 1 shampoo and call it a day. Braid that gets left in for months at a time. Greasy as sin and matted to hell and back. I love her so much

me n @wiiwarechronicles were talking about fem sniper and came up with a hair combo so epic that I had to draw it,,,,,,, shes so cool <33

#WAHOOOOO I LOVE WOMEN #Poor sniper. She’s just like me when I was little. Nobody knew how to take care of my hair so it was just like this lmao #also good lord the art style changes so much between panels #good reminder not to draw while in extreme pain because my brain out the window #also fem spy design? I like the big hat heheghheghh big hat

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DEACTIVATED??!??!!??!!?????????? WHATBAHPOENEND AHAT WHAT

mental illnessing continues pray for me

(ID in alt)

#one of favorite arritsrst #where go #what

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me n @wiiwarechronicles were talking about fem sniper and came up with a hair combo so epic that I had to draw it,,,,,,, shes so cool <33

#tf2 #fem fortress #tf2 sniper #lets goooooo #she’s so cool this makes me wanna work on my fem fortress designs again #ruths doodles

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DONT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE! DONT STOP TAKING ABOUT GAZA!

DONT LET THEM MAKE YOU FORGET!!

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can you draw engie and pyro? :3

at da beach hangging out :3 scout tagged along

Some extras yayyy (Pyromancy my beloved)

Hey, if you’ve got the cash, donate to Ahmed Saad’s kofi. Go-fund-me froze all the donations he previously received and him and his family are stuck in Gaza.

#tf2 #tf2 fanart #tf2 engineer #tf2 pyro #tf2 scout #miss pauling #heavymedic #tf2 heavy #tf2 medic #merasmus #pyromancy #my poor baby girl she doesn’t like roller coasters :((((( #pyro x merasmus my otp #cat girl miss p fuck it up !!! #She’s so pretty (ignore the faggots) #I think about that meme twice a day at least #whenever I’m around my cute and beautiful girl (im the faggot) #okay don’t freak out miss pauling there’s some freaky bitches behind you #ruths doodles

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where am i

It’s 4 in the morning (where I am) and I’m eating your art cause it’s good and I’m hungry

same here bud

(I live off of school lunch this is an upgrade)

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artists on tumblr stop fukcing lying to yourselves you never draw those sticks and circles when you sketch stuff out you just die and you know it

#CHAOTIC EVIL BITCH #GOT NO TIME FOR GUIDELINES TOO BUSY GOTTA MOVE GOTTA WORK 9-5 24/7 367 DAYS A YEAR #ALL PEN. NO REGRETS. LOOKS LIKE SHIT #MOVE ALONG MOVE ALONG GOTTA GRINDSET IT OUT THAT YURI WONT MAKE ITSELF NOOOOO SIRREE #MISTAKES HAVE BEEN MADE. TEARS HAVE BEEN SPILT. FIX IT UP IN POST LIKE A REAL AMERICAN. OORAH OORAH 24/7 KILL EM ALL