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UPDATE; if u guys wanted to lmow what happened to me i’ve been shot

the surgery took a little longer than expected cause i needed blood transfusions but i’m alr now it just hurts a lot

what happened was me walking at night. and not realizing there was a shootout happening

nothing bad abt it,just gang violence idk if it’s going on the news since shootings are common where i’m at

ngl i thought it was fireworks ay first until i saw ppl running and then me getting popped so yeah that’s what happened

just taking a few days to rest and heal my wound until i’m back online ! nothing serious !,

ik i’m missing a lot but i can’t be online rn due to some circumstances. i won’t be active until i then, sorry for my sudden inactivity yesterday.

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ik i’m missing a lot but i can’t be online rn due to some circumstances. i won’t be active until i then, sorry for my sudden inactivity yesterday.

#using my friends phone to log into my tumblr has got to be the most embarrassing thing ever ngl

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lwkey wanna know what animal i remind u guys of

#probably like a cat or something similar to a common house pet huh

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You know what the anon option is for? (✿◠‿◠)

For shy people who are too scared to talk to their favourite blogs. (◡‿◡✿)

Not for you to act like a piece of shit. ✿◕ ‿ ◕✿

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sighs dreamily. I love vulnerable dazai and characterizing him! take a dazai character study <3 I'll let u guys decide who I should character study next in the comments ;p dunno if i like how i worded this I'm kinda bad at writing descriptive things like this😭

to me, it takes a person to not fall for his charm, in order for dazai to fall in love with you, you have to get him to realize and admit it—ignore his advances until you find him vulnerable, drunk, and clinging onto your clothes as you drag him away from the bar, shouting mini 'i love yous' while you pull him by the collar.

then confront and corner him until he's trying to mansplain his way out—advance forward, brushing up against his lips as your face inches closer to his. the forming blush on his face is a clear indicator that his facade is slipping, the voice cracks, and darting eyes are practically telling you that he's about to break.

all it takes is one accusation for him to burst, an explosive reaction taking place as he scrambles over himself, jittering words never lie—and neither was dazai. one more push, that's it. give him one more reason to break, a reason to take a step back and accept the situation—"why are you ignoring me? answer the question, osamu."

he breaks. dazai is scratching the wall behind him, teeth barring nervousness as his anxious gulp bops down. "i'm not," he tries to break away, his last resolve crumbling in the wedge of your fingers.

"you are."

"no i'm not."

"you are."

"no—"

"—yes."

by now, you could see the tears threatening to well up, his pupils glossy but never weak. he feels vulnerable, terrified, gross. disgusting for wanting to break down inside your arms. "i—" dazai doesn't have a voice to dismiss your claims anymore, all weak and cracky. "it's okay," you cup his hands, the lull of your warmth reminding him of his days back in lupin. "i won't judge you. i won't leave you. i won't lie to you. just tell me the truth, and i'll answer honestly."

what if dazai didn't want to hear the truth though? to know the fact that you may not reciprocate his feelings is already enough to warrant his shut down. eyes dulling, face going blank—"sorry," his voice is empty, never once have you thought to witness the brilliant dazai osamu shut down so fast. his refusal to communicate brought you back to square one.

dazai wasn't buff per say, but he did have some muscle in him that made him lean to a certain extent. you knew that you weren't going to overpower him by physical means, so that meant you had to act quickly and accordingly to get dazai to talk. "what're you sorry for? sorry for loving me?" direct and straight to the point.

that always seemed to be the best option when dealing with dazai osamu. his eyebags are prominent, the broken facade, now a sad one. "no," again, with his refusal. you already know by now that he's lying; truth in hand that he does love you. sighing, you break away. "oh, guess i was wrong then. see you tomorrow, sorry."

he doesn't inquire further, staring as you turn your back on him and walk away. dazai isn't sure what was with him, sure, he could be a little off the boat when it came to his emotions. but was he so down the sea, he couldn't swim back up and face the light? did he truly believe that night dwellers couldn't adapt to the light?

he didn't know. and legitimately, did not know what overcame his senses. "wait!" his shout echoes, your footsteps stopping and your silence making him nauseous. he does not know what overode his drive, but dazai is across from you, shouting, nearly into tears.

"you're leaving?" you could hear his unspoken words, just like that? averting your eyes, you nod your head. "yeah. like you wanted me to."

don't go. "why?" you need to stay. "because you wanted me to." no he didn't. he didn't—he didn't, he needed you, he wanted you, he wants to depend on you—"that's it?" his voice cracks. "yeah."

"why?"

"again, not forcing you—"

"—you're not!" his sudden outburst leaves you stunned a bit. you stood there, waiting for him to continue what he meant, but there was nothing. just heavy breathing and dazai's sniffles. finding nothing that was worth staying, you end up turning away, not noticing how dazai tenses up.

before you left, you wanted to get one last thing in; one thing you needed him to understand. "i'll leave if you want me to leave," and with that, your body starts moving, not giving dazai any time to process what you had just said.

had he been a split second to late, dazai wasn't sure that he'd be able to catch up to you. you hear him running, a bone crushing vice on your sleeve tugging you back. looking at dazai, you finally see it. the tears he refused to shed, the morbid expression he tried to hold in, and the thousand year worth of emotions he laid out on his face.

you didn't need to think twice about what he thought. no words were exchanged, dazai continued to silently cry as he wept shamelessly—"don't leave me." i love you.

#𝙙𝙖𝙯𝙖𝙞 𝙛𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙡𝙪𝙗…༝༚༝༚ #i remembered half way through this that i had a sfw blog but i was too lazy to transfer it so💀 #ill throw some of my sfw back in here ig #as drabbles and thoughts tho #full fics will be posted on the other blog

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spanking their ass with a spatula then running away when they chase you with a shrill scream and a death glare

#was i thinking of a specific character while writing this? #yes.

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>:O

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omg i’m so sorry for clogging dash up i’m just now realizing that not a lot of ppl has posted anything but me

#sorry yall i’ll wait till tonight when everyone’s active 😭🙏

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OKAY SO I USE ONE CUP OF SUGAR, A HALF CUP OF WATER AND I COOK IT ON MEDIUM HEAT OCCASIONALLY STIRING IT THEN ONCE IT STARTS GETTING BUBBLY I TEST IT IN COLD WATER AND IF IT ISNT CRUNCHY I COOK IT SOME MORE AND ONCE JT IS I PUT IT ON THE LOWEST HEAT AND HOLD THE POT ON A ANGLE SO THE SUGAR ALL GOES TO THE SIDE AND I DIP THE FRUIT IN AND STIR IT AROUND A BIT, THEN I LET IT DRIP BEFORE I QUICKLY PUT IT IN ICE WATER😆😆😆 ITS SO SO GOOD

@ EVERY1 LOOK!! ITS AVA CANDIED FRUIT RECIPE 🤤🤤🤤

IMMA TRY THIS SOON WHEN I BUY SOME MORE FRUIT AND LET U KNOW OF THE RESULTS 🩷

#₂₂₂༝ ava #₉₉₉༝ inbox

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NUUU D: I feel s’ srry 4 ⭐️ anon :< what’s his number I can curse his srry ass out >:(

flashback 2 da time where I put curses on my friend’s ex > < !! it was vv fun

RIGHT 🤬🤬🤬 ⭐️NONNIE WHATS HIS ### cinna abt to blow a fuse for u 😤

#₉₉₉༝ inbox #₂₂₂༝ cinna

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once i pick up drawing again it’s over for yall.

all my mutuals get free self ship arts from me

#no cost #$0 #emphasize on FREE #that’s if i get out of my art block #i litt haven’t drawn in 3 years 💀

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other things I've eaten christ uhh that's a long list

batteries,

cardboard / paper,

erasers,

whole books,

plastic,

metal,

brick,

wood,

figurines,

so so many things lots of inedible things there's a few examples if i was to list everything I'd be here all day

OMG JUST SAW THIS AND ZAI…. HOW ARR U ALIIVEEEEE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#₂₂₂༝ zai #₉₉₉༝ inbox #<- REAL AND LIVE REACTION of me btw

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UHHH I DUNNO IF DAT IS CONSIDERED AS A CONFESSION SO HAVE ANOTHER ONE -_-

I once put slime all over my uncle’s back with my cousin as a prank n we got into trouble (・・;) in short I don’t do pranks anymore :D

HELP CINNA NOT THE SLIMEEE😭😭😭 WAS IT STICKY???? i can only assume it was since u guys got into trouble 💀💀 YK this reminds me of when my brother was making slime with our younger cousin on the carpet and for some reason that shit was STICKY as hell—and then she dumped that shit all over his lap and he had green sticky slime all over his clothes 😭😭

UR IMAGE

#₉₉₉༝ inbox #₂₂₂༝ cinna #runi’s bsd confession game 🤍

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4 da confession thingy hehe >:D

there was dis one time when me n my mom got into a fight n then she threw a chair at me !!! > < it happened like 6 years ago tho sihsjshajauau

ITS ALWAYS THE ASIAN MOMS ISTG. my mom locked me in the shed for pouring water on her to wake her up like how she does to me 😭😭

UR IMAGE;

#₂₂₂༝ cinna #₉₉₉༝ inbox #runi’s bsd confession game 🤍

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oooo confession time!

when i was first introduced to the world of undertale, i used to ship frans (sans x frisk) and read sans x reader LEMON on WATTPAD and read them back and forth before i went to sleep.

(lets just say my mom caught me one day and banned me from that app 💀)

OMG I HAVENT HEARD OF THE TERM LEMON IN SO LONNNGGG neither lime tbh😭 yall remember when SMUT was a rarely term and it was LEMON that defined porn in fiction 💀

if i can recall properly..

LEMON/SMUT = sex sex sex

LIME = suggestive scenes but not explicit like lemon/smut

ANYWAYS UR CURSED IMAGE;

#₉₉₉༝ inbox #₂₂₂༝ tsu #runi’s bsd confession game 🤍

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alr guys! answering some OLD confessions now🤓

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Bro this is such a cutie patootie design

HES SO CUTEE😭😭😭 BUT YK WHO HE REMINDS ME OF FOR SOME REASON?????

GABIMARU 💀💀💀

#HELP they both look twink I CAANT💀 #₉₉₉༝ inbox #₂₂₂༝ wendy