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Ugly mobile :: move is complete!!! Have very few prompts and I think I followed everyone and unfollowed from this account to hopefully make breaking mutuals with the archive account easier!!! I’ll be plotting and such on the new blog and moving the starter call replies I have over!!

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Ugly mobile :: move is complete!!! Have very few prompts and I think I followed everyone and unfollowed from this account to hopefully make breaking mutuals with the archive account easier!!! I’ll be plotting and such on the new blog and moving the starter call replies I have over!!

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Ugly mobile post:: im in the process of moving shelley to a fresh blog once her new icons are done im considering going iconless until they’re done so if you’d be okay with Shelley being iconless for a bit like this post and I’ll finish her move tomorrow after homework!!! Opinions welcome!

#tbd.

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❝  ⸻⸻    WHY DID I NOT DIE? MORE MISERABLE THAN MAN EVER WAS BEFORE, WHY DID I NOT SINK INTO FORGETFULNESS AND REST? 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐧 THE ONLY HOPES OF THEIR DOTING PARENTS: HOW MANY BRIDES AND YOUTHFUL LOVERS HAVE BEEN ONE DAY IN THE BLOOM OF HEALTH AND HOPE,

                   an independent and original horror inspired character. an introspection of loss and purpose and the horrors of guilt while seeking the truth in worlds of the seen and unseen; a study of ghosts, death, loss, madness, with swirls of crime and mystery  //   haunted by:   aggie     mutually exclusive and 21+ only please minors and personals dni

AND THE NEXT A 𝘗𝘙𝘌𝘠 𝘍𝘖𝘙 𝘞𝘖𝘙𝘔𝘚 & 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘋𝘌𝘊𝘈𝘠 𝘖𝘍 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘛𝘖𝘔𝘉! OF WHAT MATERIALS WAS I MADE, THAT I COULD THUS RESIST SO MANY SHOCKS, WHICH, LIKE THE TURNING OF THE WHEEL, CONTINUALLY RENEWED THE TORTURE? BUT I WAS DOOMED TO LIVE;       ©

                                                         ( carrd. )

#srb. #had to update the crd link #here we go! #should work now!

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@nineprowls​    ╱      sc.

𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐘 𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐑𝐊𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍 𝐀𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐃.         The night had been rather routine until this mysterious beauty came stalking through the diner. Of course, Shelley was waitressing that night ( like every night ) and as the woman practically purred her order, Shelley almost forgot what she was supposed to be doing. When the other woman caught her staring, Shelley apologized lightly, not at all sincere, and quickly scribbled the order down adding flirtatiously:

“You’re a saucy flirt.”

#nineprowls. #❛ 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. ╱ selina k. #hope this works! #let me know if anything needs changed!

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⸻⸻     MEMORIES + IDENTITY.

I think I’ve mentioned previously that Shelley has very vivid visions and they can cause very physical reactions ( HERE ) but there are also the mental repercussions. While Shelley is quickly diagnoses with PTSD due to the loss of her parents and her subsequent conviction ( and later the ongoing stress and panic and anxiety brought on by her visions ), a less known side effect is the Brain Bleed Shelley suffers during her visions.

Spirits have the ability to do a Vulcan Mind Meld with Shelley and this is how she primarily gets her visions. They share more their experiences with their death and their own memories of the circumstances rather than sharing the whole story but sometimes, while experiencing the vicious and often painful events that led to a death, Shelley is also bombarded with the memories the spirit had during the attacks or dying processes. The memories of a mother’s laugh or a father’s cologne. The memory of the birth a sibling or other family member or their own children. She can remember the faces of men or women “she’s” married, the voices of friends and family she never knew. The Brain Bleed is often an onslaught of superfluous memories harvested and retained over an entire lifetime. These memories can oftentimes be just as harmful as the death sight.

Brain Bleeds may be happy memories but the more foreign memories Shelley experiences as her own, the less she remembers of her own. Her own experiences with people or places can often be muddled with the experiences of spirits and it lingers sometimes up until present time. She can answer or sign the wrong name on documents. She remembers people who can never know her and she confuses memories of her mother with countless other mothers who she’s “remembered” through visions. This was one of the early reasons behind her first of many relapses with alcoholism. It is incredibly isolating and devastating to Shelley when she begins to think about something she and her family did together with such fondness and joy only to remember something or someone who didn’t fit in that family dynamic of hers and figuring out the story she thought was her own--- was really someone else’s. 

This can also lead to momentary amnesia when revisiting people in her personal life. She’s forgotten Oscar’s name a few times, didn’t recognize her niece and nephew nor her cousin. She didn’t recall the name and face on her driver’s license and was often brought in under suspicion of fake ids or stolen ids due to her inability to remember the information on her driver’s license or “falsifying” important documents with the wrong social or birthday. 

If Shelley had to take one aspect of her visions and leave the other, she’d take seeing spirits and dying a million times over because to her, truth death is when the last of her own memories are gone and she longer remembers who she really is. She clings desparately to the few memories she has and often begs her cousin to share childhoot stories with her in a plea to remember something that was real. Shelley is terrified of how much she’s already forgotten because what happens when what makes her her---  is replaced?

#death mention: cw. #identity loss: cw. #alcoholism mention: cw. #❛ 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘏𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘥. ╱ lore.

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@huntedvideo​

            at least it wasn’t awkward between them. right? for the most part. not on fin’s side, anyway. people break up all the time, for different reasons. she is, however, the only ex fin keeps in contact with. he felt shitty for saying it’s because she’s useful ( that’s not the only reason, but finley isn’t ready to admit that quite yet ). camera in one hand, flashlight in the other, he stops beside shelley at the ferris wheel, only to roll his eyes down to her at her snarky comment. ‘ you’re not even gonna admit it’s a little cool? ’ brow raises with the question, fin pointing the lens up at the lightless ride towering over them. ‘ remember the last time we were on a ferris wheel? pretty sure you thought it was cool then, ’

𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐘 𝐆𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐋𝐄𝐘 𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐘.       “Yeah well the last time we were on a ferris wheel, I’m pretty sure neither of us were really looking around,” she commented as her fingers slipped into the pockets of her jeans and she leaned back on her heels a bit for a better look. “What’s the story here, Fin?” she asked as she took his flash light and quietly ventured further into the park. “Werewolf, real skeleton found in the haunted house--  killer clown?” There’s a playful smile at the idea of a killer clown, only vaguely remembering that there very well may have been a killer clown episode in the long legacy Finley was leaving behind. “If a weird dead kid comes for me--,” she pointed the light at his face on purpose to accent her possible future annoyance, “I’m tripping you and running.”

#huntedvideo. #❛ 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. ╱ finley s. #hope its cool i finally reply

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━━━━━      𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐄 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 !!     this is a horror movie quote starter call open to    𝘼𝙇𝙇 𝙈𝙐𝙏𝙐𝘼𝙇𝙎 / 𝘼𝙇𝙇 𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙎𝙀𝙎   and these will be done either today or throughout the week depending on how many are requested and how my homework load turns out. movies that will be included are but not limited to: LAKE PLACID, CABIN IN THE WOODS, SCREAM FRANCHISE, THE MEG etc.   𝙔𝙊𝙐'𝙍𝙀 𝙒𝙀𝙇𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙀 𝙏𝙊 𝙇𝙄𝙆𝙀 𝙁𝙊𝙍 𝙊𝙉𝙀 𝙁𝙍𝙊𝙈 𝙈𝙐𝙇𝙏𝙄𝙋𝙇𝙀 𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙎𝙀𝙎 𝙤𝙧 𝙁𝙊𝙍 𝙈𝙐𝙇𝙏𝙄𝙋𝙇𝙀 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙀𝙍𝙎    just know that it might take some time to get them all done.    𝙄𝙁 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝘼 𝙈𝙐𝙇𝙏𝙄𝙈𝙐𝙎𝙀 𝙋𝙇𝙀𝘼𝙎𝙀 𝙎𝙋𝙀𝘾𝙄𝙁𝙔 𝘼 𝙈𝙐𝙎𝙀(𝙎) 𝙖𝙣𝙙/𝙤𝙧 𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙎𝙀(𝙎)   if one is not specified, it will be done by random selection.     𝐈𝐅 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑, 𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓!

#srb. #doing these today!!

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NEVER  LET  THEM  SEE  YOU’RE  AFRAID.  /  #NINEPROWLS,  selina  kyle  of  the  batman  ( 2022 ),  understood  by  sera.  18+,  spoilers  blacklisted.

#❛ 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘧 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘥𝘰𝘮. ╱ promos.

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#❛ 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘶𝘯𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨. ╱ portrait. #i missed her

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❝  ⸻⸻    WHY DID I NOT DIE? MORE MISERABLE THAN MAN EVER WAS BEFORE, WHY DID I NOT SINK INTO FORGETFULNESS AND REST? 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐧 THE ONLY HOPES OF THEIR DOTING PARENTS: HOW MANY BRIDES AND YOUTHFUL LOVERS HAVE BEEN ONE DAY IN THE BLOOM OF HEALTH AND HOPE,

                   an independent and original horror inspired character. an introspection of loss and purpose and the horrors of guilt while seeking the truth in worlds of the seen and unseen; a study of ghosts, death, loss, madness, with swirls of crime and mystery  //   haunted by:   aggie     mutually exclusive and 21+ only please minors and personals dni

AND THE NEXT A 𝘗𝘙𝘌𝘠 𝘍𝘖𝘙 𝘞𝘖𝘙𝘔𝘚 & 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘋𝘌𝘊𝘈𝘠 𝘖𝘍 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘛𝘖𝘔𝘉! OF WHAT MATERIALS WAS I MADE, THAT I COULD THUS RESIST SO MANY SHOCKS, WHICH, LIKE THE TURNING OF THE WHEEL, CONTINUALLY RENEWED THE TORTURE? BUT I WAS DOOMED TO LIVE;       ©

                                                         ( carrd. )

#self p. #styled it a bit better #easier to read #anyway hi bringing bck my bb

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@cultreviews​    ╱      sc.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐌𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐄𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑;       the air was cool as it whistled through the Spanish moss on ancient trees. The lake was still save for a quiet wave here and there and Shelley loved it all. Bones was lying by the fireside on his favorite blanket while Shelley lounged in her chair watching the fire swing and dance in the breeze. A car began to pull in the lot behind her van and Shelley looked over from her spot, sipped from her soda can before looking back at the fire. A large projection screen was pulled down over the side of her van and a projector waiting patiently to play the movie previously chosen by her and the film Sadie was bringing.

“Yo,” Shelley greeting as Sadie started towards the fire, fingers wiggling from around the soda bottle in her hand. “I guess there is only one thing to ask:” she stared in a suggestive tone as Sadie took her usual chair across from her. Shelley smirked and leaned forward closer to the fire casting long and eerie shadows across her features.

“DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES?”

#cultreviews #❛ 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. ╱ sadie bennett.

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𝐑𝐔𝐁𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋…..     come on, come all, this is an affiliates call! with shelley being a nomad, the possibilities for pre-existing relationships is endless! there are a few ideas i have for people specific to her canon but this call is open to   𝘼𝙉𝙔 𝙈𝙐𝙏𝙐𝘼𝙇 𝙊𝘾(𝙨) 𝙊𝙍 𝘾𝘼𝙉𝙊𝙉 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙀𝙍(𝙨)   who wish to have a pre-existing connection to shelley or who wish to be an affiliate with her. this includes but is not limited to:   𝘉𝘌𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘔𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕𝘌𝘋 𝘐𝘕 𝘋𝘐𝘍𝘍𝘌𝘙𝘌𝘕𝘛 𝘛𝘏𝘙𝘌𝘈𝘋𝘚, 𝘚𝘏𝘈𝘙𝘌𝘋 𝘖𝘕 𝘏𝘌𝘙 𝘊𝘖𝘕𝘕𝘌𝘊𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕𝘚 𝘚𝘌𝘊𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕, 𝘚𝘌𝘕𝘛 𝘔𝘌𝘔𝘌𝘚 𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘚𝘛𝘈𝘙𝘛𝘌𝘙𝘚, 𝘉𝘜𝘐𝘓𝘋𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘈 𝘞𝘖𝘙𝘓𝘋 𝘉𝘈𝘚𝘌𝘋 𝘐𝘕 𝘚𝘏𝘌𝘓𝘓𝘌𝘠𝘚 𝘊𝘈𝘕𝘖𝘕    if interested please   𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙿𝙾𝚂𝚃   and i’ll im you to plot/chat!

#srb. #hmu for these! #id love to make a connections page! #this also works if you want just like a verseish thing #but in Shelley’s canon or one of her verses #like mains but you get privledges

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learned my lesson, count my blessings, look to the rising sun.

#❛ 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘧 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘥𝘰𝘮. ╱ promos.

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FIONA GALLAGHER S03E01 | El Gran Canon

#❛ 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘶𝘯𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨. ╱ portrait. #what style man

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‘— a death-ridden woman, haunted by dreams.’

— Arthur Miller, adapted from The Crucible

#❛ 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥. 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺. ╱ ch. study.

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✧°⋆ 𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞

————send  in  a  word  for  a  drabble  or  starter  based  on  it.

abditory   —   a   place   into   which   you   can   disappear;   a   hiding   place

alexithymia   —   the   inability   to   express   your   feelings

alharaca   —   an   extraordinary   or   violent   emotional   reaction   to   a   small   issue

aubade   —   a   love   song   sung   at   dawn

balter   —   to   dance   artlessly,   without   particular   grace   or   skill   but   usually   with   enjoyment

basorexia   —   the   overwhelming   desire   to   kiss

clinomania   —   excessive   desire   to   stay   in   bed

forelsket   —   the   euphoria   you   experience   when   you   are   first   falling   in   love

groak   —   to   stare   longingly   at   someone   who   is   eating   in   the   hope   that   they   will   ask   you   to   join   them

jayus   —   a   joke   so   unfunny   and   poorly   told   that   you   can’t   help   but   laugh

morosis   —   the   stupidest   of   stupidities

nedovtipa   —   someone   who   can   not   take   a   hint

nepenthe   —   something   that   can   make   you   forget   grief   or   suffering

querencia   —   a   place   from   which   one’s   strength   is   drawn,   where   one   feels   at   home;   the   place   where   you   are   your   most   authentic   self

razbliuto   —   the   sentimental   feeling   you   have   about   someone   you   once   loved   but   no   longer   do.

redamancy   —   the   act   of   loving   the   one   who   loves   you;   a   love   returned   in   full

retrouvaille   —   the   joy   of   meeting   or   finding   someone   again   after   a   long   separation;   rediscovery

sphallolalia   —   flirtatious   talk   that   leads   nowhere

trouvaille   —   something   lovely   discovered   by   chance;   a   windfall

whelve   —   to   bury   something   deep;   to   hide

#❛ 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘍𝘶𝘳𝘺 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘋𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘴. ╱ prompts. #// prompts. #mutuals only please!