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i keep thinking about kou's eternal shock on the realization that mizuki 1) doesn't have natural pink hair 2) ocassionally wears glasses

he was fooled all along

#misc; txt #truly the embodiment of that old women are shapeshifters meme #mizuki when she goes out vs when she's planning a nice stay at home day #she doesn't have bad eyesight but it's not 20/20 either so she wears glasses when studying. isn't that cute #i keep thinking about her relationship with her own body and appearance... i could write a book about it

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missed it for two hours but,, it's mizuki's birthday / jp cat day

#misc; txt #and i planned to do stuff but i've been so tired ;; #sorry my adhd is running wild lately...... #i've also been insanely head over heels over kou for the past week ish #i need to draw them together sooo bad but i can't focus for my life TT

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[💌] valentine's wip ♡

! lingerie/suggestive posing under the cut

experimenting with colouring so i'm still not done with this one buuut here's a little peek <3

#mizuki; art #i loooove drawing lingerie #and valentine's is THE mizuki day. i had to do something #i plan to finish this but it might take a bit pls bear with me

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i. hate. colouring

#misc; txt #i've been at this for. how many hours #and i think it's decent? or i can't do any better really #it's. it's okay. i only have like a million accesories left #starting 2024 by having a mental breakdown over colouring wasn't part of my 2024 bingo buuut here we are

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things happened pt 2 (i'm going insane)

her eyes have a little heart and i think everyone should know,,

last night i got possesed by productivity and things,, happened

#mizuki; art #i've been at this for. how many hours #i don't knowww but it's kind of?? coming out?? good? #i need to add the buns. bunless mizuki looks too fancyyy #i've rendered the full body already. i only have clothes left aaaa #and. i should prooobably render the hair a little bit more right

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last night i got possesed by productivity and things,, happened

#mizuki; art #this was very much done on a rush aaaa #but i like?? the pose?? (it's actually a full body wooo) #finally beat the static pose allegations #also the :3 is cute. i like that #i also think the eyes make it a little more interesting...

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currently back at rewriting an old draft for mizuki's story and asking myself (again) if i should make it as dark as i've planned to,,

#misc; txt #it just. it really deals with some Topics #it's heavy and it makes me feel absolutely awful for making her go through half of those experiences #but it's all for character development? she comes back stronger? i think #after being betrayed 45345th times you become less trusting www #nnnnn but it's just. i'm queen of overthinking #i think girls should be allowed to be a little toxic as a treat #up until now i've pretty much only shown her sweet side but i'm excited to show everything <3

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[wip] 🐇 day + i finally found a lineart brush i like to line with

#mizuki; art #i have been possesed by the (bunny) art gods today #dunno if tumblr has a special policy on this kind of pics but? i think i'm safe 🙏 #i mean. yeah. she's a model for a reason #when she goes ;) i lowkey lose my mind

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one 💗 and i'm posting a wip of my bunny day project >:)

#misc; txt #i am SO excited #it's looking super nice? even anatomy wise?? #a lil chicken scratchy but that's my brand <3

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꒰ love ꒱

word count: 573 tags: first love, pretty much a short character analysis on how mizuki keeps getting her heart broken time after time </3, mizuki's old crush on yui being really really cute extra info: talk about some awful coping mechanisms! life hasn't been too nice to mizuki and she keeps looking for the things she's missing in other people. and as soon as they left, it's heartbreak all over again...

Mizuki has the bad habit of falling in love. She loves nice, disinterested people. Genuine kindness.

Her heart, however, will fall for anyone who does as much as look her way.

In high school, Mizuki had her first boyfriend. He was the president of the football club and if someone were to ask her of this moment, she would simply wave her hand. “Something like Takeda or Tanaka, a very common surname!”

Truth is, Mizuki remembers every detail of her first love.

It was a relationship born out of curiosity, they didn’t even know each other that much when they started dating. But in such a small town, there weren’t that many options for children their age to meet other people, so it felt like the right thing to do. Both were popular, both seemed to like each other. Their friends said they made the perfect couple.

Mizuki liked his big goofy smile. The way he would wrap his jacket around her shoulders and walk her home every day, as soon as he was done with practice. They would hold hands and walk all the way out of town, talking about the silly little things only kids their age can talk to. 

This was, however, short lived.

Love is fleeting and the same things that made you fall for someone might as well become the reason you are no longer attracted. Mizuki was regarded as someone beautiful. Popular, both between younger and older students in her town. 

One day, her boyfriend came to see her. A short talk about feelings. Future. About falling out of love, “not your fault, really”. “It simply isn’t working out”. The same smile she had loved wasn’t reserved to her anymore. Scratching his cheek and looking to the side, the devastating blow. “Truth is... there’s someone else I want to be with. We can be friends, right?”

“Of course we can! I hope everything works out!”

That was one of Mizuki’s first lies, too.

It was around this time that she met Yui. A sweet, young girl just around her age, with sun coloured hair and a bright smile that made everyone’s day just a slightly bit better. 

They clicked almost immediately. Maybe because Mizuki was craving someone that would listen to her worries, someone she could rest her head against as she talked about her day. Maybe because Yui liked Mizuki’s optimistic attitude and her natural ability to make her feel safe and loved. 

Sitting together in the back of the church, they enjoyed tending to the garden and baking soft treats for everyone to try out. They sometimes talked about the future, about how faraway it seemed: childhood dreams that never made it past dreams, silly ideas like traveling around the world together. They would stop, staring at each other. Only to break in a loud laugh until one of the nuns in the church came to scold them.

A few years after that, Mizuki left her little countryside life in order to move into the city. There were many nameless crushes in between. 

Just as she got over one heartache, her heart found someone else to fall for, to cling for looking for a love that would make her feel whole.

As long as they were kind, sweet or caring. 

As long as they looked her way.

As long as they made her feel the tiniest bit special, everything was fair game.

#mizuki; writing #diabolik lovers oc #i forgot this was on my drafts until today oops #emotional dependency at its finest <3

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sunday special chicken scratches ✌ as usual gave up halfway during lineart

#mizuki; art #i haven't held a pen in SO long it's kind of insane #what are clean wips and what do you need them for #all my braincells went into the eyes

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btw i had a little notification problem with this blog which should be fixed now 🙏

#misc; txt #i think it was shadowbanned or something like that? #until some time ago. idk. but i never got any notifs until a few days had passed #and asks keep appearing and going away <.< #aaa i think it's fixed so. yeah

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💫 + dancing! (favorite dances, alone or w/ a partner, etc) <3

have i ever mentioned that the silly idol stan is actually a classically trained ballerina. oops. this got long but i had a blast with it <3

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If there’s a genre that has accompanied Mizuki throughout her life (haunted, even) that has to be ballet. She started learning ballet almost before she even started walking, with her mother (a professional ex-ballerina) as a teacher. And she found it so fun, so magical. Wearing pretty outfits and spinning around and around.

When ballet stopped being fun and turned into a profession, she didn’t seem to like it as much. 

As a kid you don’t really get much of an option on what hobbies to develop and even if she had opposed back at the time nothing would have really changed. She was good at ballet, almost a little too much. And no one becomes professional just by resting and lazing around.

Old injuries heal, bad times are forgotten. At the end of the day it helped her more than it harmed her and it was the whole reason she could grow slightly closer to her mother, so she can’t really resent it too much. She likes ballet after all.

There is something special in being able to wear pointe shoes and dance so beautifully from time to time, even if she has lost so much shape after not practising anywhere as hard anymore. It’s difficult to keep developing a skill when the person that loved it the most pushed you aside...

Looking back in time, Mizuki regards ballet as something that allowed her to set up the bases to learn many different styles. She has a very good sense of balance, strength and is incredibly conscious of how she looks on stage. Being awfully flexible is an extra bonus too.

Nowadays she likes dancing in a much more vague sense. She’ll learn the choreography to whatever trendy song she saw around the Internet and upload it to social media. Mizuki also loves learning dances from her favourite dancers or trying her luck at improvisation.

When her agenda isn’t as busy or she gets a last minute cancellation, she usually sneaks into whatever free training room her agency has to offer to dance for a while. Training is noisy, so it isn’t something you can really do at home. But it fills her chest with a special sense of freedom.

Some people pointed out she might as well become an idol if she likes dancing so much but she wants to become a professional dancer. But dancing doesn’t seem to pose much of a threat to her modelling career. The entertainment industry is ruthless and refuses to look past her appearance. Luckily Mizuki is too stubborn to even consider giving up on her dreams: it’s the reason she started modelling in the first place.

Once again her agenda is a mess but if she had the time I think she’d love to try learning genres that are way out of her comfort zone. First on the list is definitely pole dancing. For sure. I also think she’d like to try her hand at a couple of Latin American styles, namely tango and rumba. But she needs to find a good partner that’s willing to put up with all the training.

Bonus: a couple of dances I always end up associating with her

I always think of this song when I think of her. It’s the electronic, easy-to-dance kind of music that’s super catchy and has a cutesy sort of dance that works well with her. (It’s also cat themed. Pink cat themed. And the lyrics are a good read if you’re curious about what Mizuki is really like under all the cutesy façade).

Also this was pretty much accidental because I like K-Pop suuuuper casually myself (I think Mizuki is really into it tho) but sometimes YT recs work. Momo from TWICE. This fancam of Talk that Talk. The way she looks like she’s having just so much fun on stage and the way she moves. Yeah <3 I’d also recommend Red Velvet’s Russian Roulette for the dance. And the video is really fun to c;

AND! I promise this is the last one but it’s also the most technically complex one (I think) and we’re less than one week away from Eurovision and I need to plug this in somewhere before people forget about this performance. I’d pay money to see Mizuki getting to do something like this, especially the 2nd part of the song <3

#mizuki; asks #mizuki; writing #not me writing a whole thesis on this wow #if mizuki had time. a long vacation. she would become so powerful

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♥️ rainbow emoji asks, part 1

rainbow emoji asks here

👹 How does you OC act around different people and how does their personality change to match the environment they’re in? How do they act with: friends, family, strangers, children or their lover(s)?

Seguir leyendo

#i suddenly remembered i had answered this a bit back #i think it shows a lot of things you wouldn't quite expect from her c;

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send me a 💫 + a topic and i'll drop a random piece of info about my character

#winks cutely pretty please? 🙏 #i brainrot about mizu just as much <3 #it will be either super cute and wholesome or really sad pick your poison

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i watched oshi no ko last night and mizuki and ai share a lot of character traits and motifs

that's everything you need to know <3

#misc; txt #oooo to treat lying as loving because you don't know what /love/ is #how can you express love in a healthy way when you've only had scraps of interest from the people who were supposed to love you #so lying and saying you love someone is the kindest thing you can do #you /love/ everyone but they don't love you back #what is love even #and the whole entertainment industry drama i was popcorn-eating.gif #i swearrrr i've thought sm stuff about her. i just don't know how to share it i only know how to infodump </3

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today is cat day in jp so i bring you (more) mizuki. michizuki, actually

it is also her birthday ♡

#mizuki; art #<- because i really like the ears #the kind of person that wears cat ears unironically FOR SURE #lately i've been so busy.... i wanted to do something for her bday TT #maybe this weekend aaa keeping my hopes up #i also like these sprites quite a bit so maybe i should. do asks / rp #need to finish some blog organization first