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I told my Dad I was "A FUNDAMENTALLY LONELY PERSON" and "I WILL ALWAYS BE ALONE" and he started to cry... (is this autism or am i really alone?)

Fatima Aamer Bilal "Being Unwanted is a Language" / Anna Haifisch / Ruth Madievsky "All-Night Pharmacy" / Jenny Slate / Meggie Royer "For Twenty Year-Olds Who Have Never Been Loved" / Richard Siken "Crush" / ? manga / Marya Hornbacher "Wasted" / Norman Rockwell / Amy Dunne / Marie Alsing / Fiona Apple / Maria Tsvetaeva "On Love" / Haruki Murakami "Norwegian Wood" / Richard Siken / Camille Rankine “Emergency Management” / Caitlin Conlon / @/archbudzar / @/hadodoodles / Anne Carson "Nox"

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Kitten! 1972. Source.

#she is hearing shocking news but trying to keep her cool

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When u need structure and routine but can't follow a routine nor can you handle people telling you what to do because you hate the demand of it + prefer to be independent, yet you can't get anything done because of it...... this is my biggest struggle. I have no one ACTUALLY working with me to make sure these things happen. I may have emotional support but i DO NOT have any of my support needs met. ever. Like what the flip am i supposed to do???

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In 1944 a kitten named George (short for General Electric) was saved from drowning by a U.S. Navy crew member. George was then photographed and given a liberty card and detailed health record. Source.

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I've never been tagged in one of these things before, never thought it would feel so nice.

Hugs also to @chronic-pessimistic @welcome-to-farmlands @my-autism-adhd-blog @neurodivergenttales

do care + did ask + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you

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has anyone done this yet idk?

#both??? #who's to say

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So I just found out that one of my favorite books of all time, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sánez, has got a movie adaptation that came out earlier this month.

The way I found out: I was browsing the book aisle at Walmart and saw a new cover for AADDTSOTU with a sticker that said "NOW A MAJOR MOTION PICTURE."

The problem: the closest theater that is showing the movie is 25 miles away from me.

I am a fool and this is my penance.

#aaddtsotu #aaddtsotu movie

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a body — a life, a death

Richard Siken, Vi Khi Nao, Ilya Kaminsky, Porochista Khakpour, LCD Soundsystem, Ocean Vuong, Charles Bukowski, Jane Kenyon, Anne Sexton, Shruti Swamy, Warsan Shire, Mark Strand, Japanese Breakfast, Anna Akhmatova, Ocean Vuong

buy me a coffee

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If your first instinct is to dismiss this on the grounds of “but that would be really messed up,” you’re about halfway to the point.

Keep going.

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My oldest doesn’t do a lot of eye contact, which was always fine by me because I’m not that into it either. It’s not at all painful for me with my kids, we just never really needed it because we find connection in so many other ways.

Then my youngest came along. They want ALL the eye contact, lol. They really need it for connection. It sometimes takes conscious reminders to myself to meet their gaze because I’m not used to doing it, but I’m happy to make the extra effort to meet my child’s needs in this area.

Can you imagine, though, if I had instead been like, “No one else here needs eye contact, and it’s more work for me, so you’re just gonna have to learn to do things our way to fit in?” Most people would have no trouble seeing how damaging that would be to my child, and they would rightfully want to call me out for it.

Because most people can relate to my child’s need for eye contact.

The only reason non-Autistic ways of being have become the norm is because there are more of them than us. It’s not because they’re actually better, it’s just that NTs have been the ones in charge of making up the rules since forever. 

So what if Autistic people were the majority? What if *we’d* been in charge of making up the social rules and public spaces and developmental timelines all this time? How would Allistic people be treated in this parallel universe? And how do you think Allistic children would handle being forced to live in a world not made for them?

How many people in that universe would actually *encourage* me to deny my youngest child eye contact? 

Y’know, to prepare them for the real world.

(Image description in Alt Text.)

#saving for future reference

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CW: ABA, signs of trauma.

I don’t normally do content warnings, but I’m not gonna lie: this one just hurts. Take care of yourself and scroll on by if you’re not in the right space for it.

ABA=Applied Behavior Analysis.

(image description: A 4 panel cartoon by Autball.

1: Two figures sit on a park bench. Teal is on the left, Red is on the right, both are smiling. Teal says, “So how’s the ABA going?” Red replies, “Oh, she’s absolutely thriving! She has two new words and can use a fork now!”

2: Same scene, now both are looking neutral. Red says, “She’s also crying a lot more, she’s become really clingy, she fights me over the simplest things now, and she’s started wetting the bed.”

3: Same scene. Teal, looking surprised, says, “That’s ‘thriving??’” Red, looking neutral, replies, “Yeah, I don’t know what all that’s about, but I’m sure it’s unrelated.”

4: Same scene, with Teal looking unsure. Red looks excited and says, “Fortunately, the ABA place says they can help with that stuff too!”)

#saving for future reference

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when i put the hashtag "actually autistic" im not excluding people who are undiagnosed. diagnosis is hard, if not impossible to get as a teenager or adult. when i say actually autistic i mean im an autistic person living my daily life being autistic, im not some facebook "autism mum" with an autistic son acting like they know better than actually autistic people. i can fully understand why someone might not be able to or maybe not even be looking to get a diagnosis. the process is dificult at best, ESPECIALlY if youre an adult.

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Autism Book Recommendations

Neurodivergent_lou

#saving for future reference

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Someone in an autism facebook group I'm in just asked "How am I supposed to earn enough to make a living without burning out?"

Someone replied: "You're not. Even neurotypicals can't right now in the system designed for them. We're the canaries in the coalmine. When we start failing, they know something is wrong."

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what did you create today bud? maybe you created a thought about a balloon? maybe a breakfast this morning? maybe a look at a dog trotting by. maybe a heartbeat? it is incredible how much art you are making all the dang time. you are SO prolific

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Link below if you're curious. @my-autism-adhd-blog made a post about this,which is where I heard about it.

#autism test reslts #this is just for fun not a diagnostic tool #actually autistic #i wasnt sure how to answer some of the questions so i picked the neutral option so idk how accurate my resulta are but whatever

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being in your early 20s is crazy bc there’s people who are literally married and people who’ve never even dated and people who are trapped in their childhood bedrooms waiting to get out and people who are trying to live out romanticized dream lives and people who are completely on their own and people with multi tiered support systems and we’re all supposedly peers and none of us think we’re doing it right at all