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e'jet rai. jet f'rai

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great father above please protect my from myself

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i misz hsr

#> ab [my priest]

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i nees to pray

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great father above please protect my from myself

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god I am going to fucking kill myself

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FUCK

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great father above please protect my from myself

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god im so fuck8nf stuoix

#i need alxhohol #i need a duxking beer

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fod im so fuck8nf useless

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duck fuck Fuck fuckFUCI

I've been objectified fod as long as J can remembers yk. not in my control. there's a lot of disgusting people in the world

so ivw really fucking sexualized myself bad. to the pint where I'm already feeling sexually burned out before I even turn fucking 18

I hatw if. I hate if so much. I feel so useless and dumb. being a sexual object is all I'm good for right? right??? I'm fucking useless nos

and my boyfriend. fod. he's never been through that. a normal guy. and I feel so fucking awful cause I KNOS i can't accommodate him and it's fuckingpainful fod ms. I'm so scared that as great az our relationship is someday he's gonna leave me for someone who can treat him better. someone who isn't a brokenfuckinf mess. who can be sexual regularly enough for him

and he basically just confirmed I can't completely accommodate him and. fuxk

might just actually fucijg kill myself

#please hes rhe only good rhings I havs left #I cabt lose him #I cabt duxijg lose him #duxk #fuck #FUCKL #vent

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if you're transgender you have to live.

#im tryinf

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good morning. are you still there? we made it through the night. is today a better day for you? maybe it will be for me too.

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we all knew this was coming. we all saw this coming. people have been predicting it for fucking YEARS

and just because it's especially worse in some places, doesn't mean it's not slowly infecting the world like a plague

it's happening, it's gonna happen

#think im gonna log off this particular account for now #maybe im getting paranoid again #maybe maybe

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In another universe, my uncle still picks me up from preschool on Fridays and we spend hours drawing with chalk and having lightsaber battles. He’s the closest I’ll ever get to having a brother and I’m the closest thing he’ll ever have to a daughter. I’m still 4 and know nothing about college algebra but I know I want to spend as much time by his side so I tell him “the answers” and he laughs while saying “close enough”.

#i miss wednesdays with my grandfather #i miss getting lunch and feeding the ducks at the park with him

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in another universe, we’re all just silly kids playing around in the rain once more

#we all could've met on the kindergarten playground and become best friends

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THIS!!

THIS IS AN AMAZING WAY TO THINK OF CHRONIC PAIN

#ohhh i love this