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what is the best tmbg album in your opinion?

I don't know what the best is, but Lincoln was the one that Terry Pratchett and I bonded over and this was the last song we sang together, shortly before he died:

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I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.

The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.

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I just got another one of those phishing emails where it pretends to be a confirmation of a subscription you never signed up for and tries to trick you into providing personally identifying information for "confirmation purposes" when you attempt to cancel, but:

a. this one is for a weekly grocery delivery service, of all things; and

b. the fake shopping list contains nothing but ham.

I have been fraudulently subscribed to ham.

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Thoughts that are mutual between cats and their people:

Yeah you're cute when you sleep but you didn't let me sleep either so I'm going to annoy you now because I'm bored. Hahah get poked, sleepy idiot.

How do you not comprehend this when I am literally staring at you. Like I understand that your brain can't understand things this nuanced but come on, how do you not get this.

I don't know if you know that what I am currently doing is an expression of affection, but that won't stop me. Knowing that I showed you that I love you is enough.

I heard a crinkly material and the sound of you chewing so I have to know what's in your mouth RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

I can't communicate with you and you can't communicate with me, so I'm just copying the tone of the sound you're making in hopes that you understand that I try.

You are doing activities beyond my comprehension, and I find this fascinating. I will never understand what the fuck you are trying to achieve here, but I am intrigued nonetheless.

Hey are you ok, you haven't done your weird thing in a while. Yeah I don't get why you do that but I know you do that when you're ok.

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I love leather and I love fur and I don’t mind arguing about it.

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wait but is it art? hey excuse me, sir? is this art..? am i allowed to think that this is beautiful? hello, can somebody PLEASE tell me if this art? im scared. i need to know if permitted to like it, please

#in love with the sentiment #terrified of the demand

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Now that it's morning and I've had some sleep..... I still need to know. Anyone in the day crowd have any ideas wtf is going on with this?

I am so freaking confused yall... my professor signs all of his comments and emails as ADam.

After more investigation than I care to admit, I found out his middle name is Adam, but that still doesn't explain why he capitalizes the "D" every time too?? Is this some thing I'm too old or young to understand??

Please, it's nearly 3am, I'm writing a final on a Tuesday night... I have work at 7 tomorrow morning... I just need to know what the heck ADam means

#please #i dont want to email him over this #but i sincerely might

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mlp in a nutshell

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The boop is gone... pain... misery... darkness

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if there's one thing we can learn from this booping experience it's that we need to give people notes and interact with them for tumblr to be fun and thriving

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Out of curiosity and also guilt over my own coffee intake. I wanna ask:

Now I'm not talking about when you're studying and so you drink 3x the usual amount or something like that. This isn't me asking what your record is. I'm talking about the most basic, average day, how many coffees you drink?

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I am so freaking confused yall... my professor signs all of his comments and emails as ADam.

After more investigation than I care to admit, I found out his middle name is Adam, but that still doesn't explain why he capitalizes the "D" every time too?? Is this some thing I'm too old or young to understand??

Please, it's nearly 3am, I'm writing a final on a Tuesday night... I have work at 7 tomorrow morning... I just need to know what the heck ADam means

#I'm stuck #Going back to school was clearly a terrible decision #I miss sleep

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"yes, lets make it so boops count as notes, what could possibly go wrong"

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You guys really liked my last poll so

#into a Ghibli film you go #not as a punishment #but because i think youd enjoy the vibes there

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One thing I really love right now is how my cat seems to worry about me like a dotting mother.

I'm up late working on a final in the living room while my partner's in bed and she knows *something* is up because we always go to bed at the same time, together. So she's brought me some of her favorite things. A mouse toy, her crinkley raman toy, two hair ties tied together. I think she's trying to fix whatever is *wrong*. I just got up to grab some water and she walked in circles around me as I filled my cup, when I sat back down, she carefully rearranged her toys for me.

Like, she doesn't understand that I'm up working on something and she doesn't understand that I'll be to bed as soon as I can, she just understands that things are *different* and she's doing her damnest to make sure it's all okay.

I don't think we deserve these little guys as our friends.

#late night thoughts #cats