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tiramisu am i right

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I'm still very early in gintama but I just finished episode 13 and I'm obsessed with how gintoki describes having important people in your life and loss.

It's inverse to the widespread way that it's generally described in both media and life- that being, loss as a heavy feeling that weighs on the soul, negative emotions in general are described as heavy, connoting burden; whilst the opposite of that is a feeling of lightness, usually referring to how significant (in a positive sense) people in our lives can lift us up and help us carry our burden, as well as the fun, genuine joy that can be experienced around the people we love.

This is a very valid and real description of it, in my own experiences I have felt heaviness, so I completely understand where this representation comes from and I recognise and appreciate it. But the difference is why gintamas depiction sticks out to me.

Gintoki describes the deep care he feels for his friends as 'heavy'.

He quotes Tokugawa Ieyasu, saying, "To live a full life means to carry a heavy burden throughout a long journey." Gintoki's words are as follows:

"It's not really a burden...Everyone's got both hands full of something that matters. You just don't realise it when you're carrying it. It's only after you drop it that you realise how heavy it was in the first place."

Later, when he's literally carrying kagura and shinpachi he says, "you guys are heavy, damnit."

And I'm just really in love with this flipping of the negative connotations of 'heaviness'! Because yeah, love and care is weight on the soul, not in a way that drags you down, but in a way that grounds you. Lightness in this context now connotes something like empty space, a feeling of nothingness or numbness. Love and care is weight as opposed to lightness because weight means it impacts you, matters to you. You're carrying around all this love and it's not a burden, it's fulfilment.

#gintama

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the smallest artist i listen to? probably the bird outside my window

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ursula k le guin was right

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#persona 5

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I think the reason non-believing teenagers are some of the most stridently against religion is because of the very practical point that they are the ones most forced to perform religion. And they're right. Nothing to do with 'immaturity.'

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Odazai + TV girl

#aughhhhg auahahahhhhgggggg #good art. #odazai #bungo stray dogs

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me n soberto death twin fantasy carsead headrest against the world rn

#vaguely related but its such an odazai song.....

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its like you dont even want to sell your life to a corporation

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cospro cooking contest! i started this back in january :,D i was planning on finishing it but i got lazy and busy. it was mostly an excuse for me to still draw enstars while doing food art studies. who knows, i might finish it if this does well.

#enstars

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Fashion Dazai

Because he too deserves to be a fashionista.

#bungo stray dogs

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I like to think that Oda would let Dazai stay over at his place sometimes back then. (Because Mr. Demon Prodigy didn't have no proper house).

#bungo stray dogs

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did YOU KNOW i cant draw cats

#bungo stray dogs

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btw i highly recommend dropping to your knees with a forlorn expression every time something mildly inconveniences you

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why do you hate swifties so much

because they aligned themselves with the treacherous count dooku

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Taylor Swift is not gay people music. Get help.